arts house

everybody who knows me very well know that i dont listen to malay songs. i dont. and i dont speak much malay either. but thats ok.

tonight was a very special night for sarah. she got to perform with one of her idols and that is anugerah 07 winner (i think) imran ajmain.



there she is playing the keyboard as he sang angel by someone or the other i cant remember. she was supposed to sing and all that, it was her only chance to do so but she refused. she should have i guess. even i wanted her to sing. maybe it was too hard on her but she should have sang.

anyway the event was really good. imran is quite full of humor. i didnt have any expectations that night cause ive never been to such events but yeah, it was very good. the house band was equally spectacular. i love to hear live band performances. sarah said that the drummer was funny. khairul anwar was super. so was imran. i mean ive never listened to malay songs/vocal songs but i was like enjoying it even though i was freezing my ass off in the room.

and the room. it was at the chamber in arts house. i actually got to sit where lee kuan yew sat many many years ago. amazing.

so all in all, it was a very special moment for sarah.

love you..

rock on..

azwethinkweiz

so im at leslie's house in the middle of the night. came over to drop some stuffs. played a round of wining eleven 10 AND won on pemalties. ai zhai. its like random stuff is happening all around. i dont mind the randomness but random events might lead to bad things happening. only god will know.

so finally the entrance test is over much to my relief. now all i have to do is pray that i manage to go through. the people there are so nice but my brother says theyre all so dead. which is true. you could drop half a pin there and it'll soud louder than rock and roll. the plus point is that its near doby so if you wana jam or lan thats the best place to be.

im kinda more motivated to draw nowadays cause i got my juice back. alot of good movies coming up like ironman, the dark night and superhero movie just to name a few. so thats for now guys, cheerio.

"i think i thought i saw an azwethinkweiz, looking like we think we do, like we think we do"

by the way, does anyone think that my blog url is too damn long? i could change it though..if its too irritating for you.

rock on..

love you..

get up and Jump

currently at ian's and i cant sleep. got nothing better to do, other than draw, draw and draw but im not da vinci. ian is playing his god of war2 for a very long time now and its very hilarious to see him shouting and cursing at the tv screen whenever he dies. apparently now theres an irritating mosquito flying around sucking the blood off all of us. whoever has the sweetest blood goes first.

sam is like tired of playing his wow trial account cause he keeps complaining of dying to the mob. thats what happened to me a few days back but i got sick of it and created a paladin. i heard some god awful stories from sam who woke up just as soon as i was going to sleep. maybe thats why i couldnt. there are just some things you wouldnt wana know. and know ians trying to burn some minotaur in the game. hes the one thats getting bitten now. dont we all hate the mozzies?

i just wasted about 40 bucks on a wow prepaid cause i should have bought the battlechest instead cause thats the only thing (besides credit card) to activate my trial account. so now im just so sian lah.

im just posting so that the people out there wont get the idea that im very lazy to blog which i am. i just dont want to look bad. life should be more meaningfull thats all. will post pictures next time.

rock on..

love you..

brontotherium

lucky victims get run over. unlucky victims get run through.

well, it seems i havent blogged for quite some time now. considering the fact that i dont have many readers (holla if you here me), i take my time in between posts. however, nothing much has happened these few days if you ask me, besides the chinese welcoming the year of the rat and for the other races, a short two day holiday. not much hype this time of year, possibly the year of the rat isnt that exciting as the year of the other animals. perhaps snake is the best?

ive managed to at least draw something in my NEW sketchbook! i got this wild idea of keeping a sketchbook (a real one) from this book i 'STREET SKETCHBOOK' that features a good selection of artworks from street artists. unfortunately i cant seem to find my phone usb cable so i cant upload them now. i guess i got to 'borrow' one from my cousin. or maybe dzariff...

i just realised that ive got insomnia? and i cant sleep and i wont watch mtv insomnia cause its full of crapshit. where is all the funk rock and metal? where is the good music? its not that i dont want to sleep but after i hit the bed i just cant follow through. i guess my mind is so full of stuff but my body hasnt got any fuel left. but the weird thing is that my mind keeps on running even though my body says stop. i just got to find the off button.

another thing is, sarah is abroad and the worst part is that i have absolutely no means of contacting her. none of the family members have autoroam cept for her mom. and i cant call her mom's cell just to talk to her cause thats so cheesy lah! she left singapore right after we quarreled (ouch) BUT luckily its all okay now. she called me just now and i was so so very happy glad elated relieved. am counting the hours till she returns safely.

will be blogging more regularly now that ive got 'more time' on my hands. see ya'all soon enough. cant wait for the manu/arsenal fa cup semi. arsenal forever!

