the year before 09

What I can say about 2008.

But of course a lot of thing happened this year. Let's just look at the highlights. For starters, I left SP Architecture around the beginning of the year. I made a lot of wonderful friends there. It was during this time of my life I played soccer almost everyday. I remember the cheap $2 chicken rice stall. I remember archery. And remember how we all used to rush for submissions? I remember bulking up and gymming three times a week. I used to weigh 55kg and that's big for me. And that was poly life for me.

Another highlight is the break-up. And so I broke up with Sarah. I guessed she doesn't even remember me by now which is ok. We shared many good times and horrible times. I remember missing her loads when she was overseas. I miss her cute little bunny that likes me more than it likes her. Minnie, that's what it was called. I remember all the piano playing and the song singing. Then came the rough times. It came and it got rougher and by the time it went away both of us were left scarred and separated. And that was Sarah.

NAFA. The new beginning. A way of redemption. This half of the year was the best half. I met a mellowhead, a metalhead, a rempit, a fish, a lian and the beng. I also met the family and what a family it is. There were a lot of late nights, a lot of jamming. I learnt how to paint and do printmaking. I learnt that pastel is a bitch (kidding =x) History is so much fun, more than Investigating Art. I may seem nerdy but there are bigger nerds ;) NAFA is great. NAFA admin, is not.

The final highlight, is you =] I never would have imagined it will come to this and it has. A whole lot of things. A lot of mellow things as well. Movies, lepaking, the family. It's all HOOD xD And I'm making it a new year resolution, to not let this fall. To give it my all and let it grow. I love you.

So that was 2008 simplified.

rock on

the other day

Christmas photo.



School's coming up soon. I still have yet to choose my electives =\ but I hear Technical Drawing's very popular amongst the peoples. If I could get that I'd be revisiting the Archi past, which isn't really that bad. Worse come to worse I won't take any cross-electives. After all, we're taking 20 points worth next sem. I die-die will not take any business modules =x

rock on

boxing day

A very big thank you to Jules and family for having me over for Christmas dinner.

I got a few presents this year. The only year I got presents, actually. A nice shirt, a nice hoodie some books. But these are my favourites,


ARSENAL! Photobook with all the photos from the 07/08 season. Thanks so much Juliet and Derrick. Anything from Arsenal is a sure win.



But nothing beats this lil white book because it's priceless and it's from the heart. This is the favourite-est =]




Ok to digress, I really like this Chewbacca toy.

Happy Birthday Faiz (16)

rock on
going to class reunion tomorrow. gosh

Silent Night

A Merry Christmas to all =]

Will be back with a Christmas post soon



rock on

pre-

It's less than a week to Christmas. Heh this is the first time I'm so worked up over Christmas. Better finish the prezzies soon.

I haven't been updating because well there isn't much to update. I finally got my results from NAFA after all the hassle. And my reaction? OK lah. I felt that I could have done much better but I'm stuck with what I have now. Haix. I'm not going to post it here. Nobody does that, not unless they're really thick-skinned and BHB. Haha.

Life is getting much better. I'm really thankful for everything that has happened, be it good or bad. Why the bad things? Because when one door closes, another door opens and if it doesn't, use a sledgehammer.

"you and your stupid theories, hahaha"

I'm thankful for the people (and person) I've met, for all the fun times we've had and we're going to have. Thankful for my health now that my back is feeling way better (but my ears get plugged every now and then) Thankful for the health of everyone else around me. The year is coming to a close soon. Got to start reflecting on next year's agenda. And I have one already:

'All As Next Semester'


rock on

home

Home is where the Heart is.

I am finally back from ECP. Apparently Mom likes to have random BBQ/stayovers at ECP and every single time we go there guess what happens. It rains. Oh how we love the rain, the constant drips and drops, the pattering it makes on the roofs of our tents. And how uncontrollably cold we shiver, how wet we all get.

But seriously. I don't mix well with the rain. Cycling was good. Cycling there was even better. Cycling/walking back, best. And that was the highlight of the whole expedition.

