comic cimoc

it has been a while since ive drawn something.

so here's one of my fave characters from x-men:

BEAST



i actually wanted to draw more x men but i stopped at wolverine.

i guess i failed to bring out the savage animal in him but hey

you cant draw em now you draw em later.

got to practise first.

so to those budding artists out there, listen up

if at first you dont succeed, try and try again

cos it takes tons of reference work AND practise

to draw it right..

****

today, or the day before (doesnt matter), went to bibik's place to cook for tomorrow. had a kenduri there. AND, as usual, i was the official taste tester. my mom and aunt cooked yummy and tantalizing dishes. to be honest i was damn hungry. so i kept taking lil bits and pieces here and there. haha. they guys outside watched spidey 1 and 2 back to back and im like:

spidey sucks! he should be a supervillain. i mean, he's poor. so go rob a bank or something.

but then as the ending drew nearer and causes the story to climax (XD..dzak u are sooo dirrty) i soon realised that spidey's cool (hate to admit it). nevertheless, wolverine still kicks ass!

rock on..

love you..

selamat hari raya haji

comic cimoc

christmas

this is what happened before and after christmas.

me went to the hospital to check out my grandad's brother-in-law. he aint feeling too good. very frail old man. they say sometimes he gets unaware of the surroundings and just blacks out.

around seven me left the hospital to angela's place for this before christmas dinner. i tell you wot, japanese people are brilliant hosts. her mum was hype man. the food? it wasnt nice...it was absolutely delicious! we got seabass, octopus, chicken and lots more. i kept hogging the mozarella though. and her mom was quite shocked that we actually ate mozarella. haha. then i told her oh we love italian food. the seabass was superb~

after that we -me,sam,ian,xunhao,karen,angela- went to roam around town looking for a place to sit down and chill out yeah. good drinks too. then it was christmas. haha. there were people cheering here and there. ok im no christmas freak haha.

then ian, xun hao and sam came to crash at my crib. we played dota till like 6am. yes 6. can you believe that? it took about 4-5 mathes with each lasting about 50 minutes.

and i was the only one who did not sleep.

afterwards we had a good meal of fried fish courtesy of me and samuel. my cookin is getting better and better. haha.

****

today is christmas. even though i promised a drawing. i didnt draw.

=(

sorry.

rock on..

love you...

updateupdate

this and update..

aiiight..

watched some funny stuff on youtube recently.

he goes by the name of 'ali g'.

if youre familiar with borat then ali g shouldnt be much of a difference cos theyre the same guy. i think. backed with the funny jamaican accent and a gangsta rapper attitude, this guy is wack. respect man.

also this thing about bunnies. theyre cute. ima buy one when i get old enough to make 'decisions' on ma own.

she's gone to kl till monday. im sad. worried. i miss her. duh.

havent been drawing much lately. sorry to all the peeps who like me drawings. i'll come up with something soon enough. so stick with me. aite?



rock on...

love you...

wacky

i got a new phone XD

nokia 6280

and

1GB worth of memory space thanks to the memory card!

sorry no new drawings today =(

word..

rock on..

love you..

so delicious

today im not gona write...

so here's something for you all to look at! =)



rock on..

love you..

problems

problems coming back to bite me.

i have tons of work to do which i am currently struggling to do.

it is no small feat.

and yana has here problems too.

which i did helped. and advised. and i cant help anymore.

im holding on to my wits.

the thought of quitting haunts my mind once more.

but im no quitter. since when?

my life's been crashing down since i left secondary school.

im becoming more stupid (maybe lol)

aiyah. its just the period where you feel all the stress.

argh.



iron maiden-the trooper

shoot all me problems away

rock on..

love you..

librarian

I KNOW YOU PEOPLE HATE HER CUZ YOU'RE ALL JEALOUS SHE CAN PLAY BUT YOU CANT PLAY. OF COURSE I MAY BE BIASED TOWARDS HER. BUT YOU WOULD TOO IF YOU HAD MY POWER.

I JUST HATE PEOPLE WHO TALK BEHIND OUR BACKS.

LOWLIVES.

=)

sian. my brother got a new 'temporary' motorola phone. its shiny.

and.

her period came yesterday.

shant talk anymore. too lazy to finish blog entry. infuriated.

rock on...

love you...

down with the sickness

*ack!*

im sick..

(sick of what?)

no im just sick..

dumb sore throat-fever-blocked nasal passage.

and for some strange reason my computer is lagging.

its fun to talk about magic again.

"empty the warrens is just too much mana for me. my mana curve is just around 2-3 mana. not four. i cant afford to put it in my deck. however, your suggestion to include it in a red deck intrigued me. maybe a mono-red goblin-burn deck. after 'burning' an opponent's creatures you might wana play warrens. but im not sure about that since you have to have an ample amount of mana which is really rare in a red deck during early game and mid game. however, during the late game, you could make the sudden incoming of a lot of goblins your win condition."

burn+burn+burn+warrens = 7 or so goblins?

but i dont understand why you would wana do that when you could just fireball to the dome. also, warrens has some sorta synergy with goblin sharpshooter.

oh well...i was out of the magic business aeons ago..

rock on...

love you...

zomfgpbcampzomfg

prefect's camp was a tad boring.

at least we met up (seniors) and had a good night.

azar was there too, in his civil defence uniform; boots and all.

siew huai was there. er..

themis

wei xian

clare

pawan!

and there were other seniors as well..including bryce. (ooh thats old)

AND

ZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFGZOMFG

I LOST MY SKETCHBOOK

its in the ava room...

BUT i LOST IT

O.O

help...

rock on...

love you...

indestructible

("Destroy" effects and lethal damage don't destroy it.)

oh fuck

i was doing microstation..

then i closed the file..i saved duh

then i opened it after awhile..

"no elements found"

you're fucking me right?

"no elements found"

fuck man..FUCK

[im still trying to find my fucking file]

if there're no elements found then why isit fucking 134Kb when you say that there is fucking nothing inside???

wtf?!

****

my shittiest drawing ever..i hate it..but nothing else to put



hey hey..elvish soultiller from MtG...

rock on..

love you..

architecture just fucks man..

fuck myself

[something me and her were doodling]

dzaki you are an idiot. a complete moron. fool.

i hate you. sucker. your an idiot. idiot.

dont you have any sense in that chump head of yours?

stupid stupid stupid.

chee bye. fuck you la.

stupid ass moron.

eeaarrghh!!

infinitely stupid moron.

Dzaki looks up.

" Damn how i wish i didnt say that. Damn!! ".

damn it all alright?

love you...

rock on...

extinction

i kinda like hitler a lot more now.

anyway, school was kind of a drag today (as with other school days). we did some structural planning shit. then played tai tee[?] (big two) afterwards (like we always do). iman was sick so he left earlier, around 4 20? daniel taught me how to play two-player tai tee[?]. see we just divide em into two piles of 13s, four piles of 5s and a pair of 3s. so each of us gets a set of 13s, a pair of 5s and one set of 3s. we just add the piles of 5, 5 and 3 respectively when we have 5 cards in our hand. as usual the one who finishes first wins. at first i wasnt too sure, but then i finally got the hang of it and started beating daniel (the 5-card wonder)[pro sia that guy].

anyway, we left in this big group and had ramly burgers on the way home.

ohh. and below? some miscelaneous shtuff. click if your bored.

i know you are.



rock on...

love you...

horn

these few days whisk past very fast.
(is whisk ? a word? anyway that rhymes)

something i did for a friend...



kids these days are very vulgar. and extremely rude? them kids under my block keep shouting and making noise and stuff. did i mention they curse and swear?

the plight of living on the second floor...

im starting to like deviantart. it gives me this drive to draw stuff. give me inspiration. but somehow when i get to the paper i dont feel like drawing no more. ah. oh well.

that time i went back to gess. drew this dragon on the whiteboard at the study corner. for fun. surprised nobody erased it when i went there on tues. haha.

rock on...

love you..

darch

i fucking hate architecture....



love you..

rock on..

byob

bring your own bow

archery:

i guess it wasnt too bad. my groupings were coming back to me again. 18m? no problem. i already knew my sight for that distance. basically, my posture was ok. i learned to push forward and anchor. i still couldnt 'stone' that long. i guess im too hasty. the only thing i have to work on from now on is my release. it was good that there were seniors who helped me out. i guess now i know that there are people out there who would talk to juniors. i kinda hate segregation. also, once my release is good, im gona concentrate on my groupings. by far, i think that i have the best groupings amongst all the halfyears. i wouldnt want to be complacent now though.

and yeah, strange thing happened. hafiz placed this keeper's glove into the hole in one of the boards. then i accidentally shot into the hole and it went through the glove. actually it was a bad shot cus i was aiming for the pin. but hey, a lil humor doesnt hurt.

