eve of raya

i have absolutely NO MOOD to celebrate hari raya.

podium finish

f1!! f1 was so awesome thought i didnt get to see it at the city. i still cant get to hear the scream of the engine up close and personal. maybe next year la. glad that hamie is first in championship points. muaha. but still, you got to pity kimi. he's been crashing his car alot lately. and massa too. sucky luck eh?

speaking of sucky luck, poor poor arsenal lost to hull city. =\ i shouldnt have laughed at ian when liverpool drew with stoke. poetic justice right?

school is as per normal. normal stuff, typical arrangement. oh today we had this hand sculpture thing with a broken pinkie.


ok la. not bad right. starting to like charcoal and pastel, like damn fun. oh yeah that alvin was being a bit lame again today. for those of you who dont know alvin is our class tutor. he was goin round giving adjectives to our 'style' of drawing. julie got 'smooth'. tell you hers is really really damn smooth. the blending is super smooth xD. mine was 'mechanical'. i have no idea why.

ok for this saturday im having open house for hari raya. anybody whose somebody thats going please text me for details! i dont want to leave my address out here =x.

rock on

the story of the year

we broke up

boy do i sound like a devil

abijan

this one's going to be a long one without pictures.

i went to watch mama mia with the class people today. mind you i would never watch that if not for investigating art (we have to do a movie review). its a love comedy musical thing. and why am i writing about this? well you see in that show there are several scenes that made me think about my relationship with sarah. several questions that i do not have answers to. was it bad to end it? was it wrong for it to happen? how did it happen in the first place? what is it that i really want? and what do i need?

recently things havent been smooth sailing. this usually means hour long arguments with sarah on msn. cutting to the chase, there are some things i wished i hadnt said and there are some things that she wished she did not do. we all have our regrets. and as i sit here pouring my thoughts and recollections onto this blog i cant help but wonder what is going through her head right now. i cant begin to imagine what consequences we brought into our lives after this battle of words and emotions. she doesnt pick up my calls now. i still cannot believe that we are actually breaking apart.

the truth is, i still love her. i still hold a space, an emotion left somewhere here inside. but i guess its not going to work out. i just cant put my finger on it. i cant bring myself to delete her messages or our pictures together. i dont know whether i should or should not. i really dont know what to do now. it hasnt been abrupt but a slow constant decline. i dont know what to do. its just all blank now.

the other side of the story

thats her side of the story right there. read it if you want. in fact i want you to. there shouldnt be any biasness. i feel as if ive killed a person or worse. but i know things have to change. times change ane people change. i guess the reason ive been feeling much remorse is because this is my first genuine time im going through this. my mind works simple. it just filters out the soppy stuff. it wants itself to look strong and be strong. spartan strong you know? no sadness no weakness. something that turns me into a robot. even silentmode has more emotion than me i guess.

is the break up official? my mind says yes but my heart is still saying no.

rock on
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straight

straight. period.

we tried woodcut in printmaking. this is just a test run. see printmaking fun right?



ok final week of puasa already. the final stretch. these few days have been killer. getting exhausted too easily already. but after this week its full force on the school work! no more mr grumpy anymore. food galore! everyday! rejoice mofos!

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charcoal doesnt mean bbq

omg. first day of school after the two weeks break..and im late =D surprisingly, it wasnt all that bad. we only have one class on monday. and alot of people cut their hair. yes including me.i came 2 hours late so i ended up staying back after class to finish up whatever we're supposed to do today.



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("'\(.:.....:.)/"')

i really should be doing my essays and stuff.
things i have not done (yet) :

history essay
landscape painting - details
stick sculpture - no picture w/ brick
wire model - no picture too
animal cutouts - not handed in (i forget to bring everytime)


so thats about sums up my weekend. oh wait, theres soccer tonight. sarah's off to johor and wont be back till late at night! =S


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collages-school

i just realised that paper collages can be fun =D








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_

sigh. i really feel like jamming again. maybe i need to join/form a 'side band'. something like not main band but like for fun peace and good wacky times. lay down some beats that kinda thing, groovy stuff. but with school work and ESSAYS how sia?

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ps; me and sarah ok already, for those of you who know lol

dota fights back

trying watercolors again. not nice right? i know. but the photo taken at night so its not that bright and clear.



anyway..

wouldnt you know it? i just went to play dota the other day at the lan shop. it was me dzariff luqman daniel and dz's friends hazim and ong. dz went ahead with his troll warlord and luqman doesnt really remember how to play. daniel was same old same old with his broodmother. hazim is real good but how good i dont know. i think if i went 1v1 with him i could take him. ong was a real spammer. spam zeus summore lol. luckily sam's words of advice was still stuck in my head. "if he plays a strong spellcaster, go for a hood of defiance" and wouldnt you know it, it worked. i was playing rhasta.

so the first match i lost cause i had two feeders (kidding guys. abit more practise and then youre there =x) but the second match i teamed up with hazim and daniel. we were owning xD thats because amongst all of us me and hazim are the top two best. luqman played better this time round using dragon knight but he was still reeking of newbie-ness. i had a uneasy time with ong in my lane spamming chain lightnings but i know that spamming wont kill me. in the end we won hands down with me and hazim going round killing people. shackle is my best friend maan.

