gym

i am really tired today. went to the gym to work out and i tell you it was really a work out!! having a bodybuilder for an uncle can be really strenous! had to travel all the way to woodlands though. but it was worth it! 'cos it was free? =P

shes having a bad time since i 'left'. family problems. i just dont get it. why should relatives fight?? that is surely immoral! why the fuck should we have enemies as relatives? for God's sake they are our own flesh and blood! to treat your relatives with spite will only gain the hate of people around you. including mine. so please people, stop hating each other. if you have to tahan then tahan. God put us into different races and groups so that we will mingle with each other. you know. make peace, share the love around. i do not believe that such vile beings existed.

i guess i should explain the "i 'left' her" part. we didnt really part. we just agreed to stop seein geach other (communicating etc) so that we can concentrate on our own lives, our studies etc. but that doesnt mean im single ok? i will always be attached to her. no one else. i love you dear.

rock on...

love

i went to the cinema to watch Memoirs of a Geisha. it is one sad show. a geisha does not feel nor does she want nor love. you do not become a geisha to pursue your destiny. you become one because you have no choice. the story begins with this girl and her sister being taken away, sold to a geisha house (okiya). there they are separated to different okiyas in separate districts (hanamichi). slowly and unwilingly, they work and study to one day pay off their debt and become true geisha, living off their own earnings. this story starts some time after world war 1, some time during the rise of Adolf Hitler.

the thing i dislike about the story is that it really has a lot of backstabbing and bitching ( girls mah). however, without all the emotion and drama this story would not have been a success. geishas are not entertainers nor girlfriends. nor are they wives. they are in between; half wives, wives only to the night. they dance, sing, play music and entertain you. the rest is just shadow.

one of my favourite scenes was the part where mameha and chiyosan were walking down the street. there mameha told chiyosan "a true geisha can stop a man with just one look". chiyosan could not believe this of course so she picked one target for mameha. and as what she said, mameha did stop the guy chosen with just one look. the guy simply stopped in his tracks to look at mameha. now it was chiyosan's turn. mameha picked this guy riding a bicycle. chiyosan got ready and when the guy came past she gave this most alluring look. the guy simply stared at her, and crashed into a cart and roadside stall in front!

there was this part where they were talking about mizuage (a geisha's virginity). did you know that to become a true geisha one has to sell her mizuage? i was like, what?! how they described this was truly funny. "sayuri (chiyosan's geisha name), do you know that sometimes, a men's eel would like to visit a woman's cave once in a while?" sayuri made geisha history when she sold her mizuage to the highest bidder at 15,000 yen - higher than any geisha did.

well, i would liek to tell you more about the story but then i would be a spoiler right? so go watch it yourself and be amazed at this secret world of a geisha.

love you girl...

rock on...

yoz

what a tiring week this has been. i've went out almost everyday! (which im NOT supposed to. now im grounded on weekends. poor me =(...) went back to school to help the band (it really sucks down there but in a funny kind of way) went to the hospital, went here and there. haix. was tiring. did a few drawings of course. my version of goblin sharpshooter from MtG. a zombie coming out of a hole. i sketched my cousin sleeping. haha. caught you! i tried to draw something like a paladin but ran out of steam (so itas incomplete. hey! isnt that a song?)

leslie came over on wednesday. and boy did he have a surprise for me. he brought along this cool game (which i already know how to play initially) LOTR : Battle for Middle Earth. played for hours actually. didnt sleep at all. none can contend with the power of Saruman! ok im a game freak =P ( sarah u were right!) and did you know what was the most surprising thing? my brothers played it too! ususally they hated my kind of games. but hey. i guess they love LOTR too. isengard rocks! cant wait to go play it at lan again. hard army is nothing!

shes having pms the last few days. been almost a week now. its very scary for me though. i get scolded almost every night! but hey. i can take it. i mean, what can i do? when shes pms-ing, none can contend. should be ending soon i think. yay. its like mrs jekyll/hyde thingy. in the morning shes herself but at night, she suddenly hates me! lol. i love her still. a lot . no. more than that. just wana let her know.

well, thats it for now. sorry for the long gap in between. been busy.

love you dear *muackz*

rock on...

crazy

i love goblins. really. they are cute and funny. not to mention dumb as well. hilariously dumb. especially in magic. they make fierce fighters, having haste, provoke, first strike and they can ping too. i always take pride in my goblin deck but yesterday brought unhappiness to my heart as my goblin deck lost 1-2 to sam's elves. damn! i hate elves.

ok let's cut the magic card talk and go back to earth. i've been going to the gym lately with sam, every monday and friday. it's to keep fit of course! i dont want to be a 'sick child' once school starts for me. and speaking about school, i still have trouble deciding where to go. both napfa la selle needs a portfolio and i have to go through an interview to get in! if i go to SP, i'll have another dilema. architecture? or creative media design? my dad really wants me to go architecture. i thinks its somewhat cool to be an architect but im more into fantasy drawings. my long term goal is to be an illustrator. an artist. a fantasy artist to be precise. if i want that, then la selle or napfa is the choice for me. but im afraid you see. they are really REALLY pro down there.