****

now im just waiting for her return. tomorrow. then im gona call her. then there's band on tuesday so yeah. band died a long time ago. im the one that evens the dirt on the grave.

rock on...

love you...

roof

i cant do it man. i can get the form. i still havent done my roof design. nothing is coming to my brains. if i cant finalise this shit asap im done for. in two weeks time i got to submit this very detailed house plan.

this is what they call 'micro' design. god save me.



this is the world turtle. kelly told me it reminded her of some cartoon long ago. it was about some bunch of monkeys, well actually a whole civilisation of monkeys that settled on this huge turtle, thinking it was some sort of island. then, when they started digging, the turle of course felt immense pain ( dont you think its painful if someone hammers you with a pneumatic drill?). so the turtle submerged itself underwater and drowned all the monkeys which apparently didnt know how to swim.

rock on...

love you..

eeyore

someone said my i remind him of eeyore. well not exactly me but my blog entries. are they really sad? i dont know. sometimes they're happy. maybe this isnt a very good period of time but i can tell you im definitely not EMO.



hates..emo..Eeeee

rock on..

love you sayang..

house

this has nothing to do with anything..

yesterday was a great day. i went out with my family for hari raya. then we went to sarah's house. =)

and her turtle is soo cute. its way cuter than mine.

feeling very tired today. went back early from tutorial. my body is killing me. so tired.

adn so many things to do! CRS, refining of the roof design..and that TLC logo thing. which should be easy. just musnt let it slip my mind ahah.

rock on..

love you..

busted bow

before i begin...



which has nothing to do with today's post...

a short insight in archery practise:

today wasnt a very good day. i wasnt on form. my arrows flew everywhere. i blame it on me not attending archery for the past two weeks.

AND.

unbeknownst to me, i was shooting 24lbs, 40cm face with a distance of 18m. so i guess my mistakes werent that phenomenally surprising.

hafiz said that at 30m every single mistake is amplified. you release wrongly and the arrow flies aomewhere else. scary sia. and he keeps telling me he wants to increase his poundage. and im like struggling with a 24lb bow.

but i was a wee bit proud. i shot 18m! but no grouping =( i must come earlier next time (i was late)

and i miss that busted bow.

rock on...

love you..

its times like these

i went to vivocity again today. this time with ian. we met sarah and her sister there, along with her aunt.

and the aunt thought ian was me. XD

it was a good time. great in fact. just sitting down there in long john. talking. doodling. making jokes with ian. seeing her smile. it makes me go all warm inside.

i helped her design something for her stock exchange tomorrow. hopefully she'll be able to reproduce what i drew. she'll do it.

sent her home by bus. it was really nice. she told me i was very sweet today.

"only today?"

"okay, sweeter"

its times like these we learn to live again.

aerp

i like pleasure spiked with pain
and music is my aeroplane
its my aeroplane~

my new favourite song from RHCP

"aeroplane"

features Dave Navarro too.

anw..

Happy Birthday to ME =)

i feel so lethargic right now...




i miss you..very much

love you..

rock on..

birthday

" the horrible truth"



"my birthday is coming..

just two days now"..

"i hate my birthday.."

"it is the least celebrated event in my life.."

"its the day i was born into the harsh cruel world.."

"i do celerate my birthday..

in the crevices of my head, mind.."

"i just realised to a large extent that life really sucks..

and optimism is a deadly veil that covers the grotesque truth.."

"slowly He is taking everything away from me..

eventually, it will be me.."

rock on..

love you..

and i miss you so much it hurt so bad its got to be good, mysterious girl misunderstood..wake me from this horrid nightmare. slap me before i rust, before i start to decompose..

6468416

i suck at drums..




yeah..someday my arm's gonna be as big as that..

rock on..

love you..

ahahahaha

formal band rod wasnt that interesting. loved the video though. that was THE best part of the function. other than that, the MC-ing, ushering, ambience didnt quite cut it for me. the food should have tasted great, if only i could eat it. i didnt.

oh well. im just a silly senior. dont care about me aite? you guys go down your way.

rock on..

love you..

wa lan eh

this just sucks man. nobody reads my blog anymore.

oh well. im used to talking to walls.

practise my typing.

miscellanious (is that how you spell it?) stuff below..



hammer head sharks...a ferocious hunter..next



"they're goblins Harry.." . i bet YOUR goblins dont kick ass.



Link from the Legend of Zelda. no that's his name..Link

****

went to band rod this afternoon and it sucked. only 4 seniors came back and i for once (ok not for once) didnt like the 'welcome' and 'ushering' at all. ok i dont want to bitch about you all la. my band days are over.

however, the video like, kicked ass! and by the way, the dude in the trolley IS NOT ME. curse you Seah..cheesy sia

rock on...

love you...

tong

stadium arcadium
a mirror to the moon
well im warming
and im forming

to you...




rock on...

love you..

siannning

i just realised that i create stupid titles for my blog posts.

haha how would you know? you cant see em.

i have to rush abit on my primer. this is the last project of the year babe. high weightage. and no walk in the park. we folks gotta design a whole house. every nook and cranny. every single detail. and boy it aint easy.

and the queues are fucking long lah.

zhao yi wants to fuck team china already.

lol.

i mean, how are we supposed to move on when the lecturers are not there to tell us wether we are goin in the right direction?



oh..and for the sake of my deteriorating drawing skills, i shall upload one sketch per entry..this is cheating lahh (above) ..a quick doodle..but nevermind..i promise to put better ones in the future..

rock on...

love you sayang..

fury

deep shit.

Deck name
1. Aggro Loam
2. Mono Green Aggro
3. Izzetron
4. Blue-White Urzatron
5. Affinity
6. Burning Tog
7. Blue-Black Tog
8. Heartbeat Combo
9. Aggro Rock
10. Scepter/Chant
11. Red-Green Beats
12. Gifts Rock
13. Tooth and Nail
14. Boros Deck Wins
15. Zoo
16. Balancing Ting
17. Friggorid
18. Red Deck Wins
19. Flow Rock
20. Sligh

the top twenty extended decks...

omg!

where is mono-red gobilns???

*sob*

time to get a new deck dzaki...

or you could play tribal...

rock on..

love you..

If you are interested, here is what Magic theory written by the game's best writers can do for you:

Make the game more fun. If you are the type of person who not only likes to see what is happening but also wants to understand why it is happening, then theory has something to offer you. For many players, learning itself is a source of joy.
Make you a better Magic player. By understanding more about the game, you will almost certainly become a better player.
Make you a better problem solver. By understanding more about why the game works like it does, you can start to address the game itself at a different level. Can't get deck X do beat deck Y? Theory can help a lot by giving you new avenues and paths of thought designed to attack different sorts of problems that you might not see without it.
Make you smarter. Shh, don't tell anyone, but Magic is fundamentally a math game. You knew that, right? It's okay if you didn't because it's really fun math, so as long as you keep it on the downlow, no one else has to know. Regardless, just playing Magic will not only make you better at math, but it will likely make you better at a lot of things, including logic, problem solving, cause and effect relationships, and so much more. It will likely increase your vocabulary without you even noticing. Magic theory goes a step beyond the norm and teaches you to figure out why things happen the way they do, and once you know that, you can go about changing how things happen in the first place.


yes people, magic the gathering makes you smarter..

rock on...

love you

summary

a brief interlude into archery...

so there i was. and nobody was there. it was 8 45am. great. you show em a lil bit of enthusiasm and no one's there. you turn up abit late and they're shooting without you.

so today's practise was hazy, very hazy, with PSI of about 130. shocking isnt it? they should construct this huge filter to trap all the harmful debris in the air. or maybe a gigantic fan to blow it to malaysia. lol.

back to the archery.

well, it was fine actually. the surprising thing is that i was consistent. shot 9s, 10s and Xs. for those of you who are suddenly blur, 9, 10 and X are the innermost part of the bullseye, with X being the bullseye.

however, it was like a very short distance so i guess its comsidered an easy task. compared to the rest i'd say im good. consistent la. i dont want to act big. cos im not big.

yet. tunggu aje.

then i thought i'd stay back with the rest or em. i did. but i was appalled by the..the.."unfriendliness"? ok la. i may not be a senior archer. but at least give me the 'welcome to sp archery' look la. sorry if i offended anybody but im just keen alright?

sheesh.

rock on...

love you..

we believe

"we believe"


my schedule lately is packed to the brim with projects, assignments and drawings. more and more drawings. i bet that if you went to fill up a pick up truck with my drawings it would overflow and all four tires will bust.

nah, just kidding. i havent reached to that point.yet

i really enjoy drawing. sketching in particular. i remember when i was a small lad around the age of four? my mom said that i drew everyday. my first drawing, that i kept drawing and drawing the whole day, resembled a sea urchin. so yeah. maybe that was what i drew. sea urchins.

then after that i got fascinated with drawing whatever i could see in books, magazines, the television anything! my interest grew day by day as i slowly honed my ability. but not to perfection.

not yet anyway.

a while later during the end of primary school i was hooked on drawing fantasy art. of dragons, knights, armies of the undead. all due to the wonderful game of magic. magic the gathering tcg has inspired me countless times, to pick up that pencil or pen and illustrate its world. from dominaria to mirrodin and then to the spiritual plane of kamigawa. fantasy art is truly amazing.

currently.

who knew that drawing buildings could be so much fun? apart from drawing the living (or in some cases undead) i have immersed myself into drawing landscape, buildings and etc. architecture, my current interest. my course.

till then, feel free to ask for drawings.

rock on...

love you..

children

happy children's day.

went for archery training yesterday and,

OUCH!

hurt my left arm. but just a few bruises though.

i think, haha, i think its coz i overdrew. or isit coz my left arm wasnt in the right posture? wait wait i know! i wasnt standing perpendicular to the target! i was bending too much. then when i released the bowstring srtuck my left forearm. and even my bicep.