rock on

love you

turn the tide

congrats to all my friends that got good results for their o levels. for those who arent so lucky, as i was last time, its not the end of the world. life still has to go on aite? we just have to accept it and keep moving on. nobody will wait for you so you got to pick yourself up and go forth.

i just got sudden inspiration today. while sitting on my porcelain throne this afternoon, i was thinking about animal rights(?) and poaching. i kept dwelling on the idea of switching the roles of the characters. instead, its the humans that get killed by the animals in a gory kind of sadistic way. and the animals are biped with humanoid characteristics while us humans are twisted in form (reflecting our dark nature to kill for gain). but the irony is that when animals kill one another, we just call it 'nature'. so when animals kill humans, is it natural as well?

another idea, which is totally different is about a house i thought of. its like taking a long strip of paper and turning it sideways and whatever, it provides ample space for design ideas. though now its quite simple and basic, i think it will be nice if i do manage to progress further and take the concept to another level.

yeah. i got me ideas back.

rock on..

love you..

eh? nan desu ka?

its been like a week since i've last written anything. have i been that busy? or that lazy.

anyway the not-so-bad part is finally over. exams i mean. MAT ADS and ES all smacked on one day. morning till afternoon. swee bo. and there's no more CSW too. all clear blue skies, cept for portfolio submission and industrial torture program.

my friend said i should sell the shoes that i draw. and that blog-shopping is trendy these days. really meh? you want me to break my back drawing shoes all day long. and if people buy lah =\. we all know my blog isnt too well on publicity.

then there's this option to draw for the people who play DnD or DnD-ers. its like, a game where you have to imagine you're in a dungeon and go questing to fight demons and evil monsters. just draw them their pre-imagined characters (bring them to life) and then charge em!

haix. but seriously, havent been inspired by anything. couldnt draw if i wanted to either. no more mojo?

rock on..

love you..

pigfish

ive just been inducted into the massive and possibly addictive world of facebook. and the best part is that ive manage to persuade the 'i dont like friendster/internet' sarah to join and i think shes having a blast.

"you cannot form a sentence using the word because, because, because is a conjunction."

similarly..

"you cannot form a sentence using the word and, because, and is a conjunction too"

i think. there you go chiu yee.

Happy belated birthday to Desmond. the big one has turned 19 when all of us are still 18 and some, 17. but not to worry. age is not what defines us, its our personality and our contribution to the society. and to desmond, try to make the effect last.

rock on..

love you..

late-night fiesta

this is blog post 185. if i keep this up sooner or later i'll have blogged more posts than thierry henry scored goals in the premiership.

currently feeling way depressed. doing work, at this time of time, at dzariifs house at tampines. you know how sometimes you feel so fucked up and so screwed yet as much as you try to make things better its still looks extremely bleak? yeah. thats about it.

this last-minute work for final submission is driving me nuts. so nuts that in fact im forced to blog as an effort to keep cheer. now i wish sarah hadnt slept so early and that i should have called her just now. aiyah sian.

there is loads to be done. not truck loads but ship loads. damnit. half of me is telling me to give up and retain but the other half just wants to finish this hell. i mean, how the fuck are you supposed to present? all the others will be smokin through their presentations with their smashingly wonderfully done piece of work. and youre the guy with the last minute piece of incomplete crap.

im already screwed and im gonna get screwed even more!

oh man..do i run or face the music? something i havent done for quite some time.


rock on..

love you..

death of a year

happy new year dear readers.

i always liked the thought that the new year is the death of the previous year. somewhat like a falling tree-like being ripped apart by something more energetic and full of life which is the new year. and you cant forget the cataclysmic explosion after that occurs.

and after that, POOF! you get a new year.

so heres wishing all you people out there, 3mc, band members, fellow archi people, people i know, people i dont know, family, friend's family, maplers, dota-ers, fire fighters, NS men , semen..(joking) etc.

..a happy new year.

my resolutions. lest see now. get a drumset. attend school regularly(somehow this doesnt want to remoce itself from ALL my NY resolutions). save more money. and DRAW.

cheers! rock on..

love you..

joHn JOhN

pReSeNtInG...something not related to drums...PRESENTING....

joHn FrUsCiAnTe!



rock on..

love you..

3mc cheers mate, you owe it to yourself

There existed a brotherhood of 6 men, brought together and bonded by GESS, GessBand, a 530am MRT, RHCP and after school street soccer. every joy and sorrow and occasion were equally felt by everyone. it was a great time to hang out and be merry. it was truly a splendid affair.

we had...

