2-3 / 100

im such a fag, i know.
3 down 97 more to go.

rock on
love you

poolside

classic moment at jon's place. sorry its not the right side up




well im off to finish my leftover assignments and they are such a bore. im better off painting and painting stuff or drawing some fantasy shit again. two week break begins here and i think im going to finish off EVERYTHING before the first week ends.


1/100 for the sketchbook

yeah call me freakishly hardworking. i just wanna clear everything and then i can gym.


rock on
love you

that feeling

i cant help but think that something's going on but nobody's telling me. hmmmmm. i guess sooner or later someone will spill the beans. hopefully.

fasting month is ok i guess. i think this time round isnt as beautiful as the other times. im always exhausted from school and schoolwork. and the long one hour rides to and fro doesnt help me at all. it gets worse if it rains but i dont mind the rain. rain = prosperity in my religion i think.

our song =)

theres only one person i think of whenever i hear this song and thats you.

rock on
love you

taz' dingo!

so 'holidays' are coming. holidays = tutorial weeks. so they give us two weeks of free time to finish up or re-do our previous assignments, if we're not happy with it or if THEYRE not happy with it. lol

fasting month is just fasting month. same old same old. i look forward to every weekend now that soccer is up and running again. can never live without soccer. another thing i cant live without is hawker centre food. i cant imagine living overseas, feeding myself on western food everyday. sure there's italian pasta in italy or snails in france but i will miss my dear chicken rice, nasi goreng, egg prata etc. foodies out there will share my thoughts.

nothing much to update. will post more 'art' next time round.

rock on
love you

friday night/saturday morning

yeah we were actually upside down. it was either that or i was too lazy to rotate the pictures.

rock on
love you

zeppelin

i just had to post this song. cannot wait uh. so emotional and everything is simply brilliant from guitars bass keys vocals and especially drums. i hope you all watch la. abit long but nevermind right?



Led Zeppelin - Since ive been loving you

rock on
love you

ok

printmaking class. this time we had to play with colors, something i tried my best to do.not bad right?




the set up we had to paint during western painting. the girl in the back is the korean girl in my class. doesnt talk to me much.




and band people, remember this? =D my pride and joy last time. it freaked the hell out of everyone and PWNed all the other cca t-shirts but not so bad, considering i also did their t-shirts as well =X

so went jamming today, will be going jamming tomorrow again. good. reduce stress have fun relax chill time out enjoy myself. i seriously think something is wrong with me ever since i stepped foot into NAFA. im getting weaker day by day. must be more resolute and strong.

rock on
love you
miss you
miss you

almost a month

its going to be almost a month in school now. time flies very fast doesnt it? i wish it'll fly faster. hopefully i get to learn MORE stuff as opposed to what we did today. man i hate still life drawing but its kinda essential to being a damn good artist, i think.

there are a lot of options that i think i can go. i just need to put in more effort (as usual) and keep drawing and drawing and painting and drawing. oh no. that sounds abit like julie. =O i dont understand how people can sit for hours drawing stuff. it seems ive lost all my discipline and i need to regain it fast.

rock on
love you

tuesdays

tuesday is the messiest day of the week. not to mention the most tiring. we have printmaking in the morning and western painting in the afternoon. so here goes!







ok the watercolor painting is NOT DONE YET so dont complain like a singaporean uh. my first time using water color kay. so its not si beh pro xD

i'll be back with more drawings and more rhcp!

rock on
love you

so it begins

chalet shmellet ballet. details can be found at here! =D

here's a nice video of give it away
fuji rock festival 2006
im praying very hard valerie



for your info:
the intro is from "public enemy - youre gonna get yours"
suckers to the side i know you hate my 98, youre gonna get yours

they really go crazy in this one. its a bit long right, 9 minutes but thats cause of the intro+song+outro that is so typical of rhcp. see thats the BIG DIFFERENCE between rchp and other bands. every concert they create jams and extra impromptu stuff so its really refreshing and energizing! xD

rock on
love you

hey you

honey, this song is for you. remember all the good times we had and dont forget it. and please, i know you dont like RHCP but please listen to the song and the lyrics ok? especially the chorus. i know i havent been myself the past few days but im working on it. nafa has already begun to take its toll on me i guess.

RHCP LYRICS MAKES SENSE OK. ITS NOT ALL ABOUT LOVE SEX AND DRUGS. bitches! =D


song: funny face
single: snow

rock on
love you

here is a song

going through alot of emotional tension now. here's a nice song by john anthony motherfcking fruciante. makes me feel better too.



thank you sarah, adi, desmond and rina for making me think straight again =)

cheers

rock on
love you

2nd week

2nd week of school. damn tiring sia. we had to bring this and that all over the place. had to buy like tons of materials and stuff. stupid sia im not a photo addict. if i would have already flooded this page with many many pictures! but theres nothing much at nafa either, just a normal looking school with normal people (mostly). i do like the doors however, theyre painted in bright colours in contrast to the plain white walls =\ there was this time in history class when the door couldnt be opened from the inside of the room but only from the outside. and when the servicemen came to fix the door it was working perfectly fine. stupid art history teacher.

