hmmm

primer two will be one of my least favourable memories in my life. lets not talk about it.

just got back from gym today. realised that my blog's not updated as frequent as i hoped it would be. but i realise that if you want to blog something, it has to be something special, unique. blogging about what happened today, blah blih blah, quite doesnt seem so special.

but its still fun. so im still going to rant about what happened today..etc.

went gym with sam. he injured his wrist i think. overexerted. that sucker. and all the while he was telling me not to push myself so hard.i got to admit, after a while not going gym i get easily tired. but not exhausted. we tried out ian's method his friend taught him. whoa! it hurt like hell! but it was worth it, considering the improvement it beckons.

good news. sarah's grandfather is out of the ICU. can talk , laugh, eat drink etc. alhamdulillah. lets hope and keep praying that he recovers soon. so that she wont worry so much and all that.

i realised that GESS is becoming a pain in the asses of its students. ive never heard better nonsense since the 'grow me corner'. WTF is that??!! its like a time out space where those kindergarten..

yes, kindergarten..get the picture?

they have to start treating people like adults. unless thstudents are becoming more and more immature?

there's another issue i want to rant about. this girl called celestine. ive heard horrible stories about her. about her 'services'. thats wicked sick man. saw her today (checked with sam, he told me that was her) on the way to gym. the skirt was damn high. she walked in this 'certain' manner. erm. i dont know if its appropriate to talk about it on here. lets not pollute this blog. its not as if i purposely notice her. its just that, whats happening to the shool these days? band slacking, grow me corner, and this??!! imagine the things people will say when you tell them that you are from GESS. i'd feel ashamed if i were you guys.

and thats about that. i got to wrap up my 'speeches' in a better way. oh well. practise makes perfect.

oh yeah..dont forget to visit the band blog...for band ppl la...

its linked here...

belissimo.

rock on...
love you dear *smooch*

games

"teeeeet!!!"

games day was fun. yeah. for me it was. but for her maybe not. the inevitable thought of her grandfather constantly plagues her mind. its ok. moodswings are inevitable at the time. its ok. =)

played captain's ball. wttf man. perspired more than i do during aikido. it was fun to play with the juniors, being senior and all that. but somehow, being senior gives you that feeling that you HAVE to win. oh well. "we are all winners". hahar.

do you know whats so liberating? yesterday, i picked up a pair of sticks, sat down on that black swivel seat. placed my legs on both pedals. adjusted th high-hat. turned on the snare. "boom-tak-boom,boom boom-tak". imagine playing a fast song, lets say El Cumbanchero. but twice as fast. yes. that was truly truly, liberating. i felt so high i could hardly think. i kept playing. instinctively. and thats not easy.
but its been a while since i've played? maybe thats the reason.

could someone please tell me why we are all listening to metal? ian? hahar. "everybody going to the party have a real good time". or "cool! in denial, we're the cruel regulators smoking cigaro cigaro cigar". intense shit people.

ian stop your 'hado-gay', okay? im straight. that stuff's old. a bit of it os good. alot of it just doesnt fit the scene aite? oh yeah. about krevan. its cool. i'll start drawing asap. got me excited.

they got punished just now. i think it was about some cleanliness issue. but before that was fun. played concentration. with rain being the ultimate loser!! nyeh5. i only died once. but i was fortunate to not have played that hei pai chei? whatever its called. the game that involves smacking the opponents hands. i got slapped by stupid rain. lame shit.

oh yeah. the spring cleaning rocks guys. finally learned to clean up after yourselves. bravo! oh by the way sayang, i took home your birthday present, that framed artwork i did for you? yea. and your sleeping bag too. cause im afraid those idiots might throw them away. lamebrains

shit man im damned tired. what time isit? 2 45 am? okay forget it. better continue doing my project.

rock on..

ps: this blog does not update itself daily. instead, it updates maybe weekly? even motnhly? depends on my mood =)

no particular reason...

"oh..that one need to use the particulate theory to divide the...."

very funny ian. =)

yesterday went back to band, as always. i really cant live without going back.

cause i miss her so much?

then ian came along at around lunchtime. i really didnt expect him to come though. then we talked about krevan. creature war, rebellion war, bulter..the list goes on. and then came the gameplay. whoa! lucky im no gamer. and that is precisely why i ONLY do the art. its so complex that a huge question mark really appeared on top of my head.

band sucks really. i dunno about yours but gessband cant really play a tune properly. yes i am insulting my alma matter band. but seriously. listen to yourselves. finally i realised that brasses sound like chickens being slaughtered and woodwinds sound super airy.

except her la. yes i am damn bias. shoot me. =)

my archi project is really doing slow. i dunno about the other groups though. i kinda regret taking architecture. should have taken media design or something like that. regret regret REGRET!!!

architecture is boring.

architecture is lame.

in architecture you have to consider a whole lot of things. for example, toilets?

i hate doing computer aided shit. except drawing and all that.

i kinda hate groupwork cause the end product is not really standard. some parts may ne ugly but some beau.

i'd rather take exams and do tests rather than have in-course assessment.

so you see. if you are interested in my line, do reconsider. and this is what you should reconsider: dont take architecture!!

unless you are those kind of people that are born to do so and i salute you.

the miserable side of my life keeps cocking up. i really miss her alot. sometimes the time we spend during band just isnt enough. we are not like all those other couples where both party can go out everyday. no. its hard for us to even meet for awhile, less go out for a movie.

im not blaming anyone here. if there was a blame it would be on me.

so before you say anything about us do think. do you really know us? about our relationship? do you really have the right to criticise us? in what we do? think. god gave you a mind for you to think. not to criticise blindly.

and if you do. and do too much. then let me introduce you to my fist. or even better, my bokken!

i really miss you alot dear.

rock on...

blue skies turned to gray

" cause you had a bad day, tkae me one down, blah..ETc"

having bad days lately. coming home tired, downtrodden and sad. messy room, messy bed. home alone? probably. irritating brothers surround me. sad.

and why?

i dont really know actually. but i account it all to :

SCHOOLWORK....

and,

PEOPLE....

yea. thats about it i guess. let me explain.

you may think that i should be lucky that my course is in-course assessment. think again. do you know how it feels like to have projects and projectwork getting shoved into your face day after day after day? you dont. cause you dont want to. it sucks.

and the people. not that i want to shoot at anybody, but im kinda like a nice guy. no backstabbing, no gossiping, no nothing. but still, people talk behind my back. sure i've gotten used to it but hey, take it easy cowboy. every guy has its limits.

which brings me to my patience level...

currently it doesnt look too good. the only thing that can cool me down is either appeasement or sarah.

sarah

sarah sarah sarah

i love you

at the end of the day, it all boils down to this incredibly lonely feeling. everyone's busy. including you. sometimes we dont have no one to talk to. and sometimes we do. but that doesnt mean we shouldnt look out for each other. humans. listen to me. take care of one another. why is it that we let our egos get in the way?

and then i miss her. its a plauge. it doesnt stop nor end. i have dreams. i crave. i miss. i want. i need. i lust.

but i guess we're having a not so good times these holidays. i cant see her so often. and there are "new rules" too. which really really bites me. but i have no choice. it is not in my power to go against her. i have to follow. to obey. which i dont mind. but it bugs me, to not be able to do certain things again.

it just isnt fair. u guys are lucky.

asses.....

rock on..