ho hum

on hold!

lastweek

Ok. Roughly one more week left before I enlist. Better train hard and sleep early. And learn how to focus! I think of all the things I will miss, I'll miss Marcel the most. So cute.

:D

heyt

meh. selamat hari raya aidilfitri to all out there :)

gurren

Sometimes I wish I could be alone for some time, with nobody but me. No Law, no Religion and no Rules really. If you're bound by so many little and big things how do you Live? And how do you choose to live?

But that's just silly thinking. I should probably get back to work.

on the

tears fall from the shameless. shelter me, guide me to the edge of the water. selfless are the righteous. burden me, lead me like a lamb to the slaughter.

the questioning

I guess the reason why I cannot sleep at night, is because I'm left questioning myself. I question and regret so many things. And I always wonder why things are the way they are. I think usually if you end up doing this, it means that some or most parts of your life is unsatisfying and unfulfilling.

What exactly am I doing with my life? I cannot seem to see the point in many things right now. I keep thinking about what I have. About what I don't have. The life I want, the life I am living and the life I've lived. And it's seemingly bringing me to a point where I keep having grisly demoralizing thoughts. I've lost passion. I have no more reason. I am nothing actually. What am I?

I feel dead. But maybe even being dead is less of a burden than this. And I cannot possibly be dead. Because I think, therefore I am. But if I think too much, and in the process suffer, then would thinking lead to my undoing? And so I think, and overthink, and therefore I am no more?

What is it that I want to achieve? What is it that I want? What SHOULD I want? And what is there for me? But what's the point in all that? Where does it all take you, this journey of living? And what is the point in that anyway. I see no point that is the trouble with me right now.

I feel miserable. In not achieving, not trying and even if I do and did, what's the point you tell me? Ironic isn't it, that only the day before, I thought waiting to die was rubbish. And now it's not. Sometimes you think, it's not fair right.

wheels

Finally, it's complete! so do I still want a bicycle?

I think I still do!

flko

I didn't get that bike. Instead, I bought trucks, wheels and bearings and poof! I have a completed skateboard! But little did I know that you can't cruise very well with a skateboard so..I need to get risers and longboard wheels. Hopefully it works and no wheelbite!

Right-brained. I am right-brained.

Cheers!

wants

$1000!

whoops

Today I took the wrong bus. I saw this group of four guys on fixies cycle pass the bus, well eventually, after they were overtaken by the bus at first lah. Cool nice bikes. Then later on as I was crossing the road I saw this lady on another bicycle, though it wasn't a fixie. I think it was just a single speed bike but it was cool enough - matteblack colours.

Then as I was walking under the sweltering heat of the sun I suddenly realised how nice it would be to have a longboard or even a skateboard. Faster travels, less time getting cooked.

fixie

I need to fix my life. What do you do when things are out of your hand? Do you try to make up for it with other aspects of your life, only to fail again? Where do you get that determination, that determination we all require to go the distance?

chiongster

Alas! Now is the time to chiong ah! Less than a week to finish up our FYPs with another week to produce a great graduation show. Let us not falter and press forward!

Wouldn't it be nice to own a lightsaber?

how do i say this

Ok. The past few days haven't been entirely happy for me. I've been feeling like I deserve much more but do I really? I don't know. Maybe I have high expectations. Sometimes I do, but other times I don't really give a damn about anything. Maybe that's what's normal. Ups and downs man. Though one thing's for sure, I am rushing the hell to finish my FYP. I haven't actually thought about the display and shit and it all seems very last minute to me. But what the hell right, I am the King of Last-minute Work.

ring ring!

custom flying pigeon

urban outfitters

It would be nice if I had a bicycle again.

Something like the ones above, but matte black please.

And short enough for me to ride.

Wouldn't that be great?

busy busy bumble bee

Woah. It's been a long time since the last update.

The past few weeks I've been horribly busy with schoolwork. FYP is due end April and it's already halfway through March. Late nights in school = Absolutely difficult to wake up in the morning. But so far so good I guess. Stress hasn't kicked in and I won't let it get me :P

Bought a second hand book today for $5 bucks. Sooo cheap. And it's hard cover too. Gonna read it in the train on the way home these days. Been listening to too much music. Must read!

please don't die.

betta

My betta fish are sick. One has a fungal infection and the other is possibly depressed (because depression is a sickness and yes it can affect fish as well). I am so sad :( I need to get aquarium salt and some fungal medicine. Hopefully they won't die. Please don't die! They don't cost a lot but they are worth a lot! I bought each for like 5bucks but I for sure know they're worth at least 30 each. One's a crowntail and the other a shimmering full moon.

Let me save the day for once.

look at all the duck fat!

moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoney

So far so good. School's not a problem yet. Once I've defined my concept, narrow it down a little, i should be able to know what it's supposed to look like and how to present it. Just that now I worry about the money I have to spend, eventually, on making the actual artwork. Bother. I just hope it won't be too expensive AND. And. Here's the most important part.

What to do with it once assessment's over.

What do I with it once assessment is over?

If it's big where do I stash it? Can it be folded? Compartmentalised? OH dear.

reeeeeeeescue me

Wow what a way to start the new year with a slight fever, coughs and a running nose. I must develop some kind of a new lifestyle to not fall sick this easily. I think lesser stayovers and more stay at home. Besides, once I enter the IR the second half of the year things will be more straightforward.