teeter totter

impulse.

i acted on impulse.

i saw hafiz, saw the bows, saw the form, remembered his blog rants and signed up.

why?

dont ask me why.

****

im crying.

softly. sobbing.

my passion.

should i lose it?

should i give it up?

no not drawing.

drumming.

it has been eons since ive last drummed.

maybe my time is up..

:'(

rock on...

love you...

corbusier

hady mirza won.

muahahahahahahahahaha!

****

today rain pee-ed again. anyway i was late for lecture. half hour counts as late? i forgot that they had someone take over ADS. normaly 1030 isnt late. he'd be marking attendance at the point of time.

lecture was ok today. the class was exceptionally quiet. i wonder why. oh well, no time to ponder about unnecessary things. thay gave us our 'refresher course' today. we're supposed to do a case study on any house made by one of the architects that they have listed down. again, i have to cope with the ardous task of groupwork. but this time i want to make things right. i desperately want my As. and in ths period of time, the fasting month, it would be quite a challenge to stay up late to zealously submerge myself in extra work that could, hopefully, be worthwhile and add a mark or two. also, how the heck are we supposed to do a study model AND a structural model in less than a week??

preposterous. i guess we deserved it, for slacking so much.

work work work..

i dont care, im gona work till i faint. wait not actually faint la but close to fainting.

if i faint there goes my fasting.

****

in the future, hopefully, im gona start posting pictures here. maybe get a bigger blog so that ya'll dont have to squint to read the posts. hey, im no blog whiz, if there ever was one.

thats it for today, got to go back to my project. this means no more visits to band during holidays, unless i already finish quite a chunk la.

this time must buy proper cardboard to make the models.

rock on..

love you..

PS: nobody wants to play magic with me. hey guys out there. play la. just play for old time's sake. oh and in case fizz is reading this, send me jellybelly's mobile.

haha

fasting month is finally here.its ok la, not that bad. though it doesnt feel like fasting month.and i feel incredibly tired.

yesterday me and sam went to the magic: the gathering time spiral pre-release ( its a convention thingy) at the concourse.

it looked kinda weird. usually they hold em at suntec city. in a proper convention hall, instead of in the middle of a shopping centre. it looked kinda out of place.

so we were there and browsing through the crap rares (one dollar rare cards). sam was looking fo the missing pieces to his 'elf' deck, while i was contemplating on spending 10 bucks to add more firepower to my goblin deck.

here's a breakdown of my expenditure:

1 goblin sharpshooter(rare)(japanese version) - $10ea
1 goblin sharpshooter(rare)(chinese version) - $10ea
2 ib halfheart, goblin tactician - $5ea

so..$30 bucks.

and then i told myself..stop

dont buy anymore. i have that tendency to overindulge.

and that left sameul envious cos eventhough he bought more cards than me it only amounted to what? less than $10? lol..

important announcement :

ladies and gentlemen, i think im going back into the magic scence.

end my turn.

rock on...

love you..

PS: poor ian.

dirty things

this is the final week of holiday.

this is also the final week of not having to wait till 7++pm to eat. and then after that you still have to go to the mosque to pray.

every single night.

the month of fasting is slowly approaching. of course i can tahan not eating. its the getting angry part that im worried about. cos when you fast you're not supposed to get angry or anything.

you're supposed to be humble.

so if anybody out there disturbs me ON PURPOSE, he/she is being a total jerk.

then maybe after fasting i'll beat 'em up.

kidding.

****

its all karen's fault.

that night i went to ian's place and there was this neopets thingy on his internet browser.

n e o p e t s


sounds familiar.

then i went.

and got HOOKED.

fuck sia..

****

im not particularly in a good mood right now. firstly, holidays are ending. secondly, my dad is really pissed about my phonebill. it's like $65? and sometimes way much more than that. and i blame myself. i just feel fucking guilty. i wish i could pay him but hey, i dont have pocket money. i have to work to be able to eat my meals three fucking times a day! guys, if you see me sms-ing someone, stop me. and finally, i dont get to see my immortal till after hari raya. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?? I MISS HER LIKE CRAZY...

rock on..

prison song

its raining in the morning.

rain

dont over-pee anymore.