learned a lot of new things so far. for starters, michelangelo is gay. thats why his statues of men are very nicely detailed and his women look like men (im not bluffing you). secondly, i just realised i suck at watercolour painting. i just dont get it. the bugis/city area can be a bitch and be seriously freaking hot morning, afternoon and in the evening. laselle is just round the corner. seriously, i just knew about this today =D but dont tell sarah. later she'll drag me down to tekka for indian food. my class is like the quietest class with the exception of ah lien and ah beng. there are a lot of girls in nafa. wait dont i know this already? but it doesnt matter, im not attracted to them at all. maybe dzariif or samuel or ian or leslie eh? i will never ever intro any of my classmates to you guys.

very happy and elated that arsenal won stuttgart though its only a pre-season friendly. i cannot wait for the league to start again sia. im surviving with whatever football there is on tv so a pre-season match to me seems like a real match. hahahaha jens lehmann was beaten thrice. i expected better of him but then who cares when arsenal is scoring and scoring? we're gonna give manu a run for their money and balls.

thats it la for today. totally shagged. next time i put pictures kay. =\

rock on
love you

post post

my deepest condolences to jaslyn aka jazz, jazzoo, whose dad recently passed away on tuesday. her dad was a 1st warrant officer and a commando, and taught many ocs cadets and commandos how to parachute. the one fact that i liked about him, though i didnt know him at all, was that he joined the army to gain citizenship just to marry his wife. may god bless him and his family, especially you jazz. be strong =)

that cockroach was very big leh..and it can fly summore

one week of school has passed and it was a long week. so many different rooms to get used to, running here and there. not to mention the awfully long breaks in between classes. 3 hours. yeah. fortunately with friends time just whizzes away. luckily i have friends sial this anti-social me. a few only la, relax. out of the few there is a metalhead that is as quiet as a mouse, a petite bubbly and cheerful woman, and then there's this very look-like-she's-always-in-deep-thought kind of girl which i like to converse with. band people la. lol. and dont forget that guy whose mouth is like a loose cannon which i dont mind at all. =D

so there you go, first week down 8 more to go till term break. haha just start school and already cannot wait for holiday. cant wait for 2nd year also, thats when we will have our majors. initially i thought western painting (stop calling it western western..reminds me of western food), between western painting and printmaking =\ choose wisely.

im loving my old model/new phone sony erricsson k850i. 5 mega pixel leh. can fight with desmond but his has gps. =O

rock on

love you

school started already

first day of school. abit of confusion. me and the guys (actually very little guys, more girls =D) dont know where to go but luckily we bumped into the HOD himself and he re-directed us to the right location. today we had drawing class. very simple. draw 10 objects on ten separate pieces of paper. all the objects were scattered around the studio. pots pans, vases, remy martin bottles, bits of pottery and also an iron (iron clothes). very simple very nice. but i forgot to take pictures =O

please spend 4 minutes of your precious time to watch this! especially you valerie wth (what the hell? no..wong something something). you promised that if i posted rhcp you'd watch. so watch.


rhcp - scar tissue live at slane castle
good quality dont worry. crank the speakers!


on a sad note...




good bye goblin sharpshooter. goodbye goblin piledriver. your image will always be in ma mind (and on my shoe). remember how we always thrashed the muffets? good times good times.

rock on..

love you..

eventide

jam-packed

so, nothing much has happened. i woke up one morning to be fuming mad at the world. there was no reason for this i was just crazily angry at the world and how it gets back at us. lied down pondering about atheism and religion. thought for a very very long time. its quite unfair actually, this world.


richie (elves) against samuel (lifegain) . i never imagined i'd play magic again. but thats what i did. i didnt win all the matches but its more fun that way.


i hate elves. first of all theyre green. second, there are so many of them. third, they look gay as in homosexual (except the female ones, theyre pretty) and lastly they spawn fast. luckily, i always beat them with goblins! =D


things dont look too good for samuel. sometimes you just gotta dig deep when the cards dont come to your hand. just like in life. whatever shit you get from your card draws, you just gotta make the right choices.

unexpectingly, sam lost the match.



mahjong session at chiu yee's place. sadly i didnt win any of the games. fortunately, i dont gamble xD. yun xin won a lot as usual. she's quite good and everything i play with her its like all so fast. and im usually there figuring out which chinese character is what number.


desmond gets bored after playing mahjong so he builds a 2-dimensional pyramid which doesnt last very long. we played uno stacko after that which sam lost alot of times cause me and desmond kept pulling from the bottom of the stack. pro ok.


my younger bro on guitar. i cant play guitar.

we watched vh1's top 40 greatest metal songs of all time at chiu yee's place. and the top three are..

