great 210

crashed at desmond's place to watch soccer. and boy oh boy. a big collective YES please as the great sons of devils manchester united LOST to chelsea! (way to go val) and so i asked desmond, "but we still cant win what." and his reply to me was, "mathematically, we can. we just need both manu and chelsea to lose their remaining matches.." so if there are miracles in this good earth then let it happen puh-lease. in case manu fans flame me, yes ive admitted defeat long time ago, since we lost to liverpool and yes, to you. so dont go shooting cause ive got decent sportsmanship.

the next moment i woke up at desmond's we played some fifa08 and cabbed down to my place to jam. frankly we suck xD. desmond and i keep looking at each other, sam wasnt playing bass and ian was loud as an ian can be. however, there was one song that was full of energy and that was STONE COLD BUSH. awesome awesome feeling to play that song. we really felt the vibe going running all over the living room and then into our souls and everything. really cool shit.

than after that it was pretty much dead. f1 in spain was a tad boring. luckily there was tattoo wars. and omg this episode was the bomb man. the artwork was very very top-notcha nd alot better than the ones you see on miami ink. but still the dull atmosphere hung like a freakin heavy cloud there and all of us were close to sleeping. russel peters was the alarm clock. yeah i know its kinda old but still funny i guess.

so nothing much for now. no drawing = nothing much. which is quite sad. school is like starting so late its in july but i really want it to start now.

rock on..

love you..

im quite angry actualy

i dont need a supermodel girlfriend. all i need is someone who is confident in the way she looks. and stop bugging me with the question "am i fat?"

on a lighter note..

check this guy out

jesper ejsing

very inspiring artist. whenever i see people like these i get goosebumps and fall into this imaginary bottomless pit screaming, "IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!!".

rock on..

love you..

yeahhhh

oh my god its 1230 in the morning and im listening to HIP HOP. oh yes, now dzaki listen to hip hop. long story short - i wana see if i can combine my funk-aligned drumming with hip hop beats to make some serious grooves. its going to be one hell of a music experience.

rock on..

love you..

soul music [long post]

first and foremost, happy 18th to my dearest sister. may gold bless you and grant you wishes!

aha. im back. been a good long while since i've wirtten anything. excellent! thats how it should be i guess. you shouldnt write too often casuse it'll turn out to be mundane and thats not fun (unless you count playing drums everyday=mundane=routine). yeah i have been playing my new drums alot recently. its my way of telling my mum dad and the rest of my brothers who's the king on the drums. my brother can play too and my dad tries. keep trying. xD

so anyway i hooked up with the gang just now. yeah, it has been two solid long weeks since i last suan-ed ian for his hair or whatever. now he wears this headband to keep his hair from covering his entire face. maybe he thinks he's roger federrer or something. of all people why federrer? xD (joking). and that desmond has a new guitar. a fender guitar. and a randall amp which ive never heard of it before but it sounds good to me. sam is still the same sam. no more no less. chiu yee is back from china (hush ian) and yi fang has graduated. omg eh? time flies like an over-fed pigeon on steroids. yes my humor is very dry but bear with me.

so we talked, sang songs and played mahjong. no, this isnt a figure of speech used to denote having a good time. we literally did all those things! talked, sang song (highway to hell, ironman and other old metal songs) and played mahjong. damnit i only played one game and my tiles were bad. the last time i played was chinese new year. yeah. it was pretty funny to see desmond using 'psychological warfare xD' to beat yifang, wo is teh strongest player!

and i havent seen sarah for ages. its good that she's more or less settled into her new school and new life. wish i was there for her all the time. then i wouldnt have to be alone at home. but at least i have the drums, tommy and joey with me. and at least i can draw again. im finding lots and lots of reasons to draw. im different. my drawing hand is like coin-op. except that instead of coins, i use excuses to bluff myself into doing something effective. im that lazy.

