2nd week

2nd week of school. damn tiring sia. we had to bring this and that all over the place. had to buy like tons of materials and stuff. stupid sia im not a photo addict. if i would have already flooded this page with many many pictures! but theres nothing much at nafa either, just a normal looking school with normal people (mostly). i do like the doors however, theyre painted in bright colours in contrast to the plain white walls =\ there was this time in history class when the door couldnt be opened from the inside of the room but only from the outside. and when the servicemen came to fix the door it was working perfectly fine. stupid art history teacher.

learned a lot of new things so far. for starters, michelangelo is gay. thats why his statues of men are very nicely detailed and his women look like men (im not bluffing you). secondly, i just realised i suck at watercolour painting. i just dont get it. the bugis/city area can be a bitch and be seriously freaking hot morning, afternoon and in the evening. laselle is just round the corner. seriously, i just knew about this today =D but dont tell sarah. later she'll drag me down to tekka for indian food. my class is like the quietest class with the exception of ah lien and ah beng. there are a lot of girls in nafa. wait dont i know this already? but it doesnt matter, im not attracted to them at all. maybe dzariif or samuel or ian or leslie eh? i will never ever intro any of my classmates to you guys.

very happy and elated that arsenal won stuttgart though its only a pre-season friendly. i cannot wait for the league to start again sia. im surviving with whatever football there is on tv so a pre-season match to me seems like a real match. hahahaha jens lehmann was beaten thrice. i expected better of him but then who cares when arsenal is scoring and scoring? we're gonna give manu a run for their money and balls.

thats it la for today. totally shagged. next time i put pictures kay. =\

rock on
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my deepest condolences to jaslyn aka jazz, jazzoo, whose dad recently passed away on tuesday. her dad was a 1st warrant officer and a commando, and taught many ocs cadets and commandos how to parachute. the one fact that i liked about him, though i didnt know him at all, was that he joined the army to gain citizenship just to marry his wife. may god bless him and his family, especially you jazz. be strong =)

that cockroach was very big leh..and it can fly summore

one week of school has passed and it was a long week. so many different rooms to get used to, running here and there. not to mention the awfully long breaks in between classes. 3 hours. yeah. fortunately with friends time just whizzes away. luckily i have friends sial this anti-social me. a few only la, relax. out of the few there is a metalhead that is as quiet as a mouse, a petite bubbly and cheerful woman, and then there's this very look-like-she's-always-in-deep-thought kind of girl which i like to converse with. band people la. lol. and dont forget that guy whose mouth is like a loose cannon which i dont mind at all. =D

so there you go, first week down 8 more to go till term break. haha just start school and already cannot wait for holiday. cant wait for 2nd year also, thats when we will have our majors. initially i thought western painting (stop calling it western western..reminds me of western food), between western painting and printmaking =\ choose wisely.

im loving my old model/new phone sony erricsson k850i. 5 mega pixel leh. can fight with desmond but his has gps. =O

rock on

love you

school started already

first day of school. abit of confusion. me and the guys (actually very little guys, more girls =D) dont know where to go but luckily we bumped into the HOD himself and he re-directed us to the right location. today we had drawing class. very simple. draw 10 objects on ten separate pieces of paper. all the objects were scattered around the studio. pots pans, vases, remy martin bottles, bits of pottery and also an iron (iron clothes). very simple very nice. but i forgot to take pictures =O

please spend 4 minutes of your precious time to watch this! especially you valerie wth (what the hell? no..wong something something). you promised that if i posted rhcp you'd watch. so watch.


rhcp - scar tissue live at slane castle
good quality dont worry. crank the speakers!


on a sad note...




good bye goblin sharpshooter. goodbye goblin piledriver. your image will always be in ma mind (and on my shoe). remember how we always thrashed the muffets? good times good times.

rock on..

love you..