The rain ruined it all. Again. Thanks ah.

rock on
no results, not yet

on religion

heh a fast one

Were we born to believe?
Were we made to believe?
Could we choose to believe and if we were given that choice,
Would we choose to believe?
And what if we don't believe,
Will we be made to believe?

But really, what should we believe and what's there to believe?


rock on
dangerous, very dangerous
oh no Dr Sian, what have you made me

earthquake

Realise

When your friends don't get along. It just sucks to know that. When you realise your best mates have this hidden dislike for the other. And even you have to admit, you harbour something bad towards them as well, no matter how minute it is. But that just shows that we all can't 100% get along what. right?

Then one of them is going to NS. Good luck to him. All the best. Just remember to call us out, when you book out. And the other one, when we are called upon, please don't be late. No this is not called bitching, just a reminder. We have 6 years of friendship leh. That has got to count for something. Let's all meet up soon ok?


And for you, the loveliest. I do hope yesterday's a good sign, of good things to come. Thank you for the wonderful time and thank your mummy, derrick and your jie for being awesome hosts :D Thank you for your healing hands, thank you for your tour of Van Gogh's house. I love you and you are right. We'll cross the bridge when we get there, but till then, I love you. Can't wait to see you again :)


rock on

sunday's a bummer day

Got this crazy idea from one of Matthew's blog posts. Basically, you put your MP3 player on Shuffle and write down the FIRST line of every English song you hear. You do this twenty(20) times. Then you take the first line of the TWENTY-FIRST(21th) song and you put that as your TITLE. So in the end you have this crazy song/poem thing. Haha you might get really wacky stuff. Here's what I got:


She's a Loaded Gun

How long, how long will I slide?
Can't stop addicted to the shindig
The prophets of God have left you solaced indeed
Woe to you oh Earth and Sea

Then as it was, then again it will be
What I got you got to give it to your Mama
Psychic spies from China try to steal your mind's elation
End of passion play, crumbling away

I got a mellowship, I got a fellowship
Virginia death threat, Virginia creeper vine
I just got the news today you were dying
Kill for gain, I shoot to maim

It's early morning, the sun comes out
Step right up and listen please
Now you've got something to die for
Blank stares from broken men

Say, yes they know that you've hurt yourself another time
All aboard, stitch in time
We don't want them, we want everything
Can I get your hand to write on?


A bit of RHCP, a bit of metal and omg, not even one MELLOW SONG. Haha. Very funny but worth a try. Go try it out.

rock on

short breather

Hehe. If I were to have a son.

Been stuck with my back problem for a week now. Doctor says it might be some tissue/muscle tear or whatnot. Takes a few weeks for it to heal usually. Damn, I hate feeling like an old man. I feel like a burden to everyone. Especially you.

It was great following you all over Singapore my dear =) I wouldn't hesitate to do it again Haha if only my back would comply. Thank you for everything my love.





Nice bit of space eh?

rock on

behold

Tribute to rk post. Covetous Dragon. Took me a while to finish it.

Mine for the taking.

I OWN you Fish.

rock on
i love you

damn cute

"HAHA what big teeth you have!"


So obvious that it's not done by me. But thank you Haha. It looks mighty lovely. Somebody actually did a cover of my art! =D lol joke. Thanks Jules.

rock on
monday monday monday monday love you

in the EAST again

Super cool time. Super far place. Super nice people. Super awesome person =D Maybe next time we'll do this nearer to the west? Haha. Credits for the photos go to Julie and Rashmi.

rock on
i love you =)

experiment two

"Green Horny Thing"
Watercolour Sketch
8.3"x11.7"

rock on
alright ahmad is back from taiwan

cannot wait

"Bunny Wabbit with the Horns"
Sketch
Watercolour
8.3"x11.7" (A4 haiyo)

experiment with chocolate milk

"Rufus"
Acrylic on canvas paper
very very big

I decided to use what little knowledge I have in painting. To at least try and experiment abit. Doesn't look so good. But not bad either I guess. On to the next one!

