teeter totter

impulse.

i acted on impulse.

i saw hafiz, saw the bows, saw the form, remembered his blog rants and signed up.

why?

dont ask me why.

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im crying.

softly. sobbing.

my passion.

should i lose it?

should i give it up?

no not drawing.

drumming.

it has been eons since ive last drummed.

maybe my time is up..

:'(

rock on...

love you...

corbusier

hady mirza won.

muahahahahahahahahaha!

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today rain pee-ed again. anyway i was late for lecture. half hour counts as late? i forgot that they had someone take over ADS. normaly 1030 isnt late. he'd be marking attendance at the point of time.

lecture was ok today. the class was exceptionally quiet. i wonder why. oh well, no time to ponder about unnecessary things. thay gave us our 'refresher course' today. we're supposed to do a case study on any house made by one of the architects that they have listed down. again, i have to cope with the ardous task of groupwork. but this time i want to make things right. i desperately want my As. and in ths period of time, the fasting month, it would be quite a challenge to stay up late to zealously submerge myself in extra work that could, hopefully, be worthwhile and add a mark or two. also, how the heck are we supposed to do a study model AND a structural model in less than a week??

preposterous. i guess we deserved it, for slacking so much.

work work work..

i dont care, im gona work till i faint. wait not actually faint la but close to fainting.

if i faint there goes my fasting.

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in the future, hopefully, im gona start posting pictures here. maybe get a bigger blog so that ya'll dont have to squint to read the posts. hey, im no blog whiz, if there ever was one.

thats it for today, got to go back to my project. this means no more visits to band during holidays, unless i already finish quite a chunk la.

this time must buy proper cardboard to make the models.

rock on..

love you..

PS: nobody wants to play magic with me. hey guys out there. play la. just play for old time's sake. oh and in case fizz is reading this, send me jellybelly's mobile.

haha

fasting month is finally here.its ok la, not that bad. though it doesnt feel like fasting month.and i feel incredibly tired.

yesterday me and sam went to the magic: the gathering time spiral pre-release ( its a convention thingy) at the concourse.

it looked kinda weird. usually they hold em at suntec city. in a proper convention hall, instead of in the middle of a shopping centre. it looked kinda out of place.

so we were there and browsing through the crap rares (one dollar rare cards). sam was looking fo the missing pieces to his 'elf' deck, while i was contemplating on spending 10 bucks to add more firepower to my goblin deck.

here's a breakdown of my expenditure:

1 goblin sharpshooter(rare)(japanese version) - $10ea
1 goblin sharpshooter(rare)(chinese version) - $10ea
2 ib halfheart, goblin tactician - $5ea

so..$30 bucks.

and then i told myself..stop

dont buy anymore. i have that tendency to overindulge.

and that left sameul envious cos eventhough he bought more cards than me it only amounted to what? less than $10? lol..

important announcement :

ladies and gentlemen, i think im going back into the magic scence.

end my turn.

rock on...

love you..

PS: poor ian.

dirty things

this is the final week of holiday.

this is also the final week of not having to wait till 7++pm to eat. and then after that you still have to go to the mosque to pray.

every single night.

the month of fasting is slowly approaching. of course i can tahan not eating. its the getting angry part that im worried about. cos when you fast you're not supposed to get angry or anything.

you're supposed to be humble.

so if anybody out there disturbs me ON PURPOSE, he/she is being a total jerk.

then maybe after fasting i'll beat 'em up.

kidding.

****

its all karen's fault.

that night i went to ian's place and there was this neopets thingy on his internet browser.

n e o p e t s


sounds familiar.

then i went.

and got HOOKED.

fuck sia..

****

im not particularly in a good mood right now. firstly, holidays are ending. secondly, my dad is really pissed about my phonebill. it's like $65? and sometimes way much more than that. and i blame myself. i just feel fucking guilty. i wish i could pay him but hey, i dont have pocket money. i have to work to be able to eat my meals three fucking times a day! guys, if you see me sms-ing someone, stop me. and finally, i dont get to see my immortal till after hari raya. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?? I MISS HER LIKE CRAZY...

rock on..

prison song

its raining in the morning.

rain

dont over-pee anymore.

****

arsenal won yesterday =)

by one-nil.

the saddest part was that hafiz didnt watch(i think).

usually he'll message me "GOOOAAALLL!!!"

but now, nah.

his blog has become somewhat of an archer's blog.

sound's good the name.

maybe he should change it to that.

but its good that he doing well.

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i miss sitting beside her. putting my arm round her. getting closer. hug. then she'll put her head on my shoulder. and i'll kiss her forehead, smell her hair (shampoo). then we'll hold hands and just stare blankly into space.

but that was then this is now la.