1) ironman - black sabbath (we totally agree)
2) welcome to the jungle - guns and roses (you should have seen the 'wtf' looks on our faces
3) master of puppets - metallica (yes!)

school starts tomorrow. and i havent received the orientation letter like wtf? wtf is wrong with singapore posts? like how hard is it to deliver the fucking letter. do you know what's at stake here? i dont get it. this is exactly the reason why i was so moody the past few days.

rock on..

love you..

a few events

she always looks better than me in photos, i just look retarded

i went to this freaky z/sleeq thing at the artshouse. 2 gigs at artshouse within a week =O so you ask why the hell would i watch a sleeq performance? the answer - sarah. im a good boyfriend ok so i tagged along to make sure no one got hurt. turns out freaky z and sleeq are very nice people. sarah and i even managed to like 'jam' with the pianist after the performance. it was quite weird and they even asked us for our emails and all but i'll tell you one thing. showbiz and me dont work together because i wanna be an art teacher.


sleeq performing

additional content:

at some point in our lives we will always be surrounded by good friends and good times. if you happen to watch The Lord of the Rings (a non-hit with any female species) you'd find that Frodo is always backed by a Sam, whose always there for him and vice-versa.

so for every Frodo, there is a Sam



"will he leave for NS? stay tuned folks!"

rock on..

love you..

gig

kinda catchy..i love the lightsabers for drumsticks at the back part

went with sarah to the earshot at artshouse for some performance thingy. no, not me performing. my brother asked me to go actually, so if he didnt tell me i wouldnt have bothered anyway. thats why i looked so sian the other day, if you were there and you saw me.

another reason is because i am currently sick from staying up all night long, consecutively. all the sleepless nights have finally taken its toll on me and now im stuck with having a slight fever and a cold. trust me it sucks to be sick. id rather be out jamming or gymming. its going to be roughly a week till school starts and i better rest up. no more late nights and no more over-exertion man. but shit, i promised chiu yee im going to her sisters concert tomorrow. more band.

band band band. im kinda sick of band anyway. im sure there is some strife within the 'politicians' in the band and im sure as hell NOT going to be involved with it. in a weeks time im starting out with a new lease of life, something i do not want to add politics too. hey its your own problems, dont mix me into it.

ive not been myself lately. im kinda down and upset most of the time. but maybe its just because of my flu and fever. so after a while it should turn out fine again.

missing you already , love you..

rock on..

fun with photoshop

did this in the wee hours of morning. i dont know why. my first time trying to paint using photoshop. not that bad right? =D i dont know how to do the dark areas or to make it sharp. i needa go look at some tutorials. im sure there are a few out there somewhere. ok it sucks.

kinda sucks that school starts so late. in 2 weeks yeah, they havent even sent me a mail or what about the timetable. i better go enquire (again). i bet they remember my email xD. but when school starts, 'school mode' turns on.

rock on..

love you..

nothing much again

to be brutally honest, im not quite happy with whats up there.

anyway, this drawing goes to one of my best buds, the one that taught me how to play magic. cheers mate =D

havent been drawing much. i stopped by suntec with ian and chiu yee to see whats the fuss with the comics/games/anime thingy (i dont know waht its called) and there was nothing much to see. well, if chiu yee didnt actually walk so fast im sure there was tons to see but what really caught my attention was this tablet display thing. its basically like a tablet but you can view your screen on it. how should i explain. ok. go check out the hp touch screen computer. imagine that and then imagine it being smaller and having a pen as your mouse. used for digital art and i tell you the sensitivity is amazing! the harder you press the pen against the screen the thicker and darker the lines, making shading a breeze. it was so so very fun. but it costs a bomb though, with the smaller a4-ish size at approximately two thousand bucks (2000) and the bigger one, a3-ish, about five thousand (5000). to hell with that.

then afterwards crashed at ians place where we watched the batsu game. the one in the inn. yes its very very hillarious. i dont understand why some people cant take japanese humor. when i awoke the next morning it was 5pm and my body was hurting like hell. it felt as if i just finished running a 10km marathon, something i cannot do. ok imagine running 2.4k and then multiply it by about 5. thats how it felt like.

thats about it i guess..oh wait

CONGRATULATIONS TO SPAIN ON WINNING EURO 2008 xD

i wanted france but spain is second best so yeah!

rock on..

love you..

will draw lots more next time (head full of ideas, hand full of laziness)

cookie monsta

well i havent been updating for a very long time. so heres a drawing!



for the friend that bakes cookies, this is for you.

not much has happened the past few weeks. havent been gymming much to my disappointment. am going to today =D

there really isnt anything much to talk about actually. i asked a few others what i should blog about and sarah told me to say that i overslept and didnt wake up in time to meet her yesterday. i was supposed to help out in her project work but dear me, its euro fever. how can one possibly wake up under these circumstances? and speaking about euro, its a pity that france were knocked out early but at least germany and spain are in! its all about arsenal/ex-arsenal love. lehman and fabregas, with that last penalty to send italy home. finally the french can have their revenge, though they played disappointingly this euro.

i realise that im turning more into a couch potato. not that i dont exercise yes, well maybe im a healthy couch potato. well its all television's fault i guess. how can you resist watching tattoo wars, human weapon, fight quest, euro, bourdain, monday night laughs, csi and stuff? 8,11,12,16,18,19 are my favourite channels xD no mtv for me cause im not usually into the pop music thing.

feeeling the connection with the drums again. might learn a new trick or two. just waiting for samuel to buy his bass!

rock on..

love you..

see

you see, i have been working hard.

rock on..

love you..

cookie dookie

if farah ever offers you FREE cookies, just grab em. no dont have to think twice just grab em. cause they are simply good =). every cookie has more than 10 chocolate chips! every bite sends you one step closer to heaven and shes selling them by the bottle next week. so go her blog uh and request!

ok that sounded abit exaggerating.