"oh i cant help you with that. your bicep is too big"

WHAT??

anyway it was real fun. i think. at the end of the day i got a good feeling of how things work out and about form and blah blih blah tachnical stuff about archery.

its like you want to shoot more and more and more and keep shooting till you get that target. hahaha! then there was this instance where me hafiz and another guy were shooting the same board. and guess what? haha. all of us shot within the yellow!

amazing.

rock on...

love you..

PS: dont give uo..study hard..im praying for you

teeter totter

impulse.

i acted on impulse.

i saw hafiz, saw the bows, saw the form, remembered his blog rants and signed up.

why?

dont ask me why.

****

im crying.

softly. sobbing.

my passion.

should i lose it?

should i give it up?

no not drawing.

drumming.

it has been eons since ive last drummed.

maybe my time is up..

:'(

rock on...

love you...

corbusier

hady mirza won.

muahahahahahahahahaha!

****

today rain pee-ed again. anyway i was late for lecture. half hour counts as late? i forgot that they had someone take over ADS. normaly 1030 isnt late. he'd be marking attendance at the point of time.

lecture was ok today. the class was exceptionally quiet. i wonder why. oh well, no time to ponder about unnecessary things. thay gave us our 'refresher course' today. we're supposed to do a case study on any house made by one of the architects that they have listed down. again, i have to cope with the ardous task of groupwork. but this time i want to make things right. i desperately want my As. and in ths period of time, the fasting month, it would be quite a challenge to stay up late to zealously submerge myself in extra work that could, hopefully, be worthwhile and add a mark or two. also, how the heck are we supposed to do a study model AND a structural model in less than a week??

preposterous. i guess we deserved it, for slacking so much.

work work work..

i dont care, im gona work till i faint. wait not actually faint la but close to fainting.

if i faint there goes my fasting.

****

in the future, hopefully, im gona start posting pictures here. maybe get a bigger blog so that ya'll dont have to squint to read the posts. hey, im no blog whiz, if there ever was one.

thats it for today, got to go back to my project. this means no more visits to band during holidays, unless i already finish quite a chunk la.

this time must buy proper cardboard to make the models.

rock on..

love you..

PS: nobody wants to play magic with me. hey guys out there. play la. just play for old time's sake. oh and in case fizz is reading this, send me jellybelly's mobile.

haha

fasting month is finally here.its ok la, not that bad. though it doesnt feel like fasting month.and i feel incredibly tired.

yesterday me and sam went to the magic: the gathering time spiral pre-release ( its a convention thingy) at the concourse.

it looked kinda weird. usually they hold em at suntec city. in a proper convention hall, instead of in the middle of a shopping centre. it looked kinda out of place.

so we were there and browsing through the crap rares (one dollar rare cards). sam was looking fo the missing pieces to his 'elf' deck, while i was contemplating on spending 10 bucks to add more firepower to my goblin deck.

here's a breakdown of my expenditure:

1 goblin sharpshooter(rare)(japanese version) - $10ea
1 goblin sharpshooter(rare)(chinese version) - $10ea
2 ib halfheart, goblin tactician - $5ea

so..$30 bucks.

and then i told myself..stop

dont buy anymore. i have that tendency to overindulge.

and that left sameul envious cos eventhough he bought more cards than me it only amounted to what? less than $10? lol..

important announcement :

ladies and gentlemen, i think im going back into the magic scence.

end my turn.

rock on...

love you..

PS: poor ian.

dirty things

this is the final week of holiday.

this is also the final week of not having to wait till 7++pm to eat. and then after that you still have to go to the mosque to pray.

every single night.

the month of fasting is slowly approaching. of course i can tahan not eating. its the getting angry part that im worried about. cos when you fast you're not supposed to get angry or anything.

you're supposed to be humble.

so if anybody out there disturbs me ON PURPOSE, he/she is being a total jerk.

then maybe after fasting i'll beat 'em up.

kidding.

****

its all karen's fault.

that night i went to ian's place and there was this neopets thingy on his internet browser.

n e o p e t s


sounds familiar.

then i went.

and got HOOKED.

fuck sia..

****

im not particularly in a good mood right now. firstly, holidays are ending. secondly, my dad is really pissed about my phonebill. it's like $65? and sometimes way much more than that. and i blame myself. i just feel fucking guilty. i wish i could pay him but hey, i dont have pocket money. i have to work to be able to eat my meals three fucking times a day! guys, if you see me sms-ing someone, stop me. and finally, i dont get to see my immortal till after hari raya. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?? I MISS HER LIKE CRAZY...

rock on..

prison song

its raining in the morning.

rain

dont over-pee anymore.

****

arsenal won yesterday =)

by one-nil.

the saddest part was that hafiz didnt watch(i think).

usually he'll message me "GOOOAAALLL!!!"

but now, nah.

his blog has become somewhat of an archer's blog.

sound's good the name.

maybe he should change it to that.

but its good that he doing well.

****

i miss sitting beside her. putting my arm round her. getting closer. hug. then she'll put her head on my shoulder. and i'll kiss her forehead, smell her hair (shampoo). then we'll hold hands and just stare blankly into space.

but that was then this is now la.

****

im drawing now...

gtg..

rock on..

love you..

promiscous

i can draw bunnies now.

and

mystical water dragons.

bunny can fly, swim and do a whole lot more things once i get my brain cracking on the next mini comic strip.

until then, fly bunny, fly.

****

they need to do storyboarding.

i can do abit of storyboarding.

but i dont think i am that willing to help them.

i dunno.

im considering.

and

its quite scary and freaky.

but its a challenge.

and whats in it for me?

so far desmond and ian has approached me to do storyboards for them.

im gona wait till wen fong finds me.

****

fable is such a nice game.

though its old lah.

u get to be good or bad.

i was bad last time.

grew 3 inch horns.

maybe im gona be good this time round.

but eating those crunchy chicks make me evil.

lol

rock on...

love you..

bugger

oh bugger.

it has become hard for me to concentrate recently. i get halfway into drawing something and then suddenly i 'abandon' it and go into another crazy idea. and it doesnt work. most of the time i dont get things done.

at first i set my pencils on drawing the ever infamous balanar the night stalker (DotA Scourge hero). then after a few playful sketches i got a sudden inspiration to draw a comic (yet another one) for my dear. something about bunnies.

bunnies arent hard to draw right?

wrong.

as musicians have high standards to music, draw-ers have high standards to drawing.

or is it artists have a high standard on art?

anyway, the cycle doesnt end there. after learning how to draw this winx bunny that she suddenly loved, i got into more trouble. apparently the masterpiece people want a castle drawing for who knows what. so i got interested, again and start to draw castle elevations. i love doing the shading (timothy would be proud!). but then ian hasnt come up with the pictures so there is nothing for me to draw. yet (i hope).

now, im currently designing this national jersey after reading the new paper on sunday. they want to design a new national jersey.

i can draw.

i love football.

why not?

rock on...

love you =)

shaken

just finished playing hamachi DotA with ian.

tired la.

i play better at lan shops were the computers are faster.

i think that makes my brain go faster too.

i guess.

went back to band today.

horrible.

terrible.

worse than vegetable.

no mood to rant on gessband blog.

nothing good to wtie about.

it was extremely horrible.

im shaken.

yes by that and something else.

i must ask for his forgiveness.

im scared. frightened.

im very scared.

im ashamed.

im scared of you.

but you are the only being that offers both the protection and the punishment.

i must be more disciplined.

i will make an effort.

please forgive me.

it

tired tired tired.

been gym-ing the past few days, either alone or with company.

anyway, this week has been eventfull, unlike other weeks.

on wednesday i went to jon's birthday party at bisuous. wasnt really very exciting. jon had an unfortunate accident though. burnt his face. poor jon. i had an unfortunate mishap a well. quarrelled with her yet again. terrible time. that's why i wasnt so involved in the party. in the end sam, hafiz, alvin and me went home early. and alvin insisted he was drunk but we ignored him anyways.

the next day was teacher's day. i was supposed to be involved in some performance but it was cancelled due to the rain. yay. i didnt have to go to school that early, much to her disappointment.

went there with hafiz anyway. met up with the gang. they ton the whole night at bisuous. it was raining uncontrollably. downpour la. so we had breakfast and waited till it stopped. or at least was drizzling.

we got to school in the nick of time to see the concert which was, in our standards, quite un-entertaining. after that i followed her back and all of us got separated i guess.