****

arsenal won yesterday =)

by one-nil.

the saddest part was that hafiz didnt watch(i think).

usually he'll message me "GOOOAAALLL!!!"

but now, nah.

his blog has become somewhat of an archer's blog.

sound's good the name.

maybe he should change it to that.

but its good that he doing well.

****

i miss sitting beside her. putting my arm round her. getting closer. hug. then she'll put her head on my shoulder. and i'll kiss her forehead, smell her hair (shampoo). then we'll hold hands and just stare blankly into space.

but that was then this is now la.

****

im drawing now...

gtg..

rock on..

love you..

promiscous

i can draw bunnies now.

and

mystical water dragons.

bunny can fly, swim and do a whole lot more things once i get my brain cracking on the next mini comic strip.

until then, fly bunny, fly.

****

they need to do storyboarding.

i can do abit of storyboarding.

but i dont think i am that willing to help them.

i dunno.

im considering.

and

its quite scary and freaky.

but its a challenge.

and whats in it for me?

so far desmond and ian has approached me to do storyboards for them.

im gona wait till wen fong finds me.

****

fable is such a nice game.

though its old lah.

u get to be good or bad.

i was bad last time.

grew 3 inch horns.

maybe im gona be good this time round.

but eating those crunchy chicks make me evil.

lol

rock on...

love you..

bugger

oh bugger.

it has become hard for me to concentrate recently. i get halfway into drawing something and then suddenly i 'abandon' it and go into another crazy idea. and it doesnt work. most of the time i dont get things done.

at first i set my pencils on drawing the ever infamous balanar the night stalker (DotA Scourge hero). then after a few playful sketches i got a sudden inspiration to draw a comic (yet another one) for my dear. something about bunnies.

bunnies arent hard to draw right?

wrong.

as musicians have high standards to music, draw-ers have high standards to drawing.

or is it artists have a high standard on art?

anyway, the cycle doesnt end there. after learning how to draw this winx bunny that she suddenly loved, i got into more trouble. apparently the masterpiece people want a castle drawing for who knows what. so i got interested, again and start to draw castle elevations. i love doing the shading (timothy would be proud!). but then ian hasnt come up with the pictures so there is nothing for me to draw. yet (i hope).

now, im currently designing this national jersey after reading the new paper on sunday. they want to design a new national jersey.

i can draw.

i love football.

why not?

rock on...

love you =)

shaken

just finished playing hamachi DotA with ian.

tired la.

i play better at lan shops were the computers are faster.

i think that makes my brain go faster too.

i guess.

went back to band today.

horrible.

terrible.

worse than vegetable.

no mood to rant on gessband blog.

nothing good to wtie about.

it was extremely horrible.

im shaken.

yes by that and something else.

i must ask for his forgiveness.

im scared. frightened.

im very scared.

im ashamed.

im scared of you.

but you are the only being that offers both the protection and the punishment.

i must be more disciplined.

i will make an effort.

please forgive me.

it

tired tired tired.

been gym-ing the past few days, either alone or with company.

anyway, this week has been eventfull, unlike other weeks.

on wednesday i went to jon's birthday party at bisuous. wasnt really very exciting. jon had an unfortunate accident though. burnt his face. poor jon. i had an unfortunate mishap a well. quarrelled with her yet again. terrible time. that's why i wasnt so involved in the party. in the end sam, hafiz, alvin and me went home early. and alvin insisted he was drunk but we ignored him anyways.

the next day was teacher's day. i was supposed to be involved in some performance but it was cancelled due to the rain. yay. i didnt have to go to school that early, much to her disappointment.

went there with hafiz anyway. met up with the gang. they ton the whole night at bisuous. it was raining uncontrollably. downpour la. so we had breakfast and waited till it stopped. or at least was drizzling.

we got to school in the nick of time to see the concert which was, in our standards, quite un-entertaining. after that i followed her back and all of us got separated i guess.

that night we went to watch the result show, singapore idol. yes. yes yes yes. finally joakim is out. but that wasnt what made the night special. the thing was, i went there with her mom and dad. i didnt talk to them alot but hey, i aint a talkative person. it was cool. i love her alot.