eventide

jam-packed

so, nothing much has happened. i woke up one morning to be fuming mad at the world. there was no reason for this i was just crazily angry at the world and how it gets back at us. lied down pondering about atheism and religion. thought for a very very long time. its quite unfair actually, this world.


richie (elves) against samuel (lifegain) . i never imagined i'd play magic again. but thats what i did. i didnt win all the matches but its more fun that way.


i hate elves. first of all theyre green. second, there are so many of them. third, they look gay as in homosexual (except the female ones, theyre pretty) and lastly they spawn fast. luckily, i always beat them with goblins! =D


things dont look too good for samuel. sometimes you just gotta dig deep when the cards dont come to your hand. just like in life. whatever shit you get from your card draws, you just gotta make the right choices.

unexpectingly, sam lost the match.



mahjong session at chiu yee's place. sadly i didnt win any of the games. fortunately, i dont gamble xD. yun xin won a lot as usual. she's quite good and everything i play with her its like all so fast. and im usually there figuring out which chinese character is what number.


desmond gets bored after playing mahjong so he builds a 2-dimensional pyramid which doesnt last very long. we played uno stacko after that which sam lost alot of times cause me and desmond kept pulling from the bottom of the stack. pro ok.


my younger bro on guitar. i cant play guitar.

we watched vh1's top 40 greatest metal songs of all time at chiu yee's place. and the top three are..

1) ironman - black sabbath (we totally agree)
2) welcome to the jungle - guns and roses (you should have seen the 'wtf' looks on our faces
3) master of puppets - metallica (yes!)

school starts tomorrow. and i havent received the orientation letter like wtf? wtf is wrong with singapore posts? like how hard is it to deliver the fucking letter. do you know what's at stake here? i dont get it. this is exactly the reason why i was so moody the past few days.

rock on..

love you..

a few events

she always looks better than me in photos, i just look retarded

i went to this freaky z/sleeq thing at the artshouse. 2 gigs at artshouse within a week =O so you ask why the hell would i watch a sleeq performance? the answer - sarah. im a good boyfriend ok so i tagged along to make sure no one got hurt. turns out freaky z and sleeq are very nice people. sarah and i even managed to like 'jam' with the pianist after the performance. it was quite weird and they even asked us for our emails and all but i'll tell you one thing. showbiz and me dont work together because i wanna be an art teacher.


sleeq performing

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at some point in our lives we will always be surrounded by good friends and good times. if you happen to watch The Lord of the Rings (a non-hit with any female species) you'd find that Frodo is always backed by a Sam, whose always there for him and vice-versa.

so for every Frodo, there is a Sam



"will he leave for NS? stay tuned folks!"

rock on..

love you..

gig

kinda catchy..i love the lightsabers for drumsticks at the back part

went with sarah to the earshot at artshouse for some performance thingy. no, not me performing. my brother asked me to go actually, so if he didnt tell me i wouldnt have bothered anyway. thats why i looked so sian the other day, if you were there and you saw me.

another reason is because i am currently sick from staying up all night long, consecutively. all the sleepless nights have finally taken its toll on me and now im stuck with having a slight fever and a cold. trust me it sucks to be sick. id rather be out jamming or gymming. its going to be roughly a week till school starts and i better rest up. no more late nights and no more over-exertion man. but shit, i promised chiu yee im going to her sisters concert tomorrow. more band.

band band band. im kinda sick of band anyway. im sure there is some strife within the 'politicians' in the band and im sure as hell NOT going to be involved with it. in a weeks time im starting out with a new lease of life, something i do not want to add politics too. hey its your own problems, dont mix me into it.

ive not been myself lately. im kinda down and upset most of the time. but maybe its just because of my flu and fever. so after a while it should turn out fine again.

missing you already , love you..

rock on..

fun with photoshop

did this in the wee hours of morning. i dont know why. my first time trying to paint using photoshop. not that bad right? =D i dont know how to do the dark areas or to make it sharp. i needa go look at some tutorials. im sure there are a few out there somewhere. ok it sucks.

