please don't die.

betta

My betta fish are sick. One has a fungal infection and the other is possibly depressed (because depression is a sickness and yes it can affect fish as well). I am so sad :( I need to get aquarium salt and some fungal medicine. Hopefully they won't die. Please don't die! They don't cost a lot but they are worth a lot! I bought each for like 5bucks but I for sure know they're worth at least 30 each. One's a crowntail and the other a shimmering full moon.

Let me save the day for once.

look at all the duck fat!

moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoney

So far so good. School's not a problem yet. Once I've defined my concept, narrow it down a little, i should be able to know what it's supposed to look like and how to present it. Just that now I worry about the money I have to spend, eventually, on making the actual artwork. Bother. I just hope it won't be too expensive AND. And. Here's the most important part.

What to do with it once assessment's over.

What do I with it once assessment is over?

If it's big where do I stash it? Can it be folded? Compartmentalised? OH dear.

reeeeeeeescue me

Wow what a way to start the new year with a slight fever, coughs and a running nose. I must develop some kind of a new lifestyle to not fall sick this easily. I think lesser stayovers and more stay at home. Besides, once I enter the IR the second half of the year things will be more straightforward.

and so it is

What can I say about the past year? Well, to begin with, I've ended up with more unanswered questions, multiple shifts in morality and whether I should really give a damn. I'm not a dragon cause dragons are the only creatures that don't give a damn. There is no Good or Bad. Good is the opposition that pwns everyone else and then says "Hey look, we're the Good guys." Besides, what is Good anyway?

And I've come to realise, I envy people from both ends of the spectrum, if it exists anyway. Sometimes, thinking a lot is really nice and not thinking enough is also nice. Until I find what 'meaningful' purpose is set out there for me, I am sticking to neutral. I mean come on. Luke had it easy. There were people everywhere telling him to blow up the Death Star. And Frodo, he had Gandalf and Aragorn and all the other bunch of awesome ass-kicking heroes to guide him. How difficult was that? Ok I digress.

No questions that I've achieved stuff that I set out to achieve but I feel like I'm going nowhere with this. I've been too much of a "wherever the wind blows" person. So next year, which is two weeks from now, things will change. There's a keyword here:

Stability.

sppoool

Wah. Seriously what is to become of me. It's so late now and after many attempts to fall asleep EARLY, I can't. I have become an insomniac! aka as Ian's disease/sickness. And because of that, I always wake up around 3pm in the afternoon. MY WHOLE MORNING + NOON IS WASTED. Such a pity.

For this holiday I told myself that I wouldn't do anything art related. But that is so difficult to do. I'm going to KL again for Christmas. HOPE I can squeeze in some landscape sketching. Back to basics baby. Drawing drawing drawing.

if you let a starving person choose between a bowl of rice and a painting by picasso, which would he choose?

It's been bugging me this past week. Is whatever I am studying irrelevant or is it actually 'worthwhile'? Which is more important; the freedom of the metaphysical mind or material sustenance in the physical world? And what is one without the other anyway. Such a hard decision to make.

What do I want actually?

A Harley Davidson.

the end.

If you let a starving person choose between a bowl of rice and a painting by Picasso, which would he choose?

exia!

EXIA REPAIR II

Finished snapping this guy up a few days ago. Didn't take me too long. Well actually it did cause I was kept busy sanding all the nubs. No painting nor any coating yet. Just one of the small things to entertain me during my holidays. I can't wait for sem2 to start. Haha yes, I know all of you might think otherwise but for me, I cannot wait to graduate. I've been stuck too long at this phase.

remo

I think I might have too many hobbies. And side projects. There are some hobbies that are not yet definite and there are some long forgotten. Too many for my own good and frankly just not enough upkeep.

happy happy

Hey love, 2 years.

:)

happenings

I've been stuck at home since Monday trying to finish my essay on Nietzsche, Freud and Adorno and so far so good. Of course there are the occasional lapses/breaks in between which I attribute to the apparent dryness of the entire experience. I just want to get this over and done with. Then I can go back to work on my printmaking projects and my drawings. Oh shit! Forgot about them drawings! I don't really know whether I should go ahead and build that lightbox for the A0 drawing. I kind of have an idea that involves the thick frame you can easily get at Ikea but currently I am broke and I somehow 'promised' my brother that we'll both share money to get new second-hand cymbals.

But all's not so bad. Just celebrated my birthday last weekend at Seoul Garden (mum's treat). I was really cool that most of you guys could make it. A bit sad Sam couldn't make it. He's all the way down under shooting live rounds! No la he doesn't actually. But he's involved in Wallaby nonetheless.

beam saber?!

Just take a look at this lucky guy. He has a PERFECT GRADE ZAKU II CHAR AZNABLE'S CUSTOMIZE for his birthday! Never in his dreams could he see himself actually owning a Perfect Grade Gundam kit. Mobile suits! More mobile suits! And for those of you who are in the dark, here's what all that is.

APAD

tough

tough times don't last, tough people do - robert schuller

There's a lot of work that needs doing and I'd better get started but all work and no play makes me angry and frustrated. Not to say that I dislike my work. I love my work but it's the deadlines and the unnecessary other stuff that bothers me, lingering at the back of my head. The unfinished.

And so I have to stick it. Don't complain. If you think about it, it's not that difficult it just takes time and effort and a lot of patience. You're always going on about proving yourself. Now's the time. Don't get distracted. Make the effort, take the jump.

jules

another reminder

im trying to do "the relationship between man and his religion as a whole (main theme), with religion treated as another interpretation amongst the multiplicity of interpretations in the human mind (sub-theme) as philosophised by Nietzsche, who writes that the human mind contains a multiplicity of different 'interpretations' that fight with each other for dominancy"

don't forget son.

!

duet

I've been so busy doing prints everyday. Well technically not everyday but ALMOST everyday. And just like that the first week of tutorial is coming to an end. I know some of my batch are happily enjoying their two week break but for us printmakers, the workload never decreases - more images, more editions, larger editions. But I guess that's the way it is. Good thing is that it's not horrible mindless grey things we have to endure. It's lots of fun exploring new techniques and different ways of using the same medium. And it's always more enjoyable when you have friends around you, more or less in the same sinking boat lol.

I think it's about 5 days already. I'm starting to feel very sullen but I'll be ok.

Come back soon please.

:(

hopefully when she's away

on another unrelated note

I don't know, what do you think?

jianwei is really obsessed with Gundams

I've been taking the bus (502) to school lately and it sure is much more enjoyable than taking the train. It's cooler (air-con) and less crowded than the trains albeit a bit pricier. Plus after a short while of standing you get to sit (maybe that's because it's an express bus) but I don't mind standing either. And I enjoy looking at the cars on the road..like a little boy.

Finally my weekends have meaning as we roll into another season of the Barclay's Premier League! Kind of a good reason for me to get home early and NOT stay outside, unless of course I'm watching soccer outside but that's unlikely. It's nice to be in a family where both your mum and dad are soccer fans. And we're all at loggerheads sometimes, rooting different teams. But no bad blood lol.

Also, I've made Saturday afternoons my official comic book day! Because the best books are comic books. I don't really enjoy the superhero-ish ones like Spidey or Superman though sometimes I read Wolverine and Batman but that's about it. It's a lot easier to read one-off books rather than a series because the libraries here have quite a shitty collection. Comic books aren't just for kids, more than often they have a lot of social and political connotations. Of course mixed in with a lot of fancy imaginative storytelling. So there.