after SI we (band people) went to makan at adam road. i guess i was overly excited so i ate alot. mutton chop and mutton soup together. sin hua was emoing, we all didnt know why. i guess he was sad joakim was out (lol). took a can with tiffany, weiting and sam back to clementi. sam. that flirt LOL.

on friday gym again. but this time hafiz was there. he broke up with nana so i guess i'd cheer him up. gym as usual was fun and tiring. worked on my back. hafiz got crazier as night came. we were at sam's place gorging on mozzarella. i learnt tai -tee (big 2) that night. bugger.i didnt win though. but not bad eh? fast learning. after that, samuel kinda persuaded hafiz to play lan. and boy was he damn noisy that night. no offence. we plated the 'archer' match. i wad using drow, fiz used clinkz and poor poor samuel used medusa. he died alot. but i had to give him credit la. it wasnt his best hero. and what's important was to make hafiz happy again. in the end he got 20 kills and sam got..er..a few la. me? 23 kills, buriza, lothars and a 2/3 finished divine rapier. damn you claymore.

anyway yeah thats pretty much what happened. it would have been longer if i'd bothered to exaggerate but hey penatlah.

rock on...

love you..

my closest best friend =)

conqueror

it was stupendously crazy.

we were celebrating samuel's birthday.

and the birthday boy wanted to play LAN.

time check = 11 something PM.

i didnt mind though.

so we met at great world before going down to paradiz centre. it was a long time since i last chatted with desmond. actually its not but nevermind. we talked about funny stuff but mostly rhcp. then as usual they made fun of birthday boy.

so at selegie we played 3v3 DotA. and i got paired with two beginners. im not saying im a pro but going with two beginners against samuel, desmond and wen fong is a great challenge.

and i was pissed halfway through the game. i kept dying lor. everytime i killed someone, i was the next in line to die. but it was fun feeding off desmond lol.

eventually, i managed to pull through NOT victorious but at least i lost with honour. i think i had the second highest kills next to samuel.

cool.

enough about dota.

****

i was damn shagged. its 4 in the morning and me and desmond were watching 'rhcp what hits??' limited edition at sam's place. we kinda figured that we'd have an enormous taxi fare, especially me, if all of us went home. so we decided to ton the night at sam's. nothing much la. talked about soccer, rhcp, school and stuff. was really fun to catch up on the times with desmond. such a nice guy.

the next day we went for drills after waking up late (me)...

i shant continue la.

too penat.

maybe i'll write in the gessband blog or something..

rock on..

love you..=)

hahaha

its about 6 in the morning.

i really have nothing to post these few days. apart from going gym and back to band nothing special ever happens. i've spent most of my 'philosophical writing' (as valerie would call it) on writing 'chapters from the old testament' (as darryl would call it) on the band blog. i think im spent. im gona get wasted soon.

no cash too. how's a guy gona enjoy his holidays? it's either my income is too low or my expenditure is too high.

anyway, jonathan's birthday is coming up next week. though he's not a very close friend of mine, i think im gona draw him something. sam's birthday is coming up as well. im definitely gona have to draw him something. he's a good friend, besides all the childish tantrums.

and isnt it a coincidence that my birthday, his birthday and her birthday all fall on the same day but different month and year?

my brother is really getting on my nerves. no. my brotherS. one keeps banging on his stupid guitar. what's worse is that he managed to find the wire for the amplifier. and he keeps blasting gawd awful music on the computer.

the other brother i think is too spoiled. way too spoiled. just because your the youngest doesnt mean people should spoil you.

i think i'll end it for now.

rock on...

love you...

kids play

i will never grow up.

i mature yes, but i will never grow up.

i will always be a kid.

i love teen titans.

the justice league.

super robot monkey team hyper force go!

i will never grow up.

****

time is strange for me.

why is it that whenever i look at the watch or clock its always something symbolic?

3.14 is pie

3.16 some lines psalms thingy right?

12.34

9.16

6.19 booyaka booyaka

9.11?

i even get my psle score

2.34

how cool is that?