kinda sucks that school starts so late. in 2 weeks yeah, they havent even sent me a mail or what about the timetable. i better go enquire (again). i bet they remember my email xD. but when school starts, 'school mode' turns on.

rock on..

love you..

nothing much again

to be brutally honest, im not quite happy with whats up there.

anyway, this drawing goes to one of my best buds, the one that taught me how to play magic. cheers mate =D

havent been drawing much. i stopped by suntec with ian and chiu yee to see whats the fuss with the comics/games/anime thingy (i dont know waht its called) and there was nothing much to see. well, if chiu yee didnt actually walk so fast im sure there was tons to see but what really caught my attention was this tablet display thing. its basically like a tablet but you can view your screen on it. how should i explain. ok. go check out the hp touch screen computer. imagine that and then imagine it being smaller and having a pen as your mouse. used for digital art and i tell you the sensitivity is amazing! the harder you press the pen against the screen the thicker and darker the lines, making shading a breeze. it was so so very fun. but it costs a bomb though, with the smaller a4-ish size at approximately two thousand bucks (2000) and the bigger one, a3-ish, about five thousand (5000). to hell with that.

then afterwards crashed at ians place where we watched the batsu game. the one in the inn. yes its very very hillarious. i dont understand why some people cant take japanese humor. when i awoke the next morning it was 5pm and my body was hurting like hell. it felt as if i just finished running a 10km marathon, something i cannot do. ok imagine running 2.4k and then multiply it by about 5. thats how it felt like.

thats about it i guess..oh wait

CONGRATULATIONS TO SPAIN ON WINNING EURO 2008 xD

i wanted france but spain is second best so yeah!

rock on..

love you..

will draw lots more next time (head full of ideas, hand full of laziness)

cookie monsta

well i havent been updating for a very long time. so heres a drawing!



for the friend that bakes cookies, this is for you.

not much has happened the past few weeks. havent been gymming much to my disappointment. am going to today =D

there really isnt anything much to talk about actually. i asked a few others what i should blog about and sarah told me to say that i overslept and didnt wake up in time to meet her yesterday. i was supposed to help out in her project work but dear me, its euro fever. how can one possibly wake up under these circumstances? and speaking about euro, its a pity that france were knocked out early but at least germany and spain are in! its all about arsenal/ex-arsenal love. lehman and fabregas, with that last penalty to send italy home. finally the french can have their revenge, though they played disappointingly this euro.

i realise that im turning more into a couch potato. not that i dont exercise yes, well maybe im a healthy couch potato. well its all television's fault i guess. how can you resist watching tattoo wars, human weapon, fight quest, euro, bourdain, monday night laughs, csi and stuff? 8,11,12,16,18,19 are my favourite channels xD no mtv for me cause im not usually into the pop music thing.

feeeling the connection with the drums again. might learn a new trick or two. just waiting for samuel to buy his bass!

rock on..

love you..

see

you see, i have been working hard.

rock on..

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cookie dookie

if farah ever offers you FREE cookies, just grab em. no dont have to think twice just grab em. cause they are simply good =). every cookie has more than 10 chocolate chips! every bite sends you one step closer to heaven and shes selling them by the bottle next week. so go her blog uh and request!

ok that sounded abit exaggerating.

hey ho. i went out with sarah today. its been weeks since ive last went out with her so i was really very excited and all that. she looked beautiful today. we had lunch (well i did) at marina square before going to raffles city. we were lucky that there was this performance by the brass quintet from JUST Brass Ensemble. they sounded really good. "i liked vincent's playing xD" it was a bit weird at the end. because none of us really wanted to go. but we had to lah. then there were some 'issues'. haha, if youre in a relationship you should know what that means. so i sent her home at about 10, then went home straight cause i wasnt feeling that well. man, i keep sleeping at 5-6 every morning. and wake up at 2. what a life.

i cant wait for school to start. one more month. i just cant wait. i think im going to study art history as well, which sounds like a bummer but im giving it a chance. i also cant wait for figure drawing. thats the best part. i wonder if they'll have nude models?

rock on..

love you..

another shorter breather

she deleted her previous blog so once again..