that night we went to watch the result show, singapore idol. yes. yes yes yes. finally joakim is out. but that wasnt what made the night special. the thing was, i went there with her mom and dad. i didnt talk to them alot but hey, i aint a talkative person. it was cool. i love her alot.

after SI we (band people) went to makan at adam road. i guess i was overly excited so i ate alot. mutton chop and mutton soup together. sin hua was emoing, we all didnt know why. i guess he was sad joakim was out (lol). took a can with tiffany, weiting and sam back to clementi. sam. that flirt LOL.

on friday gym again. but this time hafiz was there. he broke up with nana so i guess i'd cheer him up. gym as usual was fun and tiring. worked on my back. hafiz got crazier as night came. we were at sam's place gorging on mozzarella. i learnt tai -tee (big 2) that night. bugger.i didnt win though. but not bad eh? fast learning. after that, samuel kinda persuaded hafiz to play lan. and boy was he damn noisy that night. no offence. we plated the 'archer' match. i wad using drow, fiz used clinkz and poor poor samuel used medusa. he died alot. but i had to give him credit la. it wasnt his best hero. and what's important was to make hafiz happy again. in the end he got 20 kills and sam got..er..a few la. me? 23 kills, buriza, lothars and a 2/3 finished divine rapier. damn you claymore.

anyway yeah thats pretty much what happened. it would have been longer if i'd bothered to exaggerate but hey penatlah.

rock on...

love you..

my closest best friend =)

conqueror

it was stupendously crazy.

we were celebrating samuel's birthday.

and the birthday boy wanted to play LAN.

time check = 11 something PM.

i didnt mind though.

so we met at great world before going down to paradiz centre. it was a long time since i last chatted with desmond. actually its not but nevermind. we talked about funny stuff but mostly rhcp. then as usual they made fun of birthday boy.

so at selegie we played 3v3 DotA. and i got paired with two beginners. im not saying im a pro but going with two beginners against samuel, desmond and wen fong is a great challenge.

and i was pissed halfway through the game. i kept dying lor. everytime i killed someone, i was the next in line to die. but it was fun feeding off desmond lol.

eventually, i managed to pull through NOT victorious but at least i lost with honour. i think i had the second highest kills next to samuel.

cool.

enough about dota.

****

i was damn shagged. its 4 in the morning and me and desmond were watching 'rhcp what hits??' limited edition at sam's place. we kinda figured that we'd have an enormous taxi fare, especially me, if all of us went home. so we decided to ton the night at sam's. nothing much la. talked about soccer, rhcp, school and stuff. was really fun to catch up on the times with desmond. such a nice guy.

the next day we went for drills after waking up late (me)...

i shant continue la.

too penat.

maybe i'll write in the gessband blog or something..

rock on..

love you..=)

hahaha

its about 6 in the morning.

i really have nothing to post these few days. apart from going gym and back to band nothing special ever happens. i've spent most of my 'philosophical writing' (as valerie would call it) on writing 'chapters from the old testament' (as darryl would call it) on the band blog. i think im spent. im gona get wasted soon.

no cash too. how's a guy gona enjoy his holidays? it's either my income is too low or my expenditure is too high.

anyway, jonathan's birthday is coming up next week. though he's not a very close friend of mine, i think im gona draw him something. sam's birthday is coming up as well. im definitely gona have to draw him something. he's a good friend, besides all the childish tantrums.

and isnt it a coincidence that my birthday, his birthday and her birthday all fall on the same day but different month and year?

my brother is really getting on my nerves. no. my brotherS. one keeps banging on his stupid guitar. what's worse is that he managed to find the wire for the amplifier. and he keeps blasting gawd awful music on the computer.

the other brother i think is too spoiled. way too spoiled. just because your the youngest doesnt mean people should spoil you.

i think i'll end it for now.

rock on...

love you...

kids play

i will never grow up.

i mature yes, but i will never grow up.

i will always be a kid.

i love teen titans.

the justice league.

super robot monkey team hyper force go!

i will never grow up.

****

time is strange for me.

why is it that whenever i look at the watch or clock its always something symbolic?

3.14 is pie

3.16 some lines psalms thingy right?

12.34

9.16

6.19 booyaka booyaka

9.11?

i even get my psle score

2.34

how cool is that?

****

i dont fit in.

rock on..

love you so much...

hate

i hate whats goin on at the gessband blog.

i hate people who have no guts.

i hate people who hide behind something and then throw insults as if they grew on tress.

oh well.

it just shows that there are scum on this good earth.

****

went to the gym today with xunhao. i knew i couldnt go with sam anymore even though he says he'll be goin the day before.

it's cause he got masterpiece shooting stuff production.

i hope they fix their problems soon.

so anyway little xunhao did good today. he actually did a complete set.

and then more sets.

and more and more sets!

sooner of later he'll be big.

big enough to pound people i hope.

****

i couldnt believe my ears that day, when i learnt about a certain backstabber.

i didnt really suspect that he/she (protect identity) WAS a backstabber.

personally, i DETEST backstabbing. though it scores high marks in villiany, i dont like it.

its way too low for me. people like me prefer direct action.

you dont like, say you dont like. dont go around backstabbing.

though using rikimaru to backstab..that one is fun la

****

hopefully, i dont get wasted during my holidays. i got to be more responsible at school. more discipline.

heck.

we all have 'new year/and of holiday' resolutions.

but we follow none of em till its too late.

****

if i found out who he is...

aiya..forget about it dzaki..hes not worth your time..

but he insulted you...

nevermind la..

but what if you knew who he was?

i'll get ian, desmond, and the rest of the guys to beat him up la..isnt it that obvious?

haha..cool

****

rock on...

love you...

anniversary

happy belated monthly anniversary dear =)

i actually forgot

u too

XD

anyway band today was THE MOST boring ever. there was no practise today so i had nothing to blog anout. usually i rant about how people dont play properly etc. so today they spent the whole time listening to foo.

which i knoe they didnt.

how could anyone?

went in the store room with sarah, ian and rain. lol. its a couple thing.

and no it wasnt an orgy.

so yeah we went in and guess what? there were photo books on the floor so we sort of went throught the history of gessband.

dont you just love old photos?

"there's ian! omg he's so small and skinny!"

"omg! omg! they have us marching!! i didnt know they took our pictures!"

"dzaki! why you look so happy in this picture?LOL"

"des and wen? destined??"

yeah.

it was fun reminiscing. especially the photo of sarah with short hair!

shit.

she's gona kill me for this =P

sorry dear..

i love you..

so after that i accompanied ian on a bus ride to someone's house in tanjong pagar cos apparently he wanted to send a special someone home on that special day that unwittingly was tied to a special occasion which i am now speculating to be hastily made up.

cool.

i like writing long sentences.

kinda have to hold your breath there.

anyway thats wll for now..

got to sleep.

love you..

rock on...


=)

relief

relief.

my final critique is finally over and it turned out to be ok. nobody was shot down by any of the lecturers on the first day.

and.

god has granted me 6 weeks of holidays.

yes.

6 weeks.

so during these 6 weeks here's what im gona do :

visit sarah and gessband
go to the gym in hopes of slightly buffing up my body
draw lots of stuff
draw krevan stuff
draw si hao's cd cover stuff
play around with photoshop cs2
eat lots more
sleep less

so there.

im going band later, leaving around 1 15? that's not to long from now.

so..

love you..

rock on..

hiuyo

ian and i still remain good friends.

so.

here i am doing primer three. well, finishing primer three. god i love that word. finishing. and guess what? out ot four classes, or 80+ people, i was randomly chosen to go present first.

now, panic.

*&%$(&%#$^(^$^)&%!!!???

the good thing is, i dont have to worry about a single shit all week!

except sarah of course. i miss you dear.


good luck to all my friends for their upcoming semestral exams. so maybe i dont have exams. bleah!

*went to paradiz centre. ate at mac there. from my table outside irc i heard a very loud "M-M-M-M-M-M-MONSTER KILL-KILL-KILL!!!!"*

that was loud.

have to finish my primer now.

love you sweetheart.

rock on..

a short blog..for now..maybe if im free-er i'll do longer entries...

the ian post

wow! ian wrote a very very nice story about me on his blog. its kinda old actually. i love hearing nice nice stories about me. im kinda humored =). i was laughing throughout the whole post.

since he has written a little something about me, i (supposedly NAFA's guy),will write something about him.

"the ian story"

i recalled something about a 'problem'?. look, if there is anything, anything at all, just say. DONT say, "there is something"..or.."issue".

what?? what isit?? you know what you're doing? its like trying to say "can you see that small speck of oxygen molecule on ur face?"

"where?"

"its right there cant you see it?"

imagine this. someone goes right up to you and says "there's an issue coming up"

"what?"

"i dunno. but there's an issue. amongst us."

"what?!"

"i dunno. you have to think about it yourself."

"$&&%^#*&??"

cool huh?

and

if there is NOTHING...then why would you say there is something?

isnt it like saying "wow! armstrong is super thin sia!"

and

i get terribly pissed when someone, anyone, talks about my girl. you dont know her.i do. zip it.