Duga Risiz (ahmad) - the famous clown/joker/jester that manages to still be in the top class and wreck havoc in the multimedia club hall of infamy. [Multimedia Ex-Co]

Fungi/Pongz (hafiz) - the cool calm and collected sportsman. always there for good advice and always there for the good times and bad. [House Captain]

Raeborn (me) - the drummer/artist/thinker. very anti-climax with that quiet attitude but always there when you need a helping hand. cheh. [Drum Major, Perc SL]

Huh (ian) - the guy with all the ideas, be it good mischievous or bad. always fun to have around at anytime anyplace. [Trumpet SL, PRO]

Noobster (desmond) - the big intellectual smart guy. there to talk every one's way out of trouble. also another big joker just a laugh away. [Assistant Drum Major]

Loki (samuel) - the youngest of the bunch, often the one getting suan-ed. loyal and filial. the most enthusiastic of the group. [Perc SL]

and there we were. 3MC. which really stood for 3 Malay 3 Chinese. a part faction of Ah Yam's gang, the Kingpin of Gess. those were the good old days.

rock on..

love you..

goodmountain

for the benefit of those who read. wont be posting for the next month i guess. too busy with work. schoolwork that is.

for the classmates. for now i wont leave. yes i seem like an awful prick making up all this conspiracy but you dont have to know of it in the first place. we'll see how it gets along. not looking forward to industrial torture program (ITP). regrets alot.

also, there will be a hike in drawng productivity during the next few weeks. that means busy busy busy. damn im always busy but not too busy to hangout. life is just so imbalanced.

ok that seemed pretty boring.

on a lighter note, m|brosia (which i think is a very cheesy name for the concert) wasnt that bad and im looking forward to the next concert next year. maybe there will be a small performance. who knows?

arsenal are still at the top after today so the race is still on. my lobster died the other day. i managed to give it a proper burial, at the grass patch beside the void deck.

i guess this blog is not that colourfull but thas how i likes it and thats how it will be. and i will miss you during your trip to malaysia. you will come back on 25 is that right? a week without you will be horrible. but i guess 2 years wihout you is even worse.

rock on..

love you..

skinny man

nothing much. here's a picture though. bad quality. apologies.

rock on.

love yous.

pb

47

its true that when im busy drawing something, i always forget about you, cause im so totally engrossed in whatever im drawing.

im sorry but thats me.




art is cruel.

rock on...

love you..

wild wild

i dont think im singaporean. i might be, well, a little bit. but i dont think im even 60% singaporean. im not that into local food (except for the indian food you have to love that). im not into local music. im dont have a local mindset (kiasu). i dont believe in the rat race. i strongly object the study-graduate-work-wife-kids-retire-cpf-dies eventually kind of life. i always believed that life doesnt have to follow any certain order. and you dont have to follow what other people tell you lest its the right thing. basically you influence your life and you live it as you want it to be.

nowadays people are living factory lives. and they are so into it that they dont even realise it themselves. they are like that since childbirth and slowly the spark of individualism is forced out of their heads and they become one with the rest of this (gigantic+enormous)= ginormous living being.

im supposed to post a picture today but didnt have the time to do so. im currently working on a portfolio right now so i guess i should be busy. *hint* i dont care about detailing or part plans or substations anymore and i hope my new escapade will turn out fine. so see yah!

rock on..

love you..

LAMB OF GODness

Corina Shrimp Delight-Calcium Enriched

there are more important things to life than just material wealth. thats why i wont buy that psp slim. i wont buy unnecessary clothes. i wont buy new drumsticks. or a drum pad. i wont buy new shoes (yet) and i wont buy bling (not that i have any). there are more important things in life. either that or im a poor lad.

health. health is more important. without health you'll die faster. you cant run as fast. cant act that fast. cant play fast. cant work well either. cant carry that girl off to wherever whenever. and that is why you have to exercise and go gym once in a while (or everyday). i cant figure out why people HATE to exercise. i dont think laziness is an issue there.

what else. erm. friends. yes. friends are also important. good friends are even better. they are the. well. they are the ones that fill in the blanks. seriously. they lie in between school/work and family. work isnt that important. friends are. and i dont like to use (,)s. friends take you for that joy ride youve been itching to go on for weeks. they are the colours and the noises in your life.

passion. yes. passion is another thing that makes life life. passion is like purpose only that its more enjoyable. without passion there can be no meaning to all this. passion is what makes you who you are. passion can be materialistic. then so be it. kind of contradicting but when you indulge in your passion and theres some money involved then i think thats ok. cause its passion. passion for spending alot of money doesnt count.

family. dont forget family. they are the ones that make your stay at home more enjoyable or miserable. it all depends on you. patience will go anywhere.