so ive been reading this terry pratchet book which i bought for 2 bucks at jurong entertainment. tons of books there. good reading. reading actually makes you a better person aesthetically. means it makes you better at arts stuff, cause you use your imagination to visualise the things in your head. it also imrpoves your comprehension meaning you'd understand things a lot better. comprende? so this terry pratchet guy. he's still living and his books are darn funny i guess. to me lah. but a word of warning though, you have to be this 'high' to be able to understand most of it. cause it dabbles with a lot of figures-of-speeches and funny parodies in the modern and post-modern world. ok im chim actually. but i kinda dont know how to express my chimness in a not-so-boring kind of way. the words with a lot of '-'s in between just reflects on my weak vocabulary.

so moral of the day is. a good read of the book and you'll be in harvard/yale/oxford in no time. joking. only geniuses and people who work really really hard get to go there.

rock on..

love you love you love you love you..

missing you..

repercussions

if anyone has a sure-cure 100% chopped-guarantee(hahaha luqman) remedy for SORE THROAT do give it to me NOW. cause ive been coughing like smoker for the past few days. and now i cant sleep cause every now and then i wake up when i cough.

so anyway most of us have school. to some of us its a brand new lease in life. for others its just starting to get interesting and for the rest you guys are like 'yippee! im going to graduate soon!'. but for me, yes small insignificant speck of dust me, life will be very stagnant for the next few months. yes, im a poly dropout. never in my 18 (going 19) years of life have i ever thought i'd be this way. however, i still got school though, just that it starts this july. that means i'll graduate 2 years later than my peers (3 if you count the JC batch) go into army late (humiliation) and im gonna be asked tons of questions like 'oh why did you change course?'

im like feeling the repercussions of my actions now. the consequential sequences that will follow is going to be bad, very bad till i enter school again. but not unless i start doing something about it. ive started drawing again, but not as frequent as the past whereby i'll draw anything that comes to mind. im starting to go gym again which is good but its dampened by this irritating cough and my incurable/persistent insomnia. oh god please let me lead a more meaningful year this time round. dont let me squander away my life moments ever again and let me excell in my interests. let me have just enough for myself and let me be humble and appreciate whatever i have. and let me strive for a better future. amin.

you know i think when you ask god for something, youve got to be really honest about it. and when he wants to give it to you he doesnt directly give it to you. he kinda presents the opportunity and then its up to you to take it. ok fine..i ripped it off evan almighty. but thats how i think anyways.

i havent seen ian or sam these few days. it all started when they wana watch soccer at desmond's place but somehow i was kinda infuriated (dont ask why i dont know) and so i didnt join them. then they started to make plans on going to my place to watch soccer. which is fine. but then things started to turn sour when they suddenly changed direction and headed to desmond's place. twice. which doesnt really surprise me at all. make me wait for all i care. but i am not angry i am a patient amigo and i just let it pass.

haha i met htat win the other day and we went to the gym. and let me tell you this. never..run..with..an..NSF cause i tell you, your legs will die at about 2km. at least for us people that dont exercise everyday lah. yes i go gym but my stamina is like shit. i didnt really like running. but now i have to cause if you want to survive NS you gotta run and run. hamster mode. and running makes you lose fat too (you hear me all you diet-ers? not eating = anorexia). thanks htat for the insider. and htat's a combat medic trainee. he says its shit cause you got 9 weeks to study 14 thick books of medical stuff. sucks eh. imagine carrying a gun which youre not allowed to use.

so i typed alot today and it feels gratifying. see you next time, with pics!

rock on..

love you..

rhapsod rhapsody rhapsody rhapsody

IT WAS A BLAST.


tonight's concert was a major success. the band sounded great tonight. even though some of us were feeling rather nervous, i think everyone pulled it off! i can still remember hearing azhar say that he's scared. hahaha. see lah, practice talk so much now concert scared arh. so anyway it was really really good today. i think probably the best ever performance by the band. the sound was so good. see, if you listen to what simon has to say, you'll do well. all your hard work has paid off. good for you =)

eventhough i played only for a while, it was worth it anyway. finally i get to play a song where its technically difficult for me. to the point i had to practise at home with a metronome. see, the harder the pieces, the more fun you have! im really sure all of you had alot of fun. some more sp hall is so damn big. so many places to run and hide and so many things to do.