****

im drawing now...

gtg..

rock on..

love you..

promiscous

i can draw bunnies now.

and

mystical water dragons.

bunny can fly, swim and do a whole lot more things once i get my brain cracking on the next mini comic strip.

until then, fly bunny, fly.

****

they need to do storyboarding.

i can do abit of storyboarding.

but i dont think i am that willing to help them.

i dunno.

im considering.

and

its quite scary and freaky.

but its a challenge.

and whats in it for me?

so far desmond and ian has approached me to do storyboards for them.

im gona wait till wen fong finds me.

****

fable is such a nice game.

though its old lah.

u get to be good or bad.

i was bad last time.

grew 3 inch horns.

maybe im gona be good this time round.

but eating those crunchy chicks make me evil.

lol

rock on...

love you..

bugger

oh bugger.

it has become hard for me to concentrate recently. i get halfway into drawing something and then suddenly i 'abandon' it and go into another crazy idea. and it doesnt work. most of the time i dont get things done.

at first i set my pencils on drawing the ever infamous balanar the night stalker (DotA Scourge hero). then after a few playful sketches i got a sudden inspiration to draw a comic (yet another one) for my dear. something about bunnies.

bunnies arent hard to draw right?

wrong.

as musicians have high standards to music, draw-ers have high standards to drawing.

or is it artists have a high standard on art?

anyway, the cycle doesnt end there. after learning how to draw this winx bunny that she suddenly loved, i got into more trouble. apparently the masterpiece people want a castle drawing for who knows what. so i got interested, again and start to draw castle elevations. i love doing the shading (timothy would be proud!). but then ian hasnt come up with the pictures so there is nothing for me to draw. yet (i hope).

now, im currently designing this national jersey after reading the new paper on sunday. they want to design a new national jersey.

i can draw.

i love football.

why not?

rock on...

love you =)

shaken

just finished playing hamachi DotA with ian.

tired la.

i play better at lan shops were the computers are faster.

i think that makes my brain go faster too.

i guess.

went back to band today.

horrible.

terrible.

worse than vegetable.

no mood to rant on gessband blog.

nothing good to wtie about.

it was extremely horrible.

im shaken.

yes by that and something else.

i must ask for his forgiveness.

im scared. frightened.

im very scared.

im ashamed.

im scared of you.

but you are the only being that offers both the protection and the punishment.

i must be more disciplined.

i will make an effort.

please forgive me.

it

tired tired tired.

been gym-ing the past few days, either alone or with company.

anyway, this week has been eventfull, unlike other weeks.

on wednesday i went to jon's birthday party at bisuous. wasnt really very exciting. jon had an unfortunate accident though. burnt his face. poor jon. i had an unfortunate mishap a well. quarrelled with her yet again. terrible time. that's why i wasnt so involved in the party. in the end sam, hafiz, alvin and me went home early. and alvin insisted he was drunk but we ignored him anyways.

the next day was teacher's day. i was supposed to be involved in some performance but it was cancelled due to the rain. yay. i didnt have to go to school that early, much to her disappointment.

went there with hafiz anyway. met up with the gang. they ton the whole night at bisuous. it was raining uncontrollably. downpour la. so we had breakfast and waited till it stopped. or at least was drizzling.

we got to school in the nick of time to see the concert which was, in our standards, quite un-entertaining. after that i followed her back and all of us got separated i guess.

that night we went to watch the result show, singapore idol. yes. yes yes yes. finally joakim is out. but that wasnt what made the night special. the thing was, i went there with her mom and dad. i didnt talk to them alot but hey, i aint a talkative person. it was cool. i love her alot.

after SI we (band people) went to makan at adam road. i guess i was overly excited so i ate alot. mutton chop and mutton soup together. sin hua was emoing, we all didnt know why. i guess he was sad joakim was out (lol). took a can with tiffany, weiting and sam back to clementi. sam. that flirt LOL.

on friday gym again. but this time hafiz was there. he broke up with nana so i guess i'd cheer him up. gym as usual was fun and tiring. worked on my back. hafiz got crazier as night came. we were at sam's place gorging on mozzarella. i learnt tai -tee (big 2) that night. bugger.i didnt win though. but not bad eh? fast learning. after that, samuel kinda persuaded hafiz to play lan. and boy was he damn noisy that night. no offence. we plated the 'archer' match. i wad using drow, fiz used clinkz and poor poor samuel used medusa. he died alot. but i had to give him credit la. it wasnt his best hero. and what's important was to make hafiz happy again. in the end he got 20 kills and sam got..er..a few la. me? 23 kills, buriza, lothars and a 2/3 finished divine rapier. damn you claymore.

anyway yeah thats pretty much what happened. it would have been longer if i'd bothered to exaggerate but hey penatlah.

rock on...

love you..

my closest best friend =)