****

i dont fit in.

rock on..

love you so much...

hate

i hate whats goin on at the gessband blog.

i hate people who have no guts.

i hate people who hide behind something and then throw insults as if they grew on tress.

oh well.

it just shows that there are scum on this good earth.

****

went to the gym today with xunhao. i knew i couldnt go with sam anymore even though he says he'll be goin the day before.

it's cause he got masterpiece shooting stuff production.

i hope they fix their problems soon.

so anyway little xunhao did good today. he actually did a complete set.

and then more sets.

and more and more sets!

sooner of later he'll be big.

big enough to pound people i hope.

****

i couldnt believe my ears that day, when i learnt about a certain backstabber.

i didnt really suspect that he/she (protect identity) WAS a backstabber.

personally, i DETEST backstabbing. though it scores high marks in villiany, i dont like it.

its way too low for me. people like me prefer direct action.

you dont like, say you dont like. dont go around backstabbing.

though using rikimaru to backstab..that one is fun la

****

hopefully, i dont get wasted during my holidays. i got to be more responsible at school. more discipline.

heck.

we all have 'new year/and of holiday' resolutions.

but we follow none of em till its too late.

****

if i found out who he is...

aiya..forget about it dzaki..hes not worth your time..

but he insulted you...

nevermind la..

but what if you knew who he was?

i'll get ian, desmond, and the rest of the guys to beat him up la..isnt it that obvious?

haha..cool

****

rock on...

love you...

anniversary

happy belated monthly anniversary dear =)

i actually forgot

u too

XD

anyway band today was THE MOST boring ever. there was no practise today so i had nothing to blog anout. usually i rant about how people dont play properly etc. so today they spent the whole time listening to foo.

which i knoe they didnt.

how could anyone?

went in the store room with sarah, ian and rain. lol. its a couple thing.

and no it wasnt an orgy.

so yeah we went in and guess what? there were photo books on the floor so we sort of went throught the history of gessband.

dont you just love old photos?

"there's ian! omg he's so small and skinny!"

"omg! omg! they have us marching!! i didnt know they took our pictures!"

"dzaki! why you look so happy in this picture?LOL"

"des and wen? destined??"

yeah.

it was fun reminiscing. especially the photo of sarah with short hair!

shit.

she's gona kill me for this =P

sorry dear..

i love you..

so after that i accompanied ian on a bus ride to someone's house in tanjong pagar cos apparently he wanted to send a special someone home on that special day that unwittingly was tied to a special occasion which i am now speculating to be hastily made up.

cool.

i like writing long sentences.

kinda have to hold your breath there.

anyway thats wll for now..

got to sleep.

love you..

rock on...


=)

relief

relief.

my final critique is finally over and it turned out to be ok. nobody was shot down by any of the lecturers on the first day.

and.

god has granted me 6 weeks of holidays.

yes.

6 weeks.

so during these 6 weeks here's what im gona do :

visit sarah and gessband
go to the gym in hopes of slightly buffing up my body
draw lots of stuff
draw krevan stuff
draw si hao's cd cover stuff
play around with photoshop cs2
eat lots more
sleep less

so there.

im going band later, leaving around 1 15? that's not to long from now.

so..

love you..

rock on..

hiuyo

ian and i still remain good friends.

so.

here i am doing primer three. well, finishing primer three. god i love that word. finishing. and guess what? out ot four classes, or 80+ people, i was randomly chosen to go present first.

now, panic.

*&%$(&%#$^(^$^)&%!!!???

the good thing is, i dont have to worry about a single shit all week!

except sarah of course. i miss you dear.


good luck to all my friends for their upcoming semestral exams. so maybe i dont have exams. bleah!

*went to paradiz centre. ate at mac there. from my table outside irc i heard a very loud "M-M-M-M-M-M-MONSTER KILL-KILL-KILL!!!!"*

that was loud.

have to finish my primer now.

love you sweetheart.

rock on..

a short blog..for now..maybe if im free-er i'll do longer entries...

the ian post

wow! ian wrote a very very nice story about me on his blog. its kinda old actually. i love hearing nice nice stories about me. im kinda humored =). i was laughing throughout the whole post.

since he has written a little something about me, i (supposedly NAFA's guy),will write something about him.