i really do hope that there will be alumni band. i mean, for a school as old as gess, shouldnt there be one? what does gessosa do then? lol. maybe raymond might be enthu and daring enough to form one eh raymond? but if simon leaves you all then all this talk is shattered lah. cause simon is pro-seniors.

so this year we must have an UNOFFICIAL rod ok? go out, bbq slack lepak play soccer bbq again sleepover watch national day parade. lol. the good old times larh. must plan now! now is the time to plan. and FUN DAY. must be fun and OUTSIDE school too. then i will come lorh. i think like i got a lot of time on my hands and i wana do something productive. like maybe president of gessband alumni? WHOA!

rock on..

love you..

so unlucky

its so freaking stupid lah. so unneccessary.

went back to band today for the last practice before the concert tomorrow. so everything was going fine actually, the band played well, the percussion was smooth for once and i didnt mess up alot (i do, but you all dont know only). and then suddenly this shit HAD TO HAPPEN.

sarah left her purse (ic,ez-link and HANDPHONE) somewhere outside the music room or toliet, she cant remember where. and then we went to look for it, it was gone. ok here are the few possibilities. 1) one of the cleaning aunties took it 2) one of the students took it 3) she lost it and it is god knows where.

now, lets look at the possibilities. the first one. surely the cleaning aunty (cleaner) will hand it over to the general office right? but the thing is, we checked the office for lost and found and we got nothing! surely the cleaner will return it right? if thats not the case then the purse is gone to the cleaner.

the second one. ok this to me is the MOST probable one. i really think that some student took it. he/she will suffer a dog's death, this i curse. i mean where is your integrity. where is your discipline. this year GESS has only two express classes? how pathetic is that? giam, what on earth are you doing? how do you explain this degradation? and lastly where is our air-conditioned hall? im so pissed cause firstly im an ex-gessian. god im so embarassed for admitting that, considering the condition of the school now.

im not even going into the last possibility.

and poor poor sarah. how she will get scolded by her folks. yes it is partly her fault. shes blur and muddleheaded. but this is so king unfortunate. this really is. handphone, ic, ez-link and money ALL GONE. WHAT THE FCUK. not only that her parents will scold her, they like wont forgive anybody for anything. thats SO unfair. why oh why has this happened to her.

i will kill the person that stole her wallet. punch in the face, smash the head against the wall. kick to the gut. smash the head to the floor and keep smashing till he/she die like a dog.

i hate thieves. if there is a god then justice must be served. sarah is like, never done anything wrong ever. and there is so much injustice against her.

rock on..

love you..

oh no

so today we had the gala night rehearsal at SP convention hall. nothing much happened really. i almost freezed to death cause SP air conditioning is alway too cold. heck, ANY air conditioning is too cold for me. but maybe it was because i was feeling like a drunken monkey. i didnt have a wink of sleep the entire night the previous night. me and sam were at ian's and somehow we couldnt stop playing console/computer games the whole night. so after that we just left the next morning, headed to sam's tiong place, bathed and went straight for the rehearsal.

im so sorry i cant post anymore pictures here. i know some of you want to see the drums but i lost my phone usb cable so you just have to wait till i get a new one. im still feeeling damn tired lah. almost dying when i was eating lunch with the alumni at tiong.

i almost died too when we had to walk to tiong but luckily there was this kind uncle who offered to take us there when he saw foo with the crutches so we all sat at the back of his pick up truck. what a way to travel in style!

so little activity actually. not feeling very well. and so many things to do. ohS no i cant pull thru man.

rock on..

love you..

fool the foo

first and foremost. SARAH HAS A BLOG NOW. so go visit straightfromthebunnysmouth.blogspot.com yes i know both of us have incredibly long blog names.