BUT.

i have to admit that i can get a lil cranky at times.

however, im still your brother. i will always be your brother. i already apologised if you havent noticed.

why i am doin this is cause. i believe in an eye for an eye. you punch me (physically) i wont punch you back. i wont. i will never punch a brother.

but.

if you rant about me in your blog like some overgrown baby on some bicycle that has no seat then of course ima gona get you back.

please. if upset with me, just say it straight in my face.

i wont eat you.

and samuel will never ever beat me to a pulp.

and yes, i have growned up.

stop being childish.

****

phew. that felt good.

i love all my brothers, including you.

but please, dont talk behind my back.

never~

rock on..

love you..

heya

dammit.

here i am wasting my life, making scale models from pvc. not to mention the hours i spend clicking my time away on the computer just to draw some stupid plan, section and elevation. i also spend huge chunks of my money on cartridge paper(drawing paper), uhu glue and big A0 boards.

maybe i hate my course.

the only good thing about it is that it has no exams.

ROD 06 was ok i guess. though it didnt seem much like an rod to me. there was little if not no interaction between the graduates and the sec 1s. the food is never enough (usual stuff), there were no games nor entertainment except UNO, Big 2, blackjack and mahjong. yes people, mahjong the whole night long.

the accomodations were ok i guess. air-coned. but to some of us, there was an uninvited guest? i shall say no more.

the 'nightwalk' wasnt a tad scary at all. its all your fault jon.

the second day was pretty much slack. nothing much happened this rod.

lets wait for next year.

in the meantime, band camp's coming up. =)

cant wait. seniors rock.

love you.

rock on...

scgs

i wont talk about the concert. im used to concerts, being in them and watching them as well.

however,

i am proud to be a gessband member, even though the concert might not be perfect nor exceed my expectations (i do have high expectations).

so,

che avanza gessband!

special thanks to all the seniors who came back and supported us.

=)

i love you...

rock on...

nice song

this is a nice song.

Wake up,
Grab a brush and put a little (makeup)
Grab a brush and put a little
Hide the scars to fade away the (shakeup)
Hide the scars to fade away the
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
Here you go create another fable

You wanted to
Grab a brush and put a little makeup,
You wanted to
Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup,
You wanted to
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table,
You wanted to

I don't think you trust
In..my..self righteous suicide
I..cry..when angels deserve to die..Die!

Wake up
Grab a brush and put a little (makeup)
Grab a brush and put a little
Hide the scars to fade away the (shakeup)
Hide the scars to fade away the
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
Here you go create another fable

You wanted to
Grab a brush and put a little makeup
You wanted to
Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
You wanted to
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table
You wanted to

I don't think you trust
In..my..self righteous suicide
I..cry..when angels deserve to die
In my..self righteous suicide
I..cry..when angels deserve to die

Father..Father..Father..Father
Father into your hands I commend my spirit
Father into your hands

Why have you forsaken me
In your eyes forsaken me
In your thoughts forsaken me
In your heart forsaken..me oh

Trust in my self righteous suicide
I..cry..when angels deserve to die
In my self righteous suicide
I..cry..when angels deserve to die


System Of A Down

rock on...

love you sayang..

twerp

okay. so im playing in the band concert. big deal.

we had rehearsal today. it's still quite messy. i realised that the band doesnt play with feeling. at least most of them dont. they just produce sound.

but the seniors are okay (sec4s).

short entry now. tired. maybe going off soon.

on the phone with sarah.

and im wondering why i get scolded everytime we're on the phone

rock on...

kol

do come..band's gona play

and im gona sit there..

and sleep..clap..then sleep

cos i know what you guys are playing already...

poit

my life is screwed.

well anyway, went back to band today. on saturday morning? im like, "i usually wake up at 9 kinda person??".

since wanfen wasnt there (yet again), i had to fill in some parts for her. at first it was all okay. the playing was okay. abit. okay MY playing wasnt. (anyone wana commment on that think twice). u guys were messy here and there la.

i was really happy playing again. the feeling is...

liberating?

rejuvenating?

ANYWAYS..

that was BEFORE he PMSED.

then i realised. that my time with the band is up. im not gona play for the concert. unless the percussion really needs me. so far they have everything covered. meaning all parts are taken.

which is good.

the bad thing is that the playing is way not up to standard.

so peeps. if ya need me then gimme a call. if foo wants me (urgh!) then ask him to find me.

****

after band, went to celebrate bernice's birthday. at chicken at kfc. wont eat chicken for a week. next time, people, dont buy TWO sets of family feast.

watched pirates 2. oh. and he died!!! the ever hilarious jack sparrow, eaten by the kraken.

the movie?

funny? yes.

alot of CG. the concept is cool though. who ever thought that the flying dutchman was some octopus-guy-pirate thingy? lol.

cant wait for pirates 3.

then we went to play DOTA.

bernice improved? abit la. abit. yea. thats about it.

BUT.

she did saved my ass. unlike the other time when i shouted "BERNICE!!" but she just stood there, waving that sword in the air. like anyone is gona see it.

oh yeah. sorry sam, for KSing you alot. we all know that you're the better player aite?

sarah slept early today. dont wana distract her.

love you...

rock on..

primer

ive just had it with primer three. its just relentless, these primers. for those of who who are ignorant, primers = projects. although architecture is quite interesting, nmeaning you get to play with different moods using space, its just outright demanding! to be consistent in your work every single time is quite a task for me. sure we dont have exams but that doesnt mean its any levy.

its just one of those "i regret doing that" kinda thing. only for me, i have tons of regrets in my life. it all started in upper sec. i regret not taking combined sciences. of course, how would i know that fate would make me lousy in science? another regret was not working hard for art. i have to live with the misery of having an A2 for the rest of my miserable life. i should have listened to some voice at the back of my head screaming "NAFA!!! NAFA!!!". and now im 'supposedly NAFA's guy' on Ian's blog.

i think i have a slack attitude. i tend to slack alot. not doing work. refusing to constantly refresh myself with class. i skip lectures you know. i sleep late.

i think i need encouragement of some sort. a slap on the face maybe? whatever works i'll take it.

but that passion for art. that sensation i get when drawing pictures from my head. that still lingers. only i dont have much time to draw fantasy anymore. who likes drawing buildings anyway? fuck buildings and microstation! i want dragons and photoshop or paint. i want to be an artist. i rant. i cry. but at the end of the day, im stuck at the workshop thinking of how to make this space have something blah blih blah.

im not a smart person. i dont go to junior college. i dont wish i am. i just wana have a good time. doing what i love to do. architecture? gee i duno. i just dont. its always regret. but then will it be like last time? the time i hated chemistry. when i completely gave up on it at some point of time. and ended failing for almost every test and exam? but i passed in the end. just a mere pass. i wonder is they have a high diploma or low diploma? all i know that if i dont get good enough grades i dont go to university. boo hoo.

rock on...

a sad post..

i love you dear...

perm

you dont have to have low self esteem.

you poor thing.

i miss you.

dont be paranoid.

just fuck 'em aite?

and yes.

you can perm your hair if you want to.

im okay with it =)

rock on..

Aishiteru~

referendum

scold me alot today.

almost broke up.

"you told me that you'd go after the same girl that broke up with you. try your very best to have her again."


"i was so touched"

hmmm. if you didnt realise, we didnt broke up. =)

why?

'cos i begged you not to.

im sorry.

the world is fabricated by intricate lies.

the blueprint of life is made up of deceit.

everything is fake.

so the question is, will you believe everything your sense can comprehend?

do you believe me?

or what this says?

rock on...

is this considered gibberish? =)

eee

when architect and engineer meet, complicating shit happens.

an architect and an engineer were doing self study in the library. out of interest, the engineer peers over the architect's soulder, who was studying how light can be manipulated into a building.

"that's complicated shit man!", the engineer exclaimed.

the architect then pointed to the engineer's book, which was showing some darn formula on calculating the resistance of a diode of some sort.

"no, that's complicated shit!"


abit lame? this actually happened to hafiz and me. some engineer you are! =P

rock on...

lol

this here's a good laugh. done by yifang, yunxin and me during the first pronto victoria interviews. band related stuff. but still funny anyways. i hope she doesnt maul me.

gessBand
Pronto Victoria
Interview questions 05
yunxin
Before we start, I would like you to answer truthfully to the questions. This is an interview, so try your best to impress the panel. However, please be reminded that we have known each other for 3 years. There is no point trying to lie now. So, let us begin.

1. Tell me more about yourself
2. How are your studies?
all As all r lies

3. How is your relationship with your batch?
very nice except dzaki sucks. yifang sucks too, she types very slow.
How committed are you to the band? What other commitments do you have?
100% never skip band practices.
she loves band
5. What do you think about gessBand?
gessband roxs except that dzaki and yifang sucks

What is the best and worst part about gessBand?
best: she is inside the band
weakness: dzaki and yifang inside band

7. What will you change given the chance? Why?
she will kill dzaki and yifang so they will never exist in gessband. because they sucks.

How have the band affected you after 3 years?
yifang and dzaki affect her.