hey ho. i went out with sarah today. its been weeks since ive last went out with her so i was really very excited and all that. she looked beautiful today. we had lunch (well i did) at marina square before going to raffles city. we were lucky that there was this performance by the brass quintet from JUST Brass Ensemble. they sounded really good. "i liked vincent's playing xD" it was a bit weird at the end. because none of us really wanted to go. but we had to lah. then there were some 'issues'. haha, if youre in a relationship you should know what that means. so i sent her home at about 10, then went home straight cause i wasnt feeling that well. man, i keep sleeping at 5-6 every morning. and wake up at 2. what a life.

i cant wait for school to start. one more month. i just cant wait. i think im going to study art history as well, which sounds like a bummer but im giving it a chance. i also cant wait for figure drawing. thats the best part. i wonder if they'll have nude models?

rock on..

love you..

another shorter breather

she deleted her previous blog so once again..

Sarah's blog

"simple waves of, graceful pleasure"

ok thats from a song..

rock on..

love you..

next time with a real post

short breather

Take the Magic: The Gathering 'What Color Are You?' Quiz.

if you remember

i remember about 3 years ago when i was in secondary school. i was doing a drawing for an art exam tomorrow. i was doing it in the wee hours of morning for a full four hours and it felt SHIOK.

i never got it back though. its lost somewhere in the art department of the school i guess.

i remember when i was in band. setting the metronome to 'full blast' (my section would know what i mean) and then doing "i recommend" for warm-up. i also remember playing the drums when i was just sec2. i jammed with desmond and sharmen. that was the first time i improvised. it felt shiok.

now desmond plays guitar in his tower of an apartment and sharmen is god knows where.

i remember slacking during prefect duties in the canteen. what to do? when you're the boss you can do whatever you want. i remember sneaking off to play soccer during a certain band break. we came back 15 minutes late and were punished to arrange and carry chairs for the band. i remember 2 wise guys marching in the rain afterwards. shiok uh.

i want to feel shiok again.

cheap shot

ya i know im very lame..


so i met this guy. and he has the same name as me. without the 'd' infront. so zaki, not dzaki. and he's this storyboard director/animator/comic book artist/alot of things. so i met him one day and then i suddenly realised how much more effort i need to put in to improve my drawing skills. the best part about this guy is that he's self-taught. that means very long dedicated hours in the library pouring over art books and then practising and honing his skills. talk about determination.

so he says (and demonstrates) that i still got a long way to go. he's been doing his thing for more than 10years now and i really look up to that uh. its very funny. whenever he talks to me he feels like he's talking to himself xD. cause of the same names thing. so anyway now i gotta go library almost everyday to draw and draw and draw cause thats the place where im most productive. but how am i supposed to hit the gym then?

anatomical studies - must really observe and draw and then pull it apart. and then put it back together again. im seeing alot of work ahead of me. but it'll all work out fine because i cant wait to reap the benefits. and when i enter nafa hopefully this slump of mine will go away and i'll be back like the good ol days.

PON PON PATA PON = chiong arh

rock on

love you

experiment. 222

what was i thinking. what was i planning all this time. was there even a plan dzaki? or was it unintentional? i didnt think of it this way. i always thought of the upper side of things. it wasnt well-thought anyway. so unexpected, given the wrong timing.

i read that compatibility among partners doesnt necessarily mean having the same interests, hobbies etc. but more of having the same or similar outlooks on leading one's life, being together that kind of thing. sure it helps to have the same interests but sometimes that is not enough.

so no more hiding under no rocks, no more running away, no more of dumping stuff in the closet. its time to take things off my chest and start breathing again. though will doing this be wise i dont know.

the truth

i do think that we can get along. if we couldnt then these three years are lies. there has to be some equation. im talking in your terms now miss scientist. there has to be an equation like a+b=makes it work and im willing to find out. its not all about going with the flow anymore. now its getting technical. and 3 years, surely everything has watered down. a gift now doesnt have the same impact as it did three years back.

so its time for a change. any change, in our relationship-lifestyle. going out more often, doing different things, playing different games, talking about other stuff we've never talked before etc. there is so little i can think of. but all these things. it takes time and effort. time, a commodity that you dont have. why is it always this way. when i have the time, you dont. when you have the time, i dont. its been like that for 3 years and its none of our fault.

attitude wise, ive become less patient. i blame it on myself and because of my lack of discipline. im not the same person a year ago, who is stronger and more calm. i blame it on the three years, of self-dedication. maybe all these have run dry. but how do i replenish them?

and you. you have to change as well. stop being the same sensitive, negative person you are. its been going on since the time i met you, or you met me whichever came first. you have to change. ive been flooded with negativity for the past years and im trying to help. so lets make this stop. stop worrying about unnecessary stuff. dont get stressed out over time. everyone has 24 hours just like you. everyone has assignments. dont fret. you can still do it. dont be all wound up like a tight ball. it just makes you even more sensitive, which is another thing.

and me? i admit i may be insensitive and unromantic. but i cant be when your so sensitive and stressed. i want to help you too. i know, ive been late alot of times. this is because of my lifestyle which im not proud of. but im trying to change. to wake up earlier. ive started drawing again. drawing for me is a positive thing.

and about physical looks. this is the bomb. the killer finale. do i think youre fat? well, to me you look ok. you look fine. everyone says you look okay. which is good. all i need is someone that is less dead. like more energy and stuff. abit more. you know i dont expect miracles but slowly we can make this work.

