internet slow dah

just yesterday i read gameaxis (magazine) and i saw this guy's work on one of the pages. apparently he is from laselle and when my friends saw it they were like,

"what the fuck? dzaki you can draw way better!"

i am so depressed. how i wish i got some publicity. i always believed that people dont accept creativity. i kinda wished that i could turn ink into cash. fast. and why is it so hard to make a living off a canvas or something. all the artists in the world should fly to venus and live there, where all of us will scrutinize each other's work and there shall be no peace and a neverending stream of art. and then millenia will pass and all of us will never age (because on venus its like peterpan). whatever we imagine will come to life - our drawings, music and dance.

frustration.

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have you ever noticed that talent, genius and drugs mixed together to a fine cocktail can give you fame, recognition and fantastic art? ive always wondered whether drugs (the illegal kind) has any positive effect on talented people.

we all know that athletes perform much better under the daily(?) consumption of steroids and we do know that they feed drugs to chicken to make then grow faster. what i dont know is, could drugs possibly make an artist play/write/compose/sing/draw (etc) better? does it have some kind of property that allows the brain to excrete more creative juices?

a month ago i read this book 'scar tissue' which is something like an autobiography of anthony kiedis, the frontman for the red hot chili peppers. through this book ive got to know that musicians often take drugs, especially rockstars. apparently these drugs tend to make them go psycho and crazy (duh) but also extremely creative. maybe that is dependant on how experienced you are in shooting. anyway one example is john fruciante (guitar-rhcp) and his drug abuse often led to him being more productive and thus produced numerous guitar riffs or parts while he is under the influence of drugs.

however, this john fruciante guy is really really talented so i dont really know whether or not the drugs and the alcohol allowed him to be that productive or that they allowed the ideas to flow unhindered. or maybe being in this drugged state that one is able to naturally be genius? for me to know that i guess i have to do some research on drugs. as in real science.

but what if drugs and alcohol really did allow you to be more productive (talent wise)? would there be a huge increase in the number of people taking drugs? and would it be a banned substance? i dont even know why its banned in the first place (maybe because its highly addictive?) but what if instead of condemning it, shouldnt science like, develop it into something that can make everyone a genius?

i was kinda thinking like, the average human uses 5% of its brain. einstein used 7%. correct me if im wrong here. what it, under the controlled influence of some superdrug that we, humans, are able to use more than that said 5%? and what would be the consequences of use using our brains to its full capacity? would we be able to fly? would all of us be psychic? or would we explode under some continuous stress or brain activity?

rock on..

love you..