And you =D thank you very much for the lovely song. I miss you too.

rock on
demons!

painting break

The painting craze is ON thanks to Mr Desecrate through Reverence (whatever that means)


I didn't paint this. This is done by Desecrate.
Acrylic on canvas
18"x16" approx


rock on
take a break from all that video game shit and do some real productive work. man we are sure to own nafa next semester.

or agenda

This isn't really a blogpost.

I just miss you so very much. So very much.

You're just so very dear.



rock on
I'll be back with more artstuffs sooner than you think

bishan bash

yes, i didn't wear matching socks again

Today's makan-session at Evelyn's was the bomb. There were about 20 of us I think and we rocked the place. The food was fantastic and the games were awesome. I think everyone had the most 'shiok' time during the HEART ATTACK game. All in all it was a great time and I just can't wait for the next 'event'. We should have like a picnic/BBQ or something at ECP. Start planning Ahma.

However awesome it was, I bet it would've been awesome-er with you around. I guess nothing beats that and never will.

rock on
i miss you too

=\

My poem backfired. Then again, I'm not much of a writer let alone a poet. Oh well. Hahaha. Three more days. Hopefully three more days are all you need. =)

Strictly. No. Cold. Beverages.

In the meantime, Leslie and I are 'embarking' on this insane quest to try and play Warhammer (table-top miniatures game) without actually having to BUY or PAINT the damn things. We're going to be economical Singaporeans and make them out of MOUNTING BOARD. My good ole friend mounting board. Print the images (or draw if I'm that inspired) and then paste them onto the pieces of already cut board and TA DA! 2D miniatures pronto!

Why am I doing this? Why would I want to bury myself into total geek-ness and leave everything else behind? What the hell is happening to my life? xD

I don't know the answer to all those questions. If you do, let me know k?

Rock on

AHHH. Don't disown me for being a Geek. Don't judge me =X

abit too early but

phase out siol

It's Saturday evening and so far so good. I've got one more essay to do and my journal is more or less there. Finally after much Youtubing, blog-hopping and much editing (thanks loads =]) I have one essay done. And from the much Youtubing part, here's something oh so nostalgic:

Gan Eng Seng School Talentime 05



Wherever you will go (cover) by the Calling

Vocals/Lead - Syaq
Bass - Songren
Rhythm - Nerrine
Drums - ME

Fret not, worry not and think not about it. Worry is the death of many and worry shall not be the death of this. Fret not, I'll go wherever you will go =)

rock on
and by the way, we won the talentime =P

friday rain

It's Friday and you're still in the roller coaster of high temperatures, strong anti-biotics and splitting headaches. A week of sickness, a week of worrying =( I pray you do get better. I don't know why I'm becoming such a worrywart. Haha, I must have gotten it from you. That or I think I'm too head over heels. And why wouldn't I be? Instead of writing my IA essay now I'm happily blogging about you and your presence which is fondly missed everyday.

I hope you're feeling better already. It's hard falling sick and the weather isn't helping either. And I don't like it when it rains, lol, I get cranky when it rains actually. So you, please spend your time resting alright? No more late nights for you till you get better. Hah, no more late nights for me either. I'm still shagged from assessments.

OK now that I've gotten that out of me (sometimes you just feel like blogging) it's time to do my essays.

rock on
miss you

ik houd van

Amazing. This just has to be THE most fulfilling assessment I've ever had. And for good practise, I'll write PROPERLY from now on. My i will be I and sentences will start with a capitol letter. Lol. Kinda looks weird.

So assessments are over and all there's left are my two essays and my IA journal. That shouldn't be a problem when i know a certain essay queen =x (thanks Rina!) So, with all the time in the world now, it's time to hit the GYM! Time to swim. Time to watch loads of TV and slaaaaacckkkk with 3MC buddies. And time, for...=]

These few days have been, different? But in a good way. Time spent at the library and everywhere else but especially the library. It's just simply awesome. I never knew i could open up so much and actually be understood. The sense of maturity we have, it's just great and its so much fun to be with you.