but im selfish. im a selfish jerk and asshole. i always think that you look better if youre slimmer. thus the exercise and proper food things. dont get me wrong. im only human. everyone has this dark desire for something be it cars money or wealth. i cant help it. been thinking about it for so long.

and i will try my best to not dig something from the past be it positive or negative because it only makes it worse.

rock on..

love you?

mr reynolds eh

check this guy out

wayne reynolds

dont want to?

nevermind, here's something



this guy is mind blowing

rock on

love you

.

sometimes you wish you could fly away. into some foreign land. where you do not have to worry about anything. where you can work without trouble. work the lands or whatever. grow up with nature. live an easy life. a simple life perhaps. then get married. raise a family. like village life sia.

sometimes living in singapore, with all its merits, has disadvantages. its so compact. theres nothing much you can do. its like playing a simple 2d side scrolling game like mario. complete the levels, beat the boss and then rescue the princess. except that mario is more exciting. heres and example. i went rednano.sg and it is shit. i wanted to look for a gaming community in singapore. maybe i didnt look hard enough but i didnt get good results. i want to be surrounded by people who are similar to me, who share the same thoughts and all that.

maybe i should go join a forum. but i want more than that. like you know in the states where they have fraternities or sororities. or maybe i should have joined JC. haha. but couldnt, not with my results anyway. singapore is not a red dot, its more of a red line. cross it and you die. you have to follow. follow the line. grow up. primary school. psle. secondary school. o level. JC/poly. diploma/a level. (ns)university. degree. i mean come on.

theres not much options for other courses of life. what if someone dreams of becoming a fashion designer? a firefighter? or something else that is less associated with the more popular careers in singapore? thats what i think is done to us. its like we keep thinking that we need to be this tall to ride the rollercoaster.

why cant we do something else instead? thats why people immigrate.

rock on..

love you..

3MC Reunion

remember when you were in school. and you had this group of friends. whom you eat sleep and shat with. not to mention play soccer with during o levels?

3mc stands for 3 malay 3 chinese. 3 of which takes the same train at the same exact time every morning. 4 of which are in band. all 6 of them crazy and together. and they are: (alphabetical order)

ahmad
desmond
dzaki
hafiz
ian
samuel

and then we met. yesterday. all 6 of us, sitting down on the wooden planks. drinking starbucks. vivocity. i was still in disbelief after that. usually me and the rest of the band people - ian desmond and samuel, hang out together. hafiz was always with his archery thing. and ahmad never met us at all. not even a 'yo' or a 'high' when he went JC. and suddenly yesterday hafiz smsed to mobilize all of us. because ahmad wanted to have coffee at starbucks. i havent seen him in 2 years.

and it was fucking funny. the atmosphere. the laughter. it was as it was 3 years ago, when all of us were in gan eng seng. i dont know what to say. hahaha. it was fun eh.

rock on..

love you..

3MC uh..wear the colours

my sugar

when she arrived, so happy.





and then after careful assembly..




actually uh. the show they showing on Suria, called Anugerah Band, rocks man. thats why malay people can play rock. go watch it.


rock on..

love you..

i think im being emotional here

you asked me "why you always have to go to ian, not ian go to you?"
well then, "why i always have to go to sarah and not sarah go to me?"
im pulling my hair out
when was the last time you tagged on my blog?
when was the last time you did something for me
i drew alot for you
=(
im going swimming

sarah lee yanar says:
den tell me wat do you wan

raeborn says:
i want you to appreciate me
i can never get the things i wan
its depressing
i go see you, do your work, carry your bag
buy you food
share my food
share my money
sarah lee yanar says:
y r u saying all this?
raeborn says:
because its not fair

sarah lee yanar says:
juz break up if u dnt lyk it

raeborn says:
so like that is it?
you make me do all that and then u running away
what are you using me isit?
is that it?
when i ask you for something like right now, you run away??
is that it?
what only when im sick or coughing then you care about me?
who messages you now anyway?
me right?
who thinks about you day and night
i know you got a lot of work
but then cant you just pause and give me a decent slice of your time?
when i was taking architecture, i always stopped for a while to give some time to you
its not that i go hang out with my friends ALL THE TIME right?
your not being fair to me
three years already
oh and im very sure you wont be free on wednesday right
so ive been tricked
fooled by you
used by you
is that it?
i cant take it anymore
3 years sarah
3 years ive been looking after you
IS IT WRONG TO HAVE SOMETHING BACK IN RETURN?
i want to kill myself
so that im away from everyone
so i can be alone
alone all to mself
no one to look after and no one to look after me
its the most equal treatment ever
cause you just run way again, by signing off like that
YOU ALWAYS DO THAT, YOU ALWAYS RUN AWAY FROM ME.

