metal head

good stuff right?

im starting to hate the night. its fucking lonely. fucking it is. i kind of dont like to be alone. i dont know. i have issues i guess. but i have the right to feel what i want to feel. its just another test i suppose. every test has a reward but this test is probably the HARDEST test ive ever faced. after 3 long years, an abrupt stop. a crash.

picking myself up from the crash. from the bent metal, the shattered glass. amidst the pool of blood and burning rubber. the senselessness of it all. i have to go back to the start. suddenly the concept of starting afresh is frightening. the fear of not knowing what is coming. or where im heading.


slipknot - snuff
with lyrics, goddamn

i cried to this fucking song. i cried myself to sleep.

did i deserve to have you..

rock on