Corina Shrimp Delight. try it.

rock on..

love you..

internet slow dah

just yesterday i read gameaxis (magazine) and i saw this guy's work on one of the pages. apparently he is from laselle and when my friends saw it they were like,

"what the fuck? dzaki you can draw way better!"

i am so depressed. how i wish i got some publicity. i always believed that people dont accept creativity. i kinda wished that i could turn ink into cash. fast. and why is it so hard to make a living off a canvas or something. all the artists in the world should fly to venus and live there, where all of us will scrutinize each other's work and there shall be no peace and a neverending stream of art. and then millenia will pass and all of us will never age (because on venus its like peterpan). whatever we imagine will come to life - our drawings, music and dance.

frustration.

*****

have you ever noticed that talent, genius and drugs mixed together to a fine cocktail can give you fame, recognition and fantastic art? ive always wondered whether drugs (the illegal kind) has any positive effect on talented people.

we all know that athletes perform much better under the daily(?) consumption of steroids and we do know that they feed drugs to chicken to make then grow faster. what i dont know is, could drugs possibly make an artist play/write/compose/sing/draw (etc) better? does it have some kind of property that allows the brain to excrete more creative juices?

a month ago i read this book 'scar tissue' which is something like an autobiography of anthony kiedis, the frontman for the red hot chili peppers. through this book ive got to know that musicians often take drugs, especially rockstars. apparently these drugs tend to make them go psycho and crazy (duh) but also extremely creative. maybe that is dependant on how experienced you are in shooting. anyway one example is john fruciante (guitar-rhcp) and his drug abuse often led to him being more productive and thus produced numerous guitar riffs or parts while he is under the influence of drugs.

however, this john fruciante guy is really really talented so i dont really know whether or not the drugs and the alcohol allowed him to be that productive or that they allowed the ideas to flow unhindered. or maybe being in this drugged state that one is able to naturally be genius? for me to know that i guess i have to do some research on drugs. as in real science.

but what if drugs and alcohol really did allow you to be more productive (talent wise)? would there be a huge increase in the number of people taking drugs? and would it be a banned substance? i dont even know why its banned in the first place (maybe because its highly addictive?) but what if instead of condemning it, shouldnt science like, develop it into something that can make everyone a genius?

i was kinda thinking like, the average human uses 5% of its brain. einstein used 7%. correct me if im wrong here. what it, under the controlled influence of some superdrug that we, humans, are able to use more than that said 5%? and what would be the consequences of use using our brains to its full capacity? would we be able to fly? would all of us be psychic? or would we explode under some continuous stress or brain activity?

rock on..

love you..

WARNING: Soccer Post

i know all of you support derby but bear with me aite?

end of first half - almunia blunder

start of second half - way to go fabregas!

end of second half - defensive blunder

extra time - saved by gallas!

and what an exciting match wasnt it, my Arsenal brothers? though we failed to gun the devils down, theyre f*cked up cause we're still top of the table with one game to spare. this is just to silence all the devils in my class on Monday. its a draw so dont bother arguing about anything. yes football, like any other sport, involves luck so lucky us that we have an angel of salvation. and home turf? doesnt matter. what matters most is that 1. Arsenal top 2. Play Beautiful 3. Manu not on top xD. so lets all conclude that it was a FAIR match. and when ronaldo gets old will the gals still love him or will they turn into those i-love-beckham kinda aunties?

and now yes, finally, i get what you mean when you call me Evra (sadistic mofo).

i now know that kids are very very very demanding. they need an unmeasurable amount of attention (like a girlfriend does), care (same), undying love (still same) and a whole new level of tolerance. you need to give in to them but the trick is to not overgive. i still stick to my method that being mutually friendly yet exuding a 'im-older-than-you-so-respect-me' aura works better than a 'im-older-than-you-so-if-you-dont-respect-me-things-will-get-nasty' feel. and when you play games with kids, its encouraged that you go for a draw or a lost. winning is never an option unless you're seriously getting whupped in the as*. discipline is also important. now that d-word is like a thing of a past. sometimes though, it's used excessively like the child is in NS or something.

but really, sometimes kids can get really out of hand and discipline is the way to go. i myself was raised on discipline (i got my as* whupped ok) but i think without it i would have gone and be some useless mofo without any principles or respect or any of that sh!t. but too much of it hurts in the long run as well. kids are our future and i sense that the future is bleak. but i love kids. i mean who doesnt? theyre so full of energy as if they had energisers for lunch or something and some of them are adorable. its a rollercoaster ride.

pictureless lobster update: the thing (i havent decided on a name so please help) just MOULTED yesterday. i was like, hey isnt that its shell or something? and thats very cool cause it means that its healthy and growing (yes!) another cool thing is that it actually EATS its old shell. amazing.

rock on..

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