216 post - my old block number

i met jon today. and this is official. johnathan cheng ming hua is alot fitter than i am, able to run 5km everyday/or afternoon and carrying a 25kg army pack. ok screw it all the army guys are better than me xD. i cant even run 2km now. that means i am gona die.

then we went to watch this acjc guitar ensemble. i wouldnt say that its better than acdc but quite ok uh. but considering they got GWH for syf last year im kinda disappointed with the playing uh. can be much better. but its like ten bucks and the songs were short. and im so used to listening to heavy metal that classical songs dont sound so appealing anymore. but perhaps that there is more dynamism invovled in band music as compared to this guitar ensemble style of playing that makes it less interesting. a few talented people out there but i bet they'd sound much better with a fender or a gibson in their hands.

so i finally got things to do after meeting azar and the bunch today. some animation thing. something me and him were thinking of doing when we were in gess. i think that this is some kind of opportunity so just grab lah. see how it goes. its like a roller coaster you know, you cant really see it coming but boy can you feel it when it comes.

happy moms day! i think i'll go draw something for her now, maybe a dragon or two.

rock on..

love you..

miss you..

alan lee

val. take a look at alan lee's.

so if you cant draw trees for nuts,(or trees with nuts for that matter) take a few pointers from him.

rock on..

love you..

and so

[picture removed by request of client] next week then show ok..relax

i did these for a friend of mine who BADLY needed sketches for his ASSingment. lol. turned out pretty okay i guess (in my terms, 'pretty much okay' = 'this close to sucks'). then i told sam, "this is the most gawd-damn nicest tree i've ever drawn". maybe, was his reply.

we were sitting at queenstown library, freezing my ass off. xunhao (haoge) was there too and i was like shocked and surprised to see the measure of work he's putting in for the exams. did a quick sketch of him secretly. haha. didnt look anything like him but the posture was perfect. gave it to him as a good luck thingy.

nothing much to do these days except draw, which is a lot but other than that its a one person affair. funny how you wished for holiday when youre having school and when youre not having any school, you complain that theres no school. yeah, i know the word is irony, dont have to tell me. now im just waiting till 21 july. argh. fast forward time please!

was supposed to see sarah today but she couldnt. one week havent seen her already. one hour's chat does not equate to physical presence but still, just have to wait uh.

rock on..

love you..

ATTENTION

gold-titanium alloy

"the truth is..i am ironman"

im so sorry that i didnt get to watch it with you. i mean you didnt get to watch it with me.

so today, had a little rendezvous with sarah at one fullerton. so she says 'i think i have a fever'and i went 'oh no'. i was still shagged from crashing at desmond's place, watching liverpool lose to chelsea. so i said, 'you wait for me there, im coming'. i went all the way back home from queenstown and then took 502 to esplanade. i tell you, i thought the bus trip was going to be fast. it wasnt. i dont survive long bus trips, i tend to get uncomfortable, i can be like the merlion no? thankfully that wasnt the case and i was so relieved when the bus reached the esplanade bus stop.

im so glad that for sarah. now she's not as lonely as last time and is less conservative. her poly friends are a handful i can tell you that, especially haz (is that how you call it?) there are very very friendly =) which is good cause i tend to get quiet and think that im dull and stuff. which happens sometimes. after that, ate at marina square. my heart skipped a beat when i heard 'i live in jurong too! me too!'. i was scared. personally i dont mind having someone going home in the same direction but i like my travelling time to be my private time =). oh yeah some intro. if i recall properly there is ning, haz and michelle. the two guys are warren and mr eccentric.

met htat and chon in. and leslie too. at GV. the old days. back in primary school. rawks.




rock on..

love you..

great 210

crashed at desmond's place to watch soccer. and boy oh boy. a big collective YES please as the great sons of devils manchester united LOST to chelsea! (way to go val) and so i asked desmond, "but we still cant win what." and his reply to me was, "mathematically, we can. we just need both manu and chelsea to lose their remaining matches.." so if there are miracles in this good earth then let it happen puh-lease. in case manu fans flame me, yes ive admitted defeat long time ago, since we lost to liverpool and yes, to you. so dont go shooting cause ive got decent sportsmanship.

the next moment i woke up at desmond's we played some fifa08 and cabbed down to my place to jam. frankly we suck xD. desmond and i keep looking at each other, sam wasnt playing bass and ian was loud as an ian can be. however, there was one song that was full of energy and that was STONE COLD BUSH. awesome awesome feeling to play that song. we really felt the vibe going running all over the living room and then into our souls and everything. really cool shit.

than after that it was pretty much dead. f1 in spain was a tad boring. luckily there was tattoo wars. and omg this episode was the bomb man. the artwork was very very top-notcha nd alot better than the ones you see on miami ink. but still the dull atmosphere hung like a freakin heavy cloud there and all of us were close to sleeping. russel peters was the alarm clock. yeah i know its kinda old but still funny i guess.

so nothing much for now. no drawing = nothing much. which is quite sad. school is like starting so late its in july but i really want it to start now.

rock on..

love you..

im quite angry actualy

i dont need a supermodel girlfriend. all i need is someone who is confident in the way she looks. and stop bugging me with the question "am i fat?"

on a lighter note..

check this guy out

jesper ejsing

very inspiring artist. whenever i see people like these i get goosebumps and fall into this imaginary bottomless pit screaming, "IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH!!!".

rock on..

love you..

yeahhhh

oh my god its 1230 in the morning and im listening to HIP HOP. oh yes, now dzaki listen to hip hop. long story short - i wana see if i can combine my funk-aligned drumming with hip hop beats to make some serious grooves. its going to be one hell of a music experience.

rock on..

love you..