even though i had a good time today, it still doesnt compare to the past when me and sam chionged and chionged dota like there was no tomorrow nor the day after tomorrow. we were ultimately crazy, ripping through their defences and slaughtering them lol. good times eh?

ps; ok for those people who arent gaming people, sorry for the boring post! xD

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love you

a day at SAM

went to the singapore art museum today to do my investigating art thing. there were lots of galleries in there but i only went into one =\ thats the consequence of arriving late. the others had already finished viewing the rest and since i needed to write about only one artwork, i just settled for what grabbed my attention in that one viewing gallery.

then all of us (jasmine jianwei danya chongtat alina eve me) just sat there INSIDE the gallery itself like we were having a picnic. lol it got real funny when danya started to draw our faces (except mine cause i was lucky =D). alina's one looked really good. we all swapped our sketchbooks. i liked alina's cheery use of colours and space. danya's portrait of leonardo looked real good too.

after all that we went all over the place (substation, raffles city) before heading to the national museum which i took pics!






ok not alot but this was the only free exhibit i guess. and im not a picture person we all know that.

moving on, we went to the esplanade library to kill time. see i have very thoughtful friends. they went ahead and fasted with me! lol so being art students we slaughtered the two hours by drawing. somehow chongtat and danya love to draw portraits of jasmine. i settled for this..



john moyer from disturbed
taken from Bass Player magazine
a few things i dont like. but its just a sketch. more practise dzaki! and i should try different media as well, as advised by ms lee mun yee. its good to keep contact with your art teachers lol.

one last thing..



i call this 'searching for something'. sometimes when i dont know what to draw i just do this. draw lines and lines and hatch and cross-hatch, not knowing what i want or what im thinking. i guess the only thing im thinking is where i want to put the dark parts. comment please =D

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zoo

i didnt take any pictures but i got these instead =D the damn buggers kept moving.













this is what elaine would look like if she was a guy. no lah actually jasmine was teaching me how to draw female faces and figures. i gave up halfway and turned it into a guy.

had a lot of fun at the zoo yesterday. the people who attended were jianwei jasmine elaine yizhen irfan shuting that chinese gal(cant remember name sorry) evelyn me and lophe! did i forget anyone? sorry if i did. fish didnt come cause he was drunk =\ and lost his wallet the previous night. ji hyun came home late last night after a night of pubbing.

it rained terribly in the morning and we had to camp at kfc till it stopped. some of us got separated from the group several times and we had to back track to find these lost souls lol. it was a real good day. made a few new friends. but time and time again god would test me about where my true feelings lie.

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quickie

this was done on poor sam's arm back in january at queenstown library. seriously when you got no school you get to do alot of wacky things.done with my favouritest of all pens the g-tech 0.4 black pen.

going to the zoo later in the morning with the coursemates. hoping for a cool breezy day ahead. wonder what the day will bring eh?


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4-5/100

i guess if you're moody, it's reflected on what you draw. at least for the first one ya. i almost went insane but the second one didnt take that much time.

so 4 and 5 out of 100. =x

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cold marina square

ok im officially bored at home. tutorial week sucks. i cant do any work at home. its some sort of a curse.

so methinks me should head over to the library or whatnot. good idea eh?

currently addicted to facebook i have no idea why. i think being tucked away in one corner of the world for too long has got me yearning for company once again. yeah i cant be alone. it kinda sucks.

also, town is boring. bras basah is boring. marina square is still too cold. dont even talk to me about orchard. so little things too much time. heh, never thought id be saying that.

so no picture today. every picture drains the shit out of me. gym yesterday was so damn tiring. have to push harder and harder i guess. dont know for what reason but haha, it sure as hell feels good.

maybe i should go out again today. ian is getting his ibanez. and there's a potential for a movie but money-wise, i shouldnt have spent 20 bucks at art friend yesterday. and that star wars movie is half-baked but still good to me i guess. damned lucas has lost his magic.

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2-3 / 100

im such a fag, i know.
3 down 97 more to go.

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poolside

classic moment at jon's place. sorry its not the right side up




well im off to finish my leftover assignments and they are such a bore. im better off painting and painting stuff or drawing some fantasy shit again. two week break begins here and i think im going to finish off EVERYTHING before the first week ends.


1/100 for the sketchbook

yeah call me freakishly hardworking. i just wanna clear everything and then i can gym.


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that feeling

i cant help but think that something's going on but nobody's telling me. hmmmmm. i guess sooner or later someone will spill the beans. hopefully.

fasting month is ok i guess. i think this time round isnt as beautiful as the other times. im always exhausted from school and schoolwork. and the long one hour rides to and fro doesnt help me at all. it gets worse if it rains but i dont mind the rain. rain = prosperity in my religion i think.

our song =)

theres only one person i think of whenever i hear this song and thats you.

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taz' dingo!

so 'holidays' are coming. holidays = tutorial weeks. so they give us two weeks of free time to finish up or re-do our previous assignments, if we're not happy with it or if THEYRE not happy with it. lol

fasting month is just fasting month. same old same old. i look forward to every weekend now that soccer is up and running again. can never live without soccer. another thing i cant live without is hawker centre food. i cant imagine living overseas, feeding myself on western food everyday. sure there's italian pasta in italy or snails in france but i will miss my dear chicken rice, nasi goreng, egg prata etc. foodies out there will share my thoughts.

nothing much to update. will post more 'art' next time round.

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