Case scenario
kill the majors. dzaki and yifang wil never be her majors

What do you think is the most important quality of a leader? Why?
she thinks it's her. cos they sucks like ian.

What do you want to achieve in your term of service?
she wants to kill the both of them as usual

What do you think Music is? Do you like it?
music is her. yes. if yifang and dzaki r not inside.

What do you think is your strength and weakness? How did it hinder or help you?
strength: very good, she THINKS she rox (i dun think so)
weakness: no weakness (what a lie)


14. What do you think that your will be able to contribute to the band?
everything. with her she can contribute anything. the band will rox from now on.

15. Why do you think we should give you the post?
because she thinks she is a born leader. dzaki wants to bribe the panel.

Any other comments that you want to tell us?
yifang and dzaki and ian sucks. all sec 4s sucks except for yunxin.

Thank you. Please call in the next person.

kkk

my shortest post...

life, is misearble, withoutyou by my side
and, is everyday worth living for?

rock on...
i love you

hmmm

primer two will be one of my least favourable memories in my life. lets not talk about it.

just got back from gym today. realised that my blog's not updated as frequent as i hoped it would be. but i realise that if you want to blog something, it has to be something special, unique. blogging about what happened today, blah blih blah, quite doesnt seem so special.

but its still fun. so im still going to rant about what happened today..etc.

went gym with sam. he injured his wrist i think. overexerted. that sucker. and all the while he was telling me not to push myself so hard.i got to admit, after a while not going gym i get easily tired. but not exhausted. we tried out ian's method his friend taught him. whoa! it hurt like hell! but it was worth it, considering the improvement it beckons.

good news. sarah's grandfather is out of the ICU. can talk , laugh, eat drink etc. alhamdulillah. lets hope and keep praying that he recovers soon. so that she wont worry so much and all that.

i realised that GESS is becoming a pain in the asses of its students. ive never heard better nonsense since the 'grow me corner'. WTF is that??!! its like a time out space where those kindergarten..

yes, kindergarten..get the picture?

they have to start treating people like adults. unless thstudents are becoming more and more immature?

there's another issue i want to rant about. this girl called celestine. ive heard horrible stories about her. about her 'services'. thats wicked sick man. saw her today (checked with sam, he told me that was her) on the way to gym. the skirt was damn high. she walked in this 'certain' manner. erm. i dont know if its appropriate to talk about it on here. lets not pollute this blog. its not as if i purposely notice her. its just that, whats happening to the shool these days? band slacking, grow me corner, and this??!! imagine the things people will say when you tell them that you are from GESS. i'd feel ashamed if i were you guys.

and thats about that. i got to wrap up my 'speeches' in a better way. oh well. practise makes perfect.

oh yeah..dont forget to visit the band blog...for band ppl la...

its linked here...

belissimo.

rock on...
love you dear *smooch*

games

"teeeeet!!!"

games day was fun. yeah. for me it was. but for her maybe not. the inevitable thought of her grandfather constantly plagues her mind. its ok. moodswings are inevitable at the time. its ok. =)

played captain's ball. wttf man. perspired more than i do during aikido. it was fun to play with the juniors, being senior and all that. but somehow, being senior gives you that feeling that you HAVE to win. oh well. "we are all winners". hahar.

do you know whats so liberating? yesterday, i picked up a pair of sticks, sat down on that black swivel seat. placed my legs on both pedals. adjusted th high-hat. turned on the snare. "boom-tak-boom,boom boom-tak". imagine playing a fast song, lets say El Cumbanchero. but twice as fast. yes. that was truly truly, liberating. i felt so high i could hardly think. i kept playing. instinctively. and thats not easy.
but its been a while since i've played? maybe thats the reason.

could someone please tell me why we are all listening to metal? ian? hahar. "everybody going to the party have a real good time". or "cool! in denial, we're the cruel regulators smoking cigaro cigaro cigar". intense shit people.

ian stop your 'hado-gay', okay? im straight. that stuff's old. a bit of it os good. alot of it just doesnt fit the scene aite? oh yeah. about krevan. its cool. i'll start drawing asap. got me excited.

they got punished just now. i think it was about some cleanliness issue. but before that was fun. played concentration. with rain being the ultimate loser!! nyeh5. i only died once. but i was fortunate to not have played that hei pai chei? whatever its called. the game that involves smacking the opponents hands. i got slapped by stupid rain. lame shit.

oh yeah. the spring cleaning rocks guys. finally learned to clean up after yourselves. bravo! oh by the way sayang, i took home your birthday present, that framed artwork i did for you? yea. and your sleeping bag too. cause im afraid those idiots might throw them away. lamebrains

shit man im damned tired. what time isit? 2 45 am? okay forget it. better continue doing my project.

rock on..

ps: this blog does not update itself daily. instead, it updates maybe weekly? even motnhly? depends on my mood =)

no particular reason...

"oh..that one need to use the particulate theory to divide the...."

very funny ian. =)

yesterday went back to band, as always. i really cant live without going back.

cause i miss her so much?

then ian came along at around lunchtime. i really didnt expect him to come though. then we talked about krevan. creature war, rebellion war, bulter..the list goes on. and then came the gameplay. whoa! lucky im no gamer. and that is precisely why i ONLY do the art. its so complex that a huge question mark really appeared on top of my head.

band sucks really. i dunno about yours but gessband cant really play a tune properly. yes i am insulting my alma matter band. but seriously. listen to yourselves. finally i realised that brasses sound like chickens being slaughtered and woodwinds sound super airy.

except her la. yes i am damn bias. shoot me. =)

my archi project is really doing slow. i dunno about the other groups though. i kinda regret taking architecture. should have taken media design or something like that. regret regret REGRET!!!

architecture is boring.

architecture is lame.

in architecture you have to consider a whole lot of things. for example, toilets?

i hate doing computer aided shit. except drawing and all that.

i kinda hate groupwork cause the end product is not really standard. some parts may ne ugly but some beau.

i'd rather take exams and do tests rather than have in-course assessment.

so you see. if you are interested in my line, do reconsider. and this is what you should reconsider: dont take architecture!!

unless you are those kind of people that are born to do so and i salute you.

the miserable side of my life keeps cocking up. i really miss her alot. sometimes the time we spend during band just isnt enough. we are not like all those other couples where both party can go out everyday. no. its hard for us to even meet for awhile, less go out for a movie.

im not blaming anyone here. if there was a blame it would be on me.

so before you say anything about us do think. do you really know us? about our relationship? do you really have the right to criticise us? in what we do? think. god gave you a mind for you to think. not to criticise blindly.

and if you do. and do too much. then let me introduce you to my fist. or even better, my bokken!

i really miss you alot dear.

rock on...

blue skies turned to gray

" cause you had a bad day, tkae me one down, blah..ETc"

having bad days lately. coming home tired, downtrodden and sad. messy room, messy bed. home alone? probably. irritating brothers surround me. sad.

and why?

i dont really know actually. but i account it all to :

SCHOOLWORK....

and,

PEOPLE....

yea. thats about it i guess. let me explain.

you may think that i should be lucky that my course is in-course assessment. think again. do you know how it feels like to have projects and projectwork getting shoved into your face day after day after day? you dont. cause you dont want to. it sucks.

and the people. not that i want to shoot at anybody, but im kinda like a nice guy. no backstabbing, no gossiping, no nothing. but still, people talk behind my back. sure i've gotten used to it but hey, take it easy cowboy. every guy has its limits.

which brings me to my patience level...

currently it doesnt look too good. the only thing that can cool me down is either appeasement or sarah.

sarah

sarah sarah sarah

i love you

at the end of the day, it all boils down to this incredibly lonely feeling. everyone's busy. including you. sometimes we dont have no one to talk to. and sometimes we do. but that doesnt mean we shouldnt look out for each other. humans. listen to me. take care of one another. why is it that we let our egos get in the way?

and then i miss her. its a plauge. it doesnt stop nor end. i have dreams. i crave. i miss. i want. i need. i lust.

but i guess we're having a not so good times these holidays. i cant see her so often. and there are "new rules" too. which really really bites me. but i have no choice. it is not in my power to go against her. i have to follow. to obey. which i dont mind. but it bugs me, to not be able to do certain things again.

it just isnt fair. u guys are lucky.

asses.....

rock on..

back...lah

so many things to do so little time. im back peeps. life is now a big burden. i have projects end to end, back to back. whoever said that architecture was fun?? ok its interesting but it's very demanding. lectures are boring (duh) and tutorial is damn long and draggy. sp campus is soo darn big. i got lost a couple of times =P.

anyway i didnt go to school today. later in the afternoon then im going. they need me, my group. i want good grades too. i wana go university. degree in architecture sounds good no? maybe in the future you wana build a house can gimme call? lol.

i think my english has depreciated over time. armstrong would be 'proud' =D. my maths a total dunno. physics and chem a- whats physics? LOL. my current project needs some profound usage of physics which i have long forgotten. something to do with lens and magnification bla bli bla.