But nobody has to know. And nobody will know =]

rock on

ik

"nothing else matters" - metallica

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trust in who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

i dont usually post like that. but i think its a very nice song. metal is good for me i guess but these days im getting mellower (haha). i never thought id skip lamb of god for a day and listen to nickelback/imogen heap/kt tunstall/john legend. oh dearie me =x

rock on

essays still not done!

peas - you cant make me =)

its a beautiful feeling. with beautiful conversations. the best ive ever had in my entire life. because its so different, yet so familiar. im starting to become mellow.

but im desperately telling myself. focus boy and take it slow. assessments first and this we can have later. its what - would do and what - would want YOU to do as well.

it grows day by day (like duh right?) and sometimes im left hanging when the audi comes. its as if someone pressed the pause button.

rock on

lets see if there are more smart people out there

you think

short one

so wait there's three days left. time to toil and burn midnight oil. the final stretch is here oh yes. theres a truckload of work to be done but the truck keeps moving. every day brings me closer to exhausting myself to a mere deflated balloon of skin and sinew. not a pretty sight eh?

i dont get whats the fuss about all this assessment. its just assessment. relax and take chill pills. three days is just enough to finish a clock, a drawing and the models. sacrifice everything for these few 'somethings' and your 2 month holiday will be scrapped of regrets. the only thing im worried about is actually forgetting to bring stuff. grade-wise hmmm. not really but its better to try and work for something right? it kinda makes your time worth while.

its good that my life now is back on the right side of the road and i couldnt have done it without the help of all you people out there. thanks uh, i really really do appreciate it. im very fortunate actually to have very good classmates and even better buddies.

i cant sleep at night because someone unknowingly conjures flutterbyes in my stomach. =x nobody will know. nobody has to know.

remember to eat your breakfast boy!

rock on

no more rempit rempit please

a sudden yank
a tug of strings
my beat increases
im falling in -



cool siol i can write primary school standard poems =D

rock on

why does it happen again?

slipknot - vermillion part 2
stupid sia why must all my friends recommend me sad emo shit songs. yah its sorta nice but it just emo.

i just realised that no matter what i do or how hard i try, the feeling just wont go away. as i sat in the taxi home i could do nothing but stare at the outside. even if the ever-jubilant juhardy was sitting beside me it doesnt help really. so im stuck her. and i accept that. im not going to care already. so let it eat me from the inside. at most i feel hurt and cry or whatever nonsense but thats about it what.

i got no time for all this shit seriously. i dont want to be patient anymore. enough of the saint-ish bullshit. when i was patient towards life, it was shit. and now its still shit. so theres not point anywho. after the assesment period im just gonna let loose. just go let it go. and go and go and go. i dont care already. every single word i type here makes me feel a whole lot better. hell, i wished i could just keep on writing on and on but that'll make this shit shittier. so i stop.

but on a lighter note, ive 100% completed my 5 cardboard sculptures and halfway done with my a2 pastel charcoal drawing (but not happy with it).

i have not started on my clock or the essays.

and..happy birthday alina =)

rock on

and that m-m-m-makes me a disgruntled motherfucker

it continues

rock on

im still climbing

what ive manage to do so far. note, 'to do' and not 'complete'.







i still need 2 more of these babies. spray-painted summore. metallic silver =x




i have no confidence to do the metallic apple. but this one is the nearest to completetion. once i add the metal apple and the shadows, plus touch-up, then im done. afterwhich i have to construct that damn clock. oh yeah, one week left for printmaking.

41/100 sketches

rock on

art history

the romanesque. the 'robe' and 'beard/moustache' was fish's idea. i made the halo. the answer to a whole lot of stress brings about looniness in the classroom.



art history has left me immersed in alot of questions. but art history is fun. assigntments due soon. all too soon. time dwindles away mercilessly. to quote matthew "time and tide people, time and tide". a whole motherload of shit needs to be swept away and flushed. theres work to be done. sleep HAS to be sacrificed.

even though i might appear laughing my ass off in class, sometimes the memories just keeps coming back. like a tidal wave sometimes or even bit by bit like drops of rain. i prefer the tidal wave. drops are a torture.