Sarah's blog

"simple waves of, graceful pleasure"

ok thats from a song..

rock on..

love you..

next time with a real post

short breather

Take the Magic: The Gathering 'What Color Are You?' Quiz.

if you remember

i remember about 3 years ago when i was in secondary school. i was doing a drawing for an art exam tomorrow. i was doing it in the wee hours of morning for a full four hours and it felt SHIOK.

i never got it back though. its lost somewhere in the art department of the school i guess.

i remember when i was in band. setting the metronome to 'full blast' (my section would know what i mean) and then doing "i recommend" for warm-up. i also remember playing the drums when i was just sec2. i jammed with desmond and sharmen. that was the first time i improvised. it felt shiok.

now desmond plays guitar in his tower of an apartment and sharmen is god knows where.

i remember slacking during prefect duties in the canteen. what to do? when you're the boss you can do whatever you want. i remember sneaking off to play soccer during a certain band break. we came back 15 minutes late and were punished to arrange and carry chairs for the band. i remember 2 wise guys marching in the rain afterwards. shiok uh.

i want to feel shiok again.

cheap shot

ya i know im very lame..


so i met this guy. and he has the same name as me. without the 'd' infront. so zaki, not dzaki. and he's this storyboard director/animator/comic book artist/alot of things. so i met him one day and then i suddenly realised how much more effort i need to put in to improve my drawing skills. the best part about this guy is that he's self-taught. that means very long dedicated hours in the library pouring over art books and then practising and honing his skills. talk about determination.

so he says (and demonstrates) that i still got a long way to go. he's been doing his thing for more than 10years now and i really look up to that uh. its very funny. whenever he talks to me he feels like he's talking to himself xD. cause of the same names thing. so anyway now i gotta go library almost everyday to draw and draw and draw cause thats the place where im most productive. but how am i supposed to hit the gym then?

anatomical studies - must really observe and draw and then pull it apart. and then put it back together again. im seeing alot of work ahead of me. but it'll all work out fine because i cant wait to reap the benefits. and when i enter nafa hopefully this slump of mine will go away and i'll be back like the good ol days.

PON PON PATA PON = chiong arh

rock on

love you

experiment. 222

what was i thinking. what was i planning all this time. was there even a plan dzaki? or was it unintentional? i didnt think of it this way. i always thought of the upper side of things. it wasnt well-thought anyway. so unexpected, given the wrong timing.

i read that compatibility among partners doesnt necessarily mean having the same interests, hobbies etc. but more of having the same or similar outlooks on leading one's life, being together that kind of thing. sure it helps to have the same interests but sometimes that is not enough.

so no more hiding under no rocks, no more running away, no more of dumping stuff in the closet. its time to take things off my chest and start breathing again. though will doing this be wise i dont know.

the truth

i do think that we can get along. if we couldnt then these three years are lies. there has to be some equation. im talking in your terms now miss scientist. there has to be an equation like a+b=makes it work and im willing to find out. its not all about going with the flow anymore. now its getting technical. and 3 years, surely everything has watered down. a gift now doesnt have the same impact as it did three years back.

so its time for a change. any change, in our relationship-lifestyle. going out more often, doing different things, playing different games, talking about other stuff we've never talked before etc. there is so little i can think of. but all these things. it takes time and effort. time, a commodity that you dont have. why is it always this way. when i have the time, you dont. when you have the time, i dont. its been like that for 3 years and its none of our fault.

attitude wise, ive become less patient. i blame it on myself and because of my lack of discipline. im not the same person a year ago, who is stronger and more calm. i blame it on the three years, of self-dedication. maybe all these have run dry. but how do i replenish them?