so right now is april fool's right? ok the first announcement is valid. yes she DOES have a blog. go visit and tag ok. secondly, my drumset is due WEDNESDAY which is no joke either. will post pictures of it when its here and well tuned (i'll post it as well). thirdly, i got accepted into nafa. no prank as well. now i need to complete the registration by this friday. rush rush.

im playing for rhapsody its official. samuel sinhua and jazz are playing too. seems like they got not enough firepower. on the other side of the world, desmond is buying a new guitar tomorrow, probably either a fender or a gibson (yeah he rich). but ultimately everyone will have to go to my place to jam hahaha.

i created a new blog for all my sketches! its dzaki-sketches.blogspot.com check it out ok?

rock on..

love you..

stadium arcadium

well it was splendid that arsenal won but how they won it is kinda disappointing. ernest luis must be a manu fan. the article he wrote is SO deliberate in mocking arsenal. like who cares if manu win the title again. i got into football cause i like watching em pass and then eventually score. i like to think about the strategy involved in the scoring process. the tricks, the flashiness. not some title race. heck if i wanted that then i'd watch horse racing which to me is kind of boring. i do watch racing and its F1 that i watch.

speaking of F1, today was supposed to be the day i saw mika hakinen at city hall. but then i didnt cause my lower back hurts like hell. so does my leg, especially that left foot.



so here's a little quick sketch. one of my favourite things in the world. just a very rough sketch, very messy i know. these hands werent what they used to be years ago but im working on it, drawing by drawing.

rock on...

love you..

oh and did i mention i bought a drumkit? due wednesday. xD

nothing much

as the title says, nothing much so this is just another 'filler' post.



ok yeah this is just some rough sketch initial idea for a friend of mine. nothing much anyway. supposed to be some faerie thing. then i was looking around my books and saw this pose, saw it was nice and sketched it out. turns out the friend didnt like how the hands were positioned. she says its messy = out of place. then i was thinking, how can it be out of place if its from some art book? but nevermind i went to look for some other posture. stressing.

i hope to draw lots and lots more this year. that means less odin/computer/going out and more time spent on the drawing board. kind been involving myself in band refalted stuffs. alumni stuff of course. some pretty litty ditty they're doing. maybe i should do some kinda cheklist. im never good at checklists. hafiz used to have this small little book when we were in secondary school and inside were all the itty bitty reminders like do homework, eat, bathe, wear underwear hahaha..kidding fiz. for me i wouldnt even bother to look at some list. looking at it makes me feel like turning to the next blank page and start drawing.

ok nothing much turned out to be quite a bit to digest. i'll leave it at here for now. and by the way, i think its high time i changed blogskin.

rock on..

love you..

rhapsody

gosh. i feel utterly horrible when sarah is not around. worse when she's overseas. like now. can't eat can't train can't do anything. thankfully i can still sleep. you feel like you want to do something but you can't and you somehow will contradict yourself and you don't feel like doing it. im just waiting for her to get back (like sunday?).

if only for a few days you'd badly miss your loved one, then i cant imagine a loss of a loved one. it's disastrous. i still dont know why im feeling this way. usually it would be all fine. sarah goes off and comes back after the weekend. gives me time to watch soccer maybe ton at ian's or desmond's. go out with band people or jam. but this time is different. its like ive got no will to do anything.

haiya..just have to wait it out.


got a lot of ideas coming to me laately which is good. i need the flow of creative thinking. once school starts, i'll be more than prepared though i might need to practise more on the technical side. how i wish i had like some private tutoring from ms lee mun yee. then i'll be super imba.

i think im gona be involved in the concert some way of another.

rock on..

love you..PLEASE COME BACK

i miss you

gratz

omg yay to me i just got my doombringer! xD



..so i immediately drew me celebrating it! ok it doesnt look so nice its a very small sketch and it was done in the dark cause my lil bro was sleeping..

but its a doombringer..revel in my might

singapore is cold

i wish i could upload my sketchbook here but i cant find my phone usb cable. i think its cursed that whenever i find it, it'll go missing the next day. what a bummer.

today was spent reminiscing the old band days. those WERE the good times. of course there will be more good times to come but i think those were the peak of this part of my life, besides sarah.



this is one of the segments of the video. im a senior at that point of time xD (i appear somewhere in the middle). band people, if youre reading this go tell everyone and spread the love!

many many many thanks to darryl seah whom i think is the peter jackson/steven spielberg/george lucas of band. samuel looks super young in that video and ian looks way better then than now (sorry!).