nevertheless, its good to be positive.

rock on

family tree

(click for full view!)
credit goes to kimi

rock on

for the win again

celebrated at desmond's place the whole of sunday. the party never stops eh. sam's not in cause he took the picture. hafiz was playing ninja gaiden 2 on the 360. desmond and ian were watching 'something' (see ian so malu he tried to cover his face) and i was stoning. too tired cause we went swimming at the pool in the afternoon.



this is hafiz's bow. well part of it, its actually the part called the riser. very chio right. damn swee.



ok as requested by EZA, here is my birthday cake. nothing fancy though. haha. what do you expect? it was an all guy affair at night. we had 5 minutes to cut it, sing the damn birthday song (which ended in 5 seconds?) then make our way up to the cinema at cathay for TROPIC THNUDER.



arsenal beat west ham 0-2 =X another belated birthday present. for the win my arsenal brothers. for the win!

rock on

19th birthday

(we're all at desmond's place staying the night, playing ps3 and xbox360 [haha jianwei, red ring of death =X ] and yeah)

happy birthday to me =D

this year, two celebrations. one with the nafa family, the other with 3mc. thanks nafa family for treating me to pizza hut and arcade. thanks 3mc for marche, tropic thunder and the cake.

ok here it goes uh.

thanks alina for the flower balloon (which eventually became a birthday card)
thanks julie for the zildjian cd case (which i'll turn into a dyptich)
thanks jasmine for the sunwell trilogy
thanks elaine zhongda eza danya evelyn jasmine for the celebration on the 24th.

thanks samuel for the iron maiden 666 shirt.
thanks ian farah samuel desmond hafiz for coming today. and for watching TROPIC THUNDER.

(ian want me to cook mee now)

thanks everyone else for spamming me with well wishes. this year damn good uh. better than the previous years. cause this year i have cake! darn happy.

birthday wish : champions league title for the gunners

its all good uh. its all going away. no more sad songs. no more shit at night. its all smooth sailing from now. alhamdulillah

rock on

cold

fast one

final assesments:
charcoal/pastel drawing
clock
cardboard sculpture (series of 5)
2 graded essays
4 woodcut color prints
acrylic painting

wouldnt it be nice to have someone to hug. its always raining and raining and raining. i repeated it 3 times. its so sian.

its flushing out of my system. good. very good.

rock on

santa claus

dear santa, here it goes




lamb of god 'killedelphia' CD/DVD


official merchandised red hot chili peppers shirt


LARGE plain black hoodie w/ zipper

and maybe some peace and tranquility. lobster dinner with my friends. yes lobster. lobster. cant get the taste out of my mind. succulent. marvelous. yummy.

and yes, christmas falls on the 25th this year.

happy happy

well no one likes to read emo posts. so i shall stop.

so



"how could i forget to mention, the bicycle is a good invention?"
sorry if, i was a burden to anyone.

i think i found the in-between =D music music. time to buy a new pair of LIGHTER sticks and NOT play rock but just groove and groove along.

rock on.

denial

there's something wrong with me lately. sudden bursts of uncontrolled anger. scenes of self-made violence runs through my mind now and then. metal. sometimes its sorrow, void of anything. happiness has left and in its place lies the remembrance of deceit, pain and betrayal.

emokid emokid emokid

i'll fucking bash the brains of the person that calls me that.

its not like i fucking want these things to come they just come and go. now that theres so much work to do i suddenly feel the stress creeping back over my shoulder and there is currently no way to LET LOOSE. i am not a loose cannon. just a pressure cooker cooking its way to oblivion. i felt diabolical once again. sadistic. something i havent felt for YEARS.

close friends of mine should know how i was back then. evil.

the void of the cork allows the wine to flow freely. the void of the wine glass turns the whoe affair into a bloody red mess on a white tablecloth. what is it that i truly want? straight As? someone to hold? a good time?

one person dies (yes die. die and burn in motherfucking hell)(ok sorry i flipped) another one is gained. im very fortunate and honoured to have gained another sister. and i hope like with many of my other sisters i will be the best brother any sibling can have.