its been awhile since i've seen her. heavy heart. lol. i miss her very much leh. haix. anyway, life's not all that bad. 3mc's risen again. this time bigger and wackier. desmond's grown fatter XD ian has freaky long hair. fiz is more IT (stupid c ++) and sam got a gerl??? stay tuned.

rock on...

lol

yesterday went to band. amazing day. thanks to you dear. *winkwink* what was the 'magic number'? 14? fourteen times. =)

after band we went to long john for lunch. and yes i have had enough of treating all of you for lunch. luckily darryl was there. they aim for the most senior seniors. lol. and sam you owe me 7 bucks. hahaha.

we went to 'walk walk' after that. kellt was unhappy that day. strange. whenever mummy is happy, kelly is not. and vice versa. wanted to watch final destination 3 but not all of us are 16 lol. took a neoprint. 10 people squashed into a booth. and yes. thanks for squeezing me into this small gap that i could not escape from when we you all left the booth. and thanks for snagging all the better prints!

relax guys i aint mad. hmmm. i guess today's entry will be short. looking forward to tomorrow. now i gota finish my storyboard for ian.

rock on...

yayeeee

woot! arsenal beat real madrid 0-1!! hahaha! yes! yes! another classic thiery henry goal! slipped past the defender and under the arms of iker casillas, running straight into the bottom corner of the net! woot! im thrilled that they won, since they're not doing so well domestically. i had to stay up the entire night just to watch the match. and it was a damn good match, with arsenal being on the offensive. i told you real madrid defence sucks! gravesen is too old. though i had some chills running through my spine when raul came into play. luckily, he did not manage to net anything. big applause to the arsenal defenders gilberto and toure for keeping cicinho and robinho at bay. it looks like the real madrid young stars did not suffice. there was a fight going on between fabregas and cicinho. lol. nice job lehmann. very clean.

was playing maple in the wee hours of the morning. managed to eventually get to level 40. though now i realise that life as a warrior isnt so glamorous. chicks dig the thieves and magicians. curse them. lol. they favour brains over brawn. but warriors ARE cool! its like driving a tank! you get to smash everything up! the highest early attack AND defense! alas, the chicks still dont love us. oh well.

been looking through my magic collection lately. reminiscing at the old days, when we used to get together to play magic. at mac, long john, class and even at the void deck. not to mention that memorable match at the mrt station. magic is like, 13 years old? now nobody wants to play with me. sob. maybe its because i win all the time. but then, if i enter tournaments im the dead duck! i guess i have to seek for more difficult opponents. come! come play with me! my skills have rusted like hell! but i can still whoop your ass! goblinz rulez!!

love you dear...

rock on...

warning

how long have i not posted? one week? been busy actually. wont disclose. anyway i received this message from somebody to spread this message.

Beware of the following websites, as they are spreading false information about islam. they are : www.answering-islam.org , www.aboutislam.com , www.thequran.com , www.allahassurance.com

these sites are made by jews who are spreading false information about the quran and hadith.

well, back to todays post. went to acjc for the funorama recently. boy it was fun! we had around....400 bucks worth of coupons to spend! (courtesy of my mom) bernice ended up playing lots and lots of games. i think she ended up owning ALL the soft toys there! there were loads of food for us to eat. for that day, we were like kings and queens! spending loads of coupons, like water. unfortunately there was this heavy downpour and all the games had to stop. and we had like, 300 bucks left to spend?? sam, kelly and i went to the haunted house which wasnt really scary. twas only very very dark. of course, nothing happend to me. sam got his legs grabbed. kelly was so afraid that she held my hand all the way. after the 'horror' we played more games and eventually spent ALL the coupons.

been mapling alot these days. not really drawing much. i hate drawing still life. theres no imagination. unless of course you draw em like someting else. ok i cant explain, i can only draw.

love you dear...miss you

rock on...

choices

choices, choices and more choices. damn i hate to choose. there are tons of courses out there but only a handfull are to my liking. i cant even get 12 choices! all of them are crappy. thats why i insist on going NAFA. fine arts all the way. because thats my ultimate goal. to be an artist. like the old masters. and the modern ones as well. like anthony scott waters. mark zug. rk post. kev walker. most of them are fantasy artists. thats what i do best!

my family and relatives think my results are good. are they nuts or what?

english 2
emath 3 (i let ms lee down)
c.humanities 5 (fck la)
physics 5 (sorry mr lim)
chemistry 6 (i passed chem!)
malay 4 (am i really malay?)
malay oral pass (???)
art and design 2 (%#&$*#*$&#%%$^!!!)

very sucky (steven's words) results. see la. play lan, get girlfriend, focus too much on gessband (it rhymes, i know). this is what you get. well bloody hell im infuriated.

maybe i'll go back for the peer tutoring shit. english la. what other mofo subjects can i teach? all are like 5 or 6?? i mean fck lor. humanities. i always get 1 lor!! fcking cb!

its all bad luck la. some jealous SOAB is out there to get me. you get dzaki, dzaki get you!!

love you sweetheart..

rock on..

my immortal

my o level results? i wont tell you. go find out for yourself. haha. aniway my art is so bad. i got a2. pity.

my grandfather passed away today. so i wont talk much here. have to sleep. funeral is tomorrow. so see ya.

love you dear.

rock on...

tyring it out...

beatles

oh how i love the beatles. till now their music still lives, that british pop rock band. they were my first band, heavily influenced by my father. i really enjoyed them. im listening to their songs, only accoustically. no singing, no percussion. just accoustic guitars. take a break from all that head banging rock and roll and listen to some serenity. classics like 'here comes the sun' to 'hey jude' to the ever memorable 'yesterday' (my fave). i told my dad i wanted to play the guitar and he laughed and smiled. he loves playing the six-stringed instrument. i told him i wanted bass. and then he said bass is super easy. easy for him of course. my dad is really a pro when on guitar. you know that time we talked about making our own band with me on drums. that would be cool; if we had drums!

ive been slacking alot lately. not going to gym. but thats ok i guess. i'll get that body i want. someday. maybe sooner. or later. but im gona make it sooner. haha. stop being lazy dzaki. stop it! go out there and lift some weights! oh..slacking also includes not drawing! omg. im supposed to be drawing something everyday but na-ah.

can some kind soul out there please teach me the 'hows' of photobucket? i really would like to post my artwork on my blog. that way i can receive comments (good/bad) so that i can improve you see.

anyhow thats it for today. love you sayang..

rock on...

whack

it must have been a millenia since i have last blogged. ok im just kidding. it only a few days. been kinda tired and busy too often. busy from having too much fun. tired from overenjoyment.

im proud to welcome two new additions to my family. i just bought two new fishes from the local aquarium yesterday. they're two young oscars, black and white, and they're cute! but they're very shy of me. i guess it takes time for them to bond with their owners. most of the other fishes that i've bought (and died) tend to bond quite fast. maybe they're too juvenile. or maybe the tank is too large for them. they get lethargic too fast. why is keeping fish so fun? well. two reasons -1)they are quite graceful underwater and when you look at them you feel relaxed 2)feeding time! its so nice to watch them feed. their heads bobbing up and down, opening thier mouths and swallowing the food pellets.

i've finally got godlike mode in maple! yes! now i can train faster and more efficiently. i know its cheating but i sometimes hit below the belt. for the fun of it =). oh and to whom it may concern, im not using seshiro anymore.

hafiz! quickly call vanga to play us! or we play him! i cant wait to fight new opponents in magic! its fun! you dont have a clue to what decks they're using and its damn fun to strategize with your team meates (if you're playing team). you may say ask "why not join a tournament?" well. one reason. they're so STRONG!!! i get beaten 5 times out of six!! i ALWAYS end up in the losers' table! so guys, haha, i may be one of the best in school at that time but in the REAL world, im like a noob. so that gives you how tough competitive play is.

talked to asyifah yesterday. i was surprised that she messaged me all of a sudden. lol. so i managed to find her (coincidentally) on msn and we had a little chat like we used to back in the old days. cmon syifah! your last year already! just hang on! im sure you can make it. =)

im changing my lifestyle. when people sleep, i sleep as well. usually i would spend hours on the com past midnight. but then i realised that im getting more and more blind! help! i desperately need new specs!

thats all for now folks. i have a strong intentipn of mapling today.

rock on...

gym

i am really tired today. went to the gym to work out and i tell you it was really a work out!! having a bodybuilder for an uncle can be really strenous! had to travel all the way to woodlands though. but it was worth it! 'cos it was free? =P

shes having a bad time since i 'left'. family problems. i just dont get it. why should relatives fight?? that is surely immoral! why the fuck should we have enemies as relatives? for God's sake they are our own flesh and blood! to treat your relatives with spite will only gain the hate of people around you. including mine. so please people, stop hating each other. if you have to tahan then tahan. God put us into different races and groups so that we will mingle with each other. you know. make peace, share the love around. i do not believe that such vile beings existed.

i guess i should explain the "i 'left' her" part. we didnt really part. we just agreed to stop seein geach other (communicating etc) so that we can concentrate on our own lives, our studies etc. but that doesnt mean im single ok? i will always be attached to her. no one else. i love you dear.