****

its just frustrating that arsenal is on the wrong side when the ref blows the whistle. i mean COME ON! they didnt commit no foul/were fouled against/had their shirt tugged/not offside etc. ok im pretty sure every football fan would say the EXACT same thing about their favourite club. but im pretty sure something is going way wrong with how arsenal is being treated. i think they have tons of patience just by ignoring it.

it was very unlucky they suffered (yes, suffered) another draw this time against BORO. i mean. its BORO. ok yeah sure there's mido and tuncay and blah blih blah. the first goal should have been ours you dumbfcuk linesman. clearly all that hair lost has removed quite a substantial amount of braincells to have made that bad call.

all i know is that there is something wrong. and i way believe in karma. haha.

rock on..

love you..

awesome

sometimes i wish i could play guitar instead of the stupid drums..

rhcp under the bridge cover, by this amazingly talented kid..

go away

9 WORDS WOMEN USE

1. Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are
right and you need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour.
Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more
minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

3. Nothing: This is the calm before the storm.. This means something,
and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing
usually end in fine.

4. Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

5. Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement
often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an
idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing
with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6. That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can
make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before
deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say
you're welcome.

8. Whatever: Is a women's way of sayin F@!K YOU!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning
this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but
is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking "What's
wrong?" For the woman's response refer to #3.


rock on..

love you..

edit

from now on i wont be using any more vulgar language in my posts. why? because i do not want some people certain adults to see that i am that vulgar and cause they condone it.

i don't want to get into trouble ya. so bear with me.

so you think

i am so JEALOUS of this kid!

so what were you doing when you were five?

rock on..

love you..

arts house

everybody who knows me very well know that i dont listen to malay songs. i dont. and i dont speak much malay either. but thats ok.

tonight was a very special night for sarah. she got to perform with one of her idols and that is anugerah 07 winner (i think) imran ajmain.



there she is playing the keyboard as he sang angel by someone or the other i cant remember. she was supposed to sing and all that, it was her only chance to do so but she refused. she should have i guess. even i wanted her to sing. maybe it was too hard on her but she should have sang.

anyway the event was really good. imran is quite full of humor. i didnt have any expectations that night cause ive never been to such events but yeah, it was very good. the house band was equally spectacular. i love to hear live band performances. sarah said that the drummer was funny. khairul anwar was super. so was imran. i mean ive never listened to malay songs/vocal songs but i was like enjoying it even though i was freezing my ass off in the room.

and the room. it was at the chamber in arts house. i actually got to sit where lee kuan yew sat many many years ago. amazing.

so all in all, it was a very special moment for sarah.

love you..

rock on..

azwethinkweiz

so im at leslie's house in the middle of the night. came over to drop some stuffs. played a round of wining eleven 10 AND won on pemalties. ai zhai. its like random stuff is happening all around. i dont mind the randomness but random events might lead to bad things happening. only god will know.

so finally the entrance test is over much to my relief. now all i have to do is pray that i manage to go through. the people there are so nice but my brother says theyre all so dead. which is true. you could drop half a pin there and it'll soud louder than rock and roll. the plus point is that its near doby so if you wana jam or lan thats the best place to be.

im kinda more motivated to draw nowadays cause i got my juice back. alot of good movies coming up like ironman, the dark night and superhero movie just to name a few. so thats for now guys, cheerio.

"i think i thought i saw an azwethinkweiz, looking like we think we do, like we think we do"

by the way, does anyone think that my blog url is too damn long? i could change it though..if its too irritating for you.

rock on..

love you..