so all is not lost. stop listening to slipknot motherfuckers. lamb of god is here to stay!

rock on

the siren's call

now things are different.

today in IA class - a siren is a mythological creature that is made up of a beautiful lady's head on top of a bird-like body. what these tykes do is lure men, usually sea men, to sharp jaggedly rocks by their voices, hence the siren's call. this call is supposedly so powerful that ALL men will be distracted into this horrible fate.

the other day in history class - Dr Sean/Sian said that in biblical terms it is usually the women that drive men to their deaths. and don't forget it was eve who was tempted by Satan to eat the forbidden fruit.

all of a sudden i feel like Adam, wanting to EAT the forbidden fruit. but knowing that i cant possibly do that i hesitate and this hunger lingers within me. "do you still **** me?" sounds like the invitation. the "i don't **** **** you" part is the part where i get flung onto earth. that is if i munch on the fruit. **** is a word that ends with E. go figure. =D

someone in need of help and company could be misunderstood as someone having an infatuation on you. just because the person goes to you for help does not mean the person is having a crush on you. many subliminal messages can be brought about unknowingly by both separate persons.

which ultimately brings me back to the siren's call. "do not heed the siren's call" is what I'm telling myself now. Odysseus tied himself to the mast of his ship before passing through the sirens. i on the other hand have no rope and MIGHT end up in disaster if i get careless.

rock on

the korean invasion

ok look at what Lophe did to my sketchbook =S

(its obviously not drawn by me)






for those of you who dont know, Lophe is THAT korean girl in my class. the one you guys like to talk about. SHEESH. and some of you have pretty silly minds. to think that i love kimchi.

actually i do love korean food, heck i love ALL food

rock on

start

i am considering printmaking as my major now because it is so fucking amazing and because i am having some problem painting with acrylic. no fun =\ im going to borrow some instructional books from the library i guess. i just cant mix the colors right.

the first step - delete the blog link. second step - delete the email. now do i have to delete the number as well? there is no point visiting the blog. it makes my condition worse. the email never online. the number never picks up anymore.

i cant wait for the day im fully recovered.

thanks leslie.

rock on

metal head

good stuff right?

im starting to hate the night. its fucking lonely. fucking it is. i kind of dont like to be alone. i dont know. i have issues i guess. but i have the right to feel what i want to feel. its just another test i suppose. every test has a reward but this test is probably the HARDEST test ive ever faced. after 3 long years, an abrupt stop. a crash.

picking myself up from the crash. from the bent metal, the shattered glass. amidst the pool of blood and burning rubber. the senselessness of it all. i have to go back to the start. suddenly the concept of starting afresh is frightening. the fear of not knowing what is coming. or where im heading.


slipknot - snuff
with lyrics, goddamn

i cried to this fucking song. i cried myself to sleep.

did i deserve to have you..

rock on

shoes again

hi good peoples. currently doing shoes for Rui xiang. i guess i owe him that much. he has been asking me to finish it for more than a month now. and he promised us CHAMPION for sports day. i guess i felt guilty after that so..



damn that is wicked sick. i wish it were my shoes =x


"muhoho"

switching to last gear, highest gear. assignments all the way. no time for love =D friendship will pull me through. i HOPES

rock on

relapse

rock on

nafa sports day part 1

i only have this picture. thats why part one =)

part two will have all the group photos (thanks bryan & eza) and all the ACTION.

where ma party people at at?

rock on

lotus bloom

short one

its good to know that for all those lonely times, when the past comes biting back, you have your friends and especially especially very important red hot chili peppers.

rock on

jamming sessions

usual class today. i had to sit damn far from the thing. suffered from fever the first few hours of morning. thanks very much jasmine for buying the panadol =D i only took one and felt better already. thanks all.




charcool again.

so today we jammed again but this time with jianwei. he can play well but the guitar sounded like a broken toy and to quote from him " the guitar..its only good for firewood" and the drum pedal is totally fucked as well. but we managed to make the most out of it. teaching him how to play drums xD

rock on