soul music [long post]

first and foremost, happy 18th to my dearest sister. may gold bless you and grant you wishes!

aha. im back. been a good long while since i've wirtten anything. excellent! thats how it should be i guess. you shouldnt write too often casuse it'll turn out to be mundane and thats not fun (unless you count playing drums everyday=mundane=routine). yeah i have been playing my new drums alot recently. its my way of telling my mum dad and the rest of my brothers who's the king on the drums. my brother can play too and my dad tries. keep trying. xD

so anyway i hooked up with the gang just now. yeah, it has been two solid long weeks since i last suan-ed ian for his hair or whatever. now he wears this headband to keep his hair from covering his entire face. maybe he thinks he's roger federrer or something. of all people why federrer? xD (joking). and that desmond has a new guitar. a fender guitar. and a randall amp which ive never heard of it before but it sounds good to me. sam is still the same sam. no more no less. chiu yee is back from china (hush ian) and yi fang has graduated. omg eh? time flies like an over-fed pigeon on steroids. yes my humor is very dry but bear with me.

so we talked, sang songs and played mahjong. no, this isnt a figure of speech used to denote having a good time. we literally did all those things! talked, sang song (highway to hell, ironman and other old metal songs) and played mahjong. damnit i only played one game and my tiles were bad. the last time i played was chinese new year. yeah. it was pretty funny to see desmond using 'psychological warfare xD' to beat yifang, wo is teh strongest player!

and i havent seen sarah for ages. its good that she's more or less settled into her new school and new life. wish i was there for her all the time. then i wouldnt have to be alone at home. but at least i have the drums, tommy and joey with me. and at least i can draw again. im finding lots and lots of reasons to draw. im different. my drawing hand is like coin-op. except that instead of coins, i use excuses to bluff myself into doing something effective. im that lazy.

so ive been reading this terry pratchet book which i bought for 2 bucks at jurong entertainment. tons of books there. good reading. reading actually makes you a better person aesthetically. means it makes you better at arts stuff, cause you use your imagination to visualise the things in your head. it also imrpoves your comprehension meaning you'd understand things a lot better. comprende? so this terry pratchet guy. he's still living and his books are darn funny i guess. to me lah. but a word of warning though, you have to be this 'high' to be able to understand most of it. cause it dabbles with a lot of figures-of-speeches and funny parodies in the modern and post-modern world. ok im chim actually. but i kinda dont know how to express my chimness in a not-so-boring kind of way. the words with a lot of '-'s in between just reflects on my weak vocabulary.

so moral of the day is. a good read of the book and you'll be in harvard/yale/oxford in no time. joking. only geniuses and people who work really really hard get to go there.

rock on..

love you love you love you love you..

missing you..

repercussions

if anyone has a sure-cure 100% chopped-guarantee(hahaha luqman) remedy for SORE THROAT do give it to me NOW. cause ive been coughing like smoker for the past few days. and now i cant sleep cause every now and then i wake up when i cough.

so anyway most of us have school. to some of us its a brand new lease in life. for others its just starting to get interesting and for the rest you guys are like 'yippee! im going to graduate soon!'. but for me, yes small insignificant speck of dust me, life will be very stagnant for the next few months. yes, im a poly dropout. never in my 18 (going 19) years of life have i ever thought i'd be this way. however, i still got school though, just that it starts this july. that means i'll graduate 2 years later than my peers (3 if you count the JC batch) go into army late (humiliation) and im gonna be asked tons of questions like 'oh why did you change course?'

im like feeling the repercussions of my actions now. the consequential sequences that will follow is going to be bad, very bad till i enter school again. but not unless i start doing something about it. ive started drawing again, but not as frequent as the past whereby i'll draw anything that comes to mind. im starting to go gym again which is good but its dampened by this irritating cough and my incurable/persistent insomnia. oh god please let me lead a more meaningful year this time round. dont let me squander away my life moments ever again and let me excell in my interests. let me have just enough for myself and let me be humble and appreciate whatever i have. and let me strive for a better future. amin.

you know i think when you ask god for something, youve got to be really honest about it. and when he wants to give it to you he doesnt directly give it to you. he kinda presents the opportunity and then its up to you to take it. ok fine..i ripped it off evan almighty. but thats how i think anyways.

i havent seen ian or sam these few days. it all started when they wana watch soccer at desmond's place but somehow i was kinda infuriated (dont ask why i dont know) and so i didnt join them. then they started to make plans on going to my place to watch soccer. which is fine. but then things started to turn sour when they suddenly changed direction and headed to desmond's place. twice. which doesnt really surprise me at all. make me wait for all i care. but i am not angry i am a patient amigo and i just let it pass.

haha i met htat win the other day and we went to the gym. and let me tell you this. never..run..with..an..NSF cause i tell you, your legs will die at about 2km. at least for us people that dont exercise everyday lah. yes i go gym but my stamina is like shit. i didnt really like running. but now i have to cause if you want to survive NS you gotta run and run. hamster mode. and running makes you lose fat too (you hear me all you diet-ers? not eating = anorexia). thanks htat for the insider. and htat's a combat medic trainee. he says its shit cause you got 9 weeks to study 14 thick books of medical stuff. sucks eh. imagine carrying a gun which youre not allowed to use.

