and so it is

What can I say about the past year? Well, to begin with, I've ended up with more unanswered questions, multiple shifts in morality and whether I should really give a damn. I'm not a dragon cause dragons are the only creatures that don't give a damn. There is no Good or Bad. Good is the opposition that pwns everyone else and then says "Hey look, we're the Good guys." Besides, what is Good anyway?

And I've come to realise, I envy people from both ends of the spectrum, if it exists anyway. Sometimes, thinking a lot is really nice and not thinking enough is also nice. Until I find what 'meaningful' purpose is set out there for me, I am sticking to neutral. I mean come on. Luke had it easy. There were people everywhere telling him to blow up the Death Star. And Frodo, he had Gandalf and Aragorn and all the other bunch of awesome ass-kicking heroes to guide him. How difficult was that? Ok I digress.

No questions that I've achieved stuff that I set out to achieve but I feel like I'm going nowhere with this. I've been too much of a "wherever the wind blows" person. So next year, which is two weeks from now, things will change. There's a keyword here:

Stability.

sppoool

Wah. Seriously what is to become of me. It's so late now and after many attempts to fall asleep EARLY, I can't. I have become an insomniac! aka as Ian's disease/sickness. And because of that, I always wake up around 3pm in the afternoon. MY WHOLE MORNING + NOON IS WASTED. Such a pity.

For this holiday I told myself that I wouldn't do anything art related. But that is so difficult to do. I'm going to KL again for Christmas. HOPE I can squeeze in some landscape sketching. Back to basics baby. Drawing drawing drawing.

if you let a starving person choose between a bowl of rice and a painting by picasso, which would he choose?

It's been bugging me this past week. Is whatever I am studying irrelevant or is it actually 'worthwhile'? Which is more important; the freedom of the metaphysical mind or material sustenance in the physical world? And what is one without the other anyway. Such a hard decision to make.

What do I want actually?

A Harley Davidson.

the end.

If you let a starving person choose between a bowl of rice and a painting by Picasso, which would he choose?