and you. you have to change as well. stop being the same sensitive, negative person you are. its been going on since the time i met you, or you met me whichever came first. you have to change. ive been flooded with negativity for the past years and im trying to help. so lets make this stop. stop worrying about unnecessary stuff. dont get stressed out over time. everyone has 24 hours just like you. everyone has assignments. dont fret. you can still do it. dont be all wound up like a tight ball. it just makes you even more sensitive, which is another thing.

and me? i admit i may be insensitive and unromantic. but i cant be when your so sensitive and stressed. i want to help you too. i know, ive been late alot of times. this is because of my lifestyle which im not proud of. but im trying to change. to wake up earlier. ive started drawing again. drawing for me is a positive thing.

and about physical looks. this is the bomb. the killer finale. do i think youre fat? well, to me you look ok. you look fine. everyone says you look okay. which is good. all i need is someone that is less dead. like more energy and stuff. abit more. you know i dont expect miracles but slowly we can make this work.

but im selfish. im a selfish jerk and asshole. i always think that you look better if youre slimmer. thus the exercise and proper food things. dont get me wrong. im only human. everyone has this dark desire for something be it cars money or wealth. i cant help it. been thinking about it for so long.

and i will try my best to not dig something from the past be it positive or negative because it only makes it worse.

rock on..

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mr reynolds eh

check this guy out

wayne reynolds

dont want to?

nevermind, here's something



this guy is mind blowing

rock on

love you

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sometimes you wish you could fly away. into some foreign land. where you do not have to worry about anything. where you can work without trouble. work the lands or whatever. grow up with nature. live an easy life. a simple life perhaps. then get married. raise a family. like village life sia.

sometimes living in singapore, with all its merits, has disadvantages. its so compact. theres nothing much you can do. its like playing a simple 2d side scrolling game like mario. complete the levels, beat the boss and then rescue the princess. except that mario is more exciting. heres and example. i went rednano.sg and it is shit. i wanted to look for a gaming community in singapore. maybe i didnt look hard enough but i didnt get good results. i want to be surrounded by people who are similar to me, who share the same thoughts and all that.

maybe i should go join a forum. but i want more than that. like you know in the states where they have fraternities or sororities. or maybe i should have joined JC. haha. but couldnt, not with my results anyway. singapore is not a red dot, its more of a red line. cross it and you die. you have to follow. follow the line. grow up. primary school. psle. secondary school. o level. JC/poly. diploma/a level. (ns)university. degree. i mean come on.

theres not much options for other courses of life. what if someone dreams of becoming a fashion designer? a firefighter? or something else that is less associated with the more popular careers in singapore? thats what i think is done to us. its like we keep thinking that we need to be this tall to ride the rollercoaster.

why cant we do something else instead? thats why people immigrate.

rock on..

love you..

3MC Reunion

remember when you were in school. and you had this group of friends. whom you eat sleep and shat with. not to mention play soccer with during o levels?

3mc stands for 3 malay 3 chinese. 3 of which takes the same train at the same exact time every morning. 4 of which are in band. all 6 of them crazy and together. and they are: (alphabetical order)

ahmad
desmond
dzaki
hafiz
ian
samuel

and then we met. yesterday. all 6 of us, sitting down on the wooden planks. drinking starbucks. vivocity. i was still in disbelief after that. usually me and the rest of the band people - ian desmond and samuel, hang out together. hafiz was always with his archery thing. and ahmad never met us at all. not even a 'yo' or a 'high' when he went JC. and suddenly yesterday hafiz smsed to mobilize all of us. because ahmad wanted to have coffee at starbucks. i havent seen him in 2 years.

and it was fucking funny. the atmosphere. the laughter. it was as it was 3 years ago, when all of us were in gan eng seng. i dont know what to say. hahaha. it was fun eh.

rock on..

love you..

3MC uh..wear the colours

my sugar

when she arrived, so happy.





and then after careful assembly..




actually uh. the show they showing on Suria, called Anugerah Band, rocks man. thats why malay people can play rock. go watch it.


rock on..

love you..