"the ian story"

i recalled something about a 'problem'?. look, if there is anything, anything at all, just say. DONT say, "there is something"..or.."issue".

what?? what isit?? you know what you're doing? its like trying to say "can you see that small speck of oxygen molecule on ur face?"

"where?"

"its right there cant you see it?"

imagine this. someone goes right up to you and says "there's an issue coming up"

"what?"

"i dunno. but there's an issue. amongst us."

"what?!"

"i dunno. you have to think about it yourself."

"$&&%^#*&??"

cool huh?

and

if there is NOTHING...then why would you say there is something?

isnt it like saying "wow! armstrong is super thin sia!"

and

i get terribly pissed when someone, anyone, talks about my girl. you dont know her.i do. zip it.

BUT.

i have to admit that i can get a lil cranky at times.

however, im still your brother. i will always be your brother. i already apologised if you havent noticed.

why i am doin this is cause. i believe in an eye for an eye. you punch me (physically) i wont punch you back. i wont. i will never punch a brother.

but.

if you rant about me in your blog like some overgrown baby on some bicycle that has no seat then of course ima gona get you back.

please. if upset with me, just say it straight in my face.

i wont eat you.

and samuel will never ever beat me to a pulp.

and yes, i have growned up.

stop being childish.

****

phew. that felt good.

i love all my brothers, including you.

but please, dont talk behind my back.

never~

rock on..

love you..

heya

dammit.

here i am wasting my life, making scale models from pvc. not to mention the hours i spend clicking my time away on the computer just to draw some stupid plan, section and elevation. i also spend huge chunks of my money on cartridge paper(drawing paper), uhu glue and big A0 boards.

maybe i hate my course.

the only good thing about it is that it has no exams.

ROD 06 was ok i guess. though it didnt seem much like an rod to me. there was little if not no interaction between the graduates and the sec 1s. the food is never enough (usual stuff), there were no games nor entertainment except UNO, Big 2, blackjack and mahjong. yes people, mahjong the whole night long.

the accomodations were ok i guess. air-coned. but to some of us, there was an uninvited guest? i shall say no more.

the 'nightwalk' wasnt a tad scary at all. its all your fault jon.

the second day was pretty much slack. nothing much happened this rod.

lets wait for next year.

in the meantime, band camp's coming up. =)

cant wait. seniors rock.

love you.

rock on...

scgs

i wont talk about the concert. im used to concerts, being in them and watching them as well.

however,

i am proud to be a gessband member, even though the concert might not be perfect nor exceed my expectations (i do have high expectations).

so,

che avanza gessband!

special thanks to all the seniors who came back and supported us.

=)

i love you...

rock on...

nice song

this is a nice song.

Wake up,
Grab a brush and put a little (makeup)
Grab a brush and put a little
Hide the scars to fade away the (shakeup)
Hide the scars to fade away the
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
Here you go create another fable

You wanted to
Grab a brush and put a little makeup,
You wanted to
Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup,
You wanted to
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table,
You wanted to

I don't think you trust
In..my..self righteous suicide
I..cry..when angels deserve to die..Die!

Wake up
Grab a brush and put a little (makeup)
Grab a brush and put a little
Hide the scars to fade away the (shakeup)
Hide the scars to fade away the
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table?
Here you go create another fable

You wanted to
Grab a brush and put a little makeup
You wanted to
Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
You wanted to
Why'd you leave the keys upon the table
You wanted to

I don't think you trust
In..my..self righteous suicide
I..cry..when angels deserve to die
In my..self righteous suicide
I..cry..when angels deserve to die

Father..Father..Father..Father
Father into your hands I commend my spirit
Father into your hands

Why have you forsaken me
In your eyes forsaken me
In your thoughts forsaken me
In your heart forsaken..me oh

Trust in my self righteous suicide
I..cry..when angels deserve to die
In my self righteous suicide
I..cry..when angels deserve to die


System Of A Down

rock on...

love you sayang..