rock on...

love

i went to the cinema to watch Memoirs of a Geisha. it is one sad show. a geisha does not feel nor does she want nor love. you do not become a geisha to pursue your destiny. you become one because you have no choice. the story begins with this girl and her sister being taken away, sold to a geisha house (okiya). there they are separated to different okiyas in separate districts (hanamichi). slowly and unwilingly, they work and study to one day pay off their debt and become true geisha, living off their own earnings. this story starts some time after world war 1, some time during the rise of Adolf Hitler.

the thing i dislike about the story is that it really has a lot of backstabbing and bitching ( girls mah). however, without all the emotion and drama this story would not have been a success. geishas are not entertainers nor girlfriends. nor are they wives. they are in between; half wives, wives only to the night. they dance, sing, play music and entertain you. the rest is just shadow.

one of my favourite scenes was the part where mameha and chiyosan were walking down the street. there mameha told chiyosan "a true geisha can stop a man with just one look". chiyosan could not believe this of course so she picked one target for mameha. and as what she said, mameha did stop the guy chosen with just one look. the guy simply stopped in his tracks to look at mameha. now it was chiyosan's turn. mameha picked this guy riding a bicycle. chiyosan got ready and when the guy came past she gave this most alluring look. the guy simply stared at her, and crashed into a cart and roadside stall in front!

there was this part where they were talking about mizuage (a geisha's virginity). did you know that to become a true geisha one has to sell her mizuage? i was like, what?! how they described this was truly funny. "sayuri (chiyosan's geisha name), do you know that sometimes, a men's eel would like to visit a woman's cave once in a while?" sayuri made geisha history when she sold her mizuage to the highest bidder at 15,000 yen - higher than any geisha did.

well, i would liek to tell you more about the story but then i would be a spoiler right? so go watch it yourself and be amazed at this secret world of a geisha.

love you girl...

rock on...

yoz

what a tiring week this has been. i've went out almost everyday! (which im NOT supposed to. now im grounded on weekends. poor me =(...) went back to school to help the band (it really sucks down there but in a funny kind of way) went to the hospital, went here and there. haix. was tiring. did a few drawings of course. my version of goblin sharpshooter from MtG. a zombie coming out of a hole. i sketched my cousin sleeping. haha. caught you! i tried to draw something like a paladin but ran out of steam (so itas incomplete. hey! isnt that a song?)

leslie came over on wednesday. and boy did he have a surprise for me. he brought along this cool game (which i already know how to play initially) LOTR : Battle for Middle Earth. played for hours actually. didnt sleep at all. none can contend with the power of Saruman! ok im a game freak =P ( sarah u were right!) and did you know what was the most surprising thing? my brothers played it too! ususally they hated my kind of games. but hey. i guess they love LOTR too. isengard rocks! cant wait to go play it at lan again. hard army is nothing!

shes having pms the last few days. been almost a week now. its very scary for me though. i get scolded almost every night! but hey. i can take it. i mean, what can i do? when shes pms-ing, none can contend. should be ending soon i think. yay. its like mrs jekyll/hyde thingy. in the morning shes herself but at night, she suddenly hates me! lol. i love her still. a lot . no. more than that. just wana let her know.

well, thats it for now. sorry for the long gap in between. been busy.

love you dear *muackz*

rock on...

crazy

i love goblins. really. they are cute and funny. not to mention dumb as well. hilariously dumb. especially in magic. they make fierce fighters, having haste, provoke, first strike and they can ping too. i always take pride in my goblin deck but yesterday brought unhappiness to my heart as my goblin deck lost 1-2 to sam's elves. damn! i hate elves.

ok let's cut the magic card talk and go back to earth. i've been going to the gym lately with sam, every monday and friday. it's to keep fit of course! i dont want to be a 'sick child' once school starts for me. and speaking about school, i still have trouble deciding where to go. both napfa la selle needs a portfolio and i have to go through an interview to get in! if i go to SP, i'll have another dilema. architecture? or creative media design? my dad really wants me to go architecture. i thinks its somewhat cool to be an architect but im more into fantasy drawings. my long term goal is to be an illustrator. an artist. a fantasy artist to be precise. if i want that, then la selle or napfa is the choice for me. but im afraid you see. they are really REALLY pro down there.

that's it for today. my tummy's growling...

rock on...

sheep

today is hari raya haji. and i did not go to the mosque early in the morning to pray. nope. instead i went to visit my granpa at the hospital. yea. around 8 when we reached there, my family and i. we managed to squeeze 5 people in the cab. my dad told the cabbie " its an emergency ". and lo and behold, we got through. didnt do much at the hospital really. fell asleep a couple of times. believe me, sleeping on the waiting benches can really hurt your back! and since we got nothing better to do, we made paper aeroplanes. the paper was meant initially for drawing. but i got bored of drawing after sketching that dumb tree. so we flew aeroplanes instead. hmmm. reminds me of that rhcp song aeroplane. i remember it won some other song on mtv's chart attack. rhcp rox! =P . after a lot of 'flights', we got bored and made paper boats instead. and guess what? we raced them in the nearby lingkang outside the hospital. yep. sort of like kampung days. but i've never lived the kampung live before. at nightfall we went back to my other gran's place (my mom's side) for dinner. the house was cramped full of people. hari raya wad, my mom commented.

oh yeah..lol..i realise why poeple dont visit my blog often. its cos the name is too long and complicated aint it? one-quaver-onetriplet-semiquaver. cmon man. ask any musician out there to explain it to y'all. its that simple!

rock on...

twisted transistor

yep. thats the tune i keep humming. haha. korn's not bad by the way. metal. nicey.

went to seoul garden today. after going desmond's house that is. we wanted to treat him. but alas he had to go with his family. sadded. so we went there to eat. i have this craving for meat these days. yes meat. lucky it isnt for blood. thwn we had to somehow get rid of the leftover food. dumb samuel took so much that we had a lot of leftover uncooked food! lol. watched ahmad play F.E.A.R. at desmond's house just now. scary sia!! there's this girl spectre or ghost thingy-whatever floating around with all these ghouls and zombies and stuff. then there's these extremely irritating soldiers with remarkable AI that wont stop hunting you. brilliant game i say!

after that we slacked at sam's redhill house. very spacious.i love it sam! you know why i love it? 'cause its near her house! so i got to wave goodbye to her just now. sweet! i dont mind going around being called 'loverboy'.

rock on...

i try ah...

went back to my old school today. cca orientation. was fun actually. the sec ones were pretty much the same. annoying brats. went to somehow help the band. played a drum demo for them. sucked. haha. that dumbass samuel went off somewhere. so i was 'forced' to play. cmon guys, you cant depend on me anymore. my days as a gessband member are over. im a freakin senior now! though i joke alot and adopt this 'friend friend' attitude, the feeling is still yucky. they didnt do good though. only 57 names. yes, you heard me. 57. compared to last year's (im not boasting or anything) whooping 120+ names, i'd pretty much say it sucked. cmon guys(and gals) you can do way much better than that! i really hoped this year's intake is good. if we cant have quantity then we must have QUALITY.

saw sarah today. not supposed to see her though. she wouldnt let go of my arm when i was polishing them boots. nice. warm. she screamed at me during the orientation when i touched and tried to play her precious piccolo. and she just wouldnt let me off when 'band' ended. she wants to see me. very often. but i cant. im not supposed to. we are not supposed to see each other. she kissed me. she wasnt suppose to.she has to control. go and study. dont think about me. dont worry about me. i'll be fine. go worry about yourself. when i'm gone just carry on, dont moan, rejoice everytime you hear the sound of my voice. know that im looking down on you smiling. and i dont feel a thing so baby, dont feel no pain just smile back.

i tried to use cheat engine on maple today. didnt work. maybe i'll try again. ive had it pestering nicholas for that dumb hack. its like, he wont give it to me. argh! but the cheat engine thingy. nah. keeps disconnecting. I NEED A DAMN BYPASS!!!!

any of you folks out there got bypass to maplesea?

rock on...

kudos

kudos to the new year!

it has been a while since ive written anything on this here space. i duno what compelled me to write today but here i am. sitting at the com listening to fort minor, playing maple now and then. i have got to go somewhere. everywhere people are going somewhere. to school, to work. but i aint going nowhere.

i got a job now. tutor. not a bad pay. then again, all pays are good to me. it starts today though. pretty cool huh? im teaching math by the way. and you wont believe



great. more work. my dad just called. he wants me to deliver something to my gran's place at commonewealth. argh! from jurong west(deliver parcel) to commonwealth. sickening. oh well.

oh yeah. before i forget. new year resolutions. the basic list. 1) play more soccer - practise my defending skills(very karat) 2) stay fit - that means you can see me in the gym every friday 3) watch world cup - its a crime not to 4) keep drawing - very important. i need to improve my drawing skills. serious.

i miss her. a lot. yea im not supposed to see her anymore but thats my little secret. i think of her all the time when im not supposed to. maybe i'll see her tomorrow. sadded *sob*

rock on.