so i typed alot today and it feels gratifying. see you next time, with pics!

rock on..

love you..

rhapsod rhapsody rhapsody rhapsody

IT WAS A BLAST.


tonight's concert was a major success. the band sounded great tonight. even though some of us were feeling rather nervous, i think everyone pulled it off! i can still remember hearing azhar say that he's scared. hahaha. see lah, practice talk so much now concert scared arh. so anyway it was really really good today. i think probably the best ever performance by the band. the sound was so good. see, if you listen to what simon has to say, you'll do well. all your hard work has paid off. good for you =)

eventhough i played only for a while, it was worth it anyway. finally i get to play a song where its technically difficult for me. to the point i had to practise at home with a metronome. see, the harder the pieces, the more fun you have! im really sure all of you had alot of fun. some more sp hall is so damn big. so many places to run and hide and so many things to do.

i really do hope that there will be alumni band. i mean, for a school as old as gess, shouldnt there be one? what does gessosa do then? lol. maybe raymond might be enthu and daring enough to form one eh raymond? but if simon leaves you all then all this talk is shattered lah. cause simon is pro-seniors.

so this year we must have an UNOFFICIAL rod ok? go out, bbq slack lepak play soccer bbq again sleepover watch national day parade. lol. the good old times larh. must plan now! now is the time to plan. and FUN DAY. must be fun and OUTSIDE school too. then i will come lorh. i think like i got a lot of time on my hands and i wana do something productive. like maybe president of gessband alumni? WHOA!

rock on..

love you..

so unlucky

its so freaking stupid lah. so unneccessary.

went back to band today for the last practice before the concert tomorrow. so everything was going fine actually, the band played well, the percussion was smooth for once and i didnt mess up alot (i do, but you all dont know only). and then suddenly this shit HAD TO HAPPEN.

sarah left her purse (ic,ez-link and HANDPHONE) somewhere outside the music room or toliet, she cant remember where. and then we went to look for it, it was gone. ok here are the few possibilities. 1) one of the cleaning aunties took it 2) one of the students took it 3) she lost it and it is god knows where.

now, lets look at the possibilities. the first one. surely the cleaning aunty (cleaner) will hand it over to the general office right? but the thing is, we checked the office for lost and found and we got nothing! surely the cleaner will return it right? if thats not the case then the purse is gone to the cleaner.

the second one. ok this to me is the MOST probable one. i really think that some student took it. he/she will suffer a dog's death, this i curse. i mean where is your integrity. where is your discipline. this year GESS has only two express classes? how pathetic is that? giam, what on earth are you doing? how do you explain this degradation? and lastly where is our air-conditioned hall? im so pissed cause firstly im an ex-gessian. god im so embarassed for admitting that, considering the condition of the school now.

im not even going into the last possibility.

and poor poor sarah. how she will get scolded by her folks. yes it is partly her fault. shes blur and muddleheaded. but this is so king unfortunate. this really is. handphone, ic, ez-link and money ALL GONE. WHAT THE FCUK. not only that her parents will scold her, they like wont forgive anybody for anything. thats SO unfair. why oh why has this happened to her.

i will kill the person that stole her wallet. punch in the face, smash the head against the wall. kick to the gut. smash the head to the floor and keep smashing till he/she die like a dog.

i hate thieves. if there is a god then justice must be served. sarah is like, never done anything wrong ever. and there is so much injustice against her.

rock on..

love you..

oh no

so today we had the gala night rehearsal at SP convention hall. nothing much happened really. i almost freezed to death cause SP air conditioning is alway too cold. heck, ANY air conditioning is too cold for me. but maybe it was because i was feeling like a drunken monkey. i didnt have a wink of sleep the entire night the previous night. me and sam were at ian's and somehow we couldnt stop playing console/computer games the whole night. so after that we just left the next morning, headed to sam's tiong place, bathed and went straight for the rehearsal.

im so sorry i cant post anymore pictures here. i know some of you want to see the drums but i lost my phone usb cable so you just have to wait till i get a new one. im still feeeling damn tired lah. almost dying when i was eating lunch with the alumni at tiong.

i almost died too when we had to walk to tiong but luckily there was this kind uncle who offered to take us there when he saw foo with the crutches so we all sat at the back of his pick up truck. what a way to travel in style!

so little activity actually. not feeling very well. and so many things to do. ohS no i cant pull thru man.

rock on..

love you..

fool the foo

first and foremost. SARAH HAS A BLOG NOW. so go visit straightfromthebunnysmouth.blogspot.com yes i know both of us have incredibly long blog names.

so right now is april fool's right? ok the first announcement is valid. yes she DOES have a blog. go visit and tag ok. secondly, my drumset is due WEDNESDAY which is no joke either. will post pictures of it when its here and well tuned (i'll post it as well). thirdly, i got accepted into nafa. no prank as well. now i need to complete the registration by this friday. rush rush.

im playing for rhapsody its official. samuel sinhua and jazz are playing too. seems like they got not enough firepower. on the other side of the world, desmond is buying a new guitar tomorrow, probably either a fender or a gibson (yeah he rich). but ultimately everyone will have to go to my place to jam hahaha.

i created a new blog for all my sketches! its dzaki-sketches.blogspot.com check it out ok?

rock on..

love you..