that's it for today. my tummy's growling...

rock on...

sheep

today is hari raya haji. and i did not go to the mosque early in the morning to pray. nope. instead i went to visit my granpa at the hospital. yea. around 8 when we reached there, my family and i. we managed to squeeze 5 people in the cab. my dad told the cabbie " its an emergency ". and lo and behold, we got through. didnt do much at the hospital really. fell asleep a couple of times. believe me, sleeping on the waiting benches can really hurt your back! and since we got nothing better to do, we made paper aeroplanes. the paper was meant initially for drawing. but i got bored of drawing after sketching that dumb tree. so we flew aeroplanes instead. hmmm. reminds me of that rhcp song aeroplane. i remember it won some other song on mtv's chart attack. rhcp rox! =P . after a lot of 'flights', we got bored and made paper boats instead. and guess what? we raced them in the nearby lingkang outside the hospital. yep. sort of like kampung days. but i've never lived the kampung live before. at nightfall we went back to my other gran's place (my mom's side) for dinner. the house was cramped full of people. hari raya wad, my mom commented.

oh yeah..lol..i realise why poeple dont visit my blog often. its cos the name is too long and complicated aint it? one-quaver-onetriplet-semiquaver. cmon man. ask any musician out there to explain it to y'all. its that simple!

rock on...

twisted transistor

yep. thats the tune i keep humming. haha. korn's not bad by the way. metal. nicey.

went to seoul garden today. after going desmond's house that is. we wanted to treat him. but alas he had to go with his family. sadded. so we went there to eat. i have this craving for meat these days. yes meat. lucky it isnt for blood. thwn we had to somehow get rid of the leftover food. dumb samuel took so much that we had a lot of leftover uncooked food! lol. watched ahmad play F.E.A.R. at desmond's house just now. scary sia!! there's this girl spectre or ghost thingy-whatever floating around with all these ghouls and zombies and stuff. then there's these extremely irritating soldiers with remarkable AI that wont stop hunting you. brilliant game i say!

after that we slacked at sam's redhill house. very spacious.i love it sam! you know why i love it? 'cause its near her house! so i got to wave goodbye to her just now. sweet! i dont mind going around being called 'loverboy'.

rock on...

i try ah...

went back to my old school today. cca orientation. was fun actually. the sec ones were pretty much the same. annoying brats. went to somehow help the band. played a drum demo for them. sucked. haha. that dumbass samuel went off somewhere. so i was 'forced' to play. cmon guys, you cant depend on me anymore. my days as a gessband member are over. im a freakin senior now! though i joke alot and adopt this 'friend friend' attitude, the feeling is still yucky. they didnt do good though. only 57 names. yes, you heard me. 57. compared to last year's (im not boasting or anything) whooping 120+ names, i'd pretty much say it sucked. cmon guys(and gals) you can do way much better than that! i really hoped this year's intake is good. if we cant have quantity then we must have QUALITY.

saw sarah today. not supposed to see her though. she wouldnt let go of my arm when i was polishing them boots. nice. warm. she screamed at me during the orientation when i touched and tried to play her precious piccolo. and she just wouldnt let me off when 'band' ended. she wants to see me. very often. but i cant. im not supposed to. we are not supposed to see each other. she kissed me. she wasnt suppose to.she has to control. go and study. dont think about me. dont worry about me. i'll be fine. go worry about yourself. when i'm gone just carry on, dont moan, rejoice everytime you hear the sound of my voice. know that im looking down on you smiling. and i dont feel a thing so baby, dont feel no pain just smile back.

i tried to use cheat engine on maple today. didnt work. maybe i'll try again. ive had it pestering nicholas for that dumb hack. its like, he wont give it to me. argh! but the cheat engine thingy. nah. keeps disconnecting. I NEED A DAMN BYPASS!!!!

any of you folks out there got bypass to maplesea?

rock on...

kudos

kudos to the new year!

it has been a while since ive written anything on this here space. i duno what compelled me to write today but here i am. sitting at the com listening to fort minor, playing maple now and then. i have got to go somewhere. everywhere people are going somewhere. to school, to work. but i aint going nowhere.

i got a job now. tutor. not a bad pay. then again, all pays are good to me. it starts today though. pretty cool huh? im teaching math by the way. and you wont believe



great. more work. my dad just called. he wants me to deliver something to my gran's place at commonewealth. argh! from jurong west(deliver parcel) to commonwealth. sickening. oh well.

oh yeah. before i forget. new year resolutions. the basic list. 1) play more soccer - practise my defending skills(very karat) 2) stay fit - that means you can see me in the gym every friday 3) watch world cup - its a crime not to 4) keep drawing - very important. i need to improve my drawing skills. serious.

i miss her. a lot. yea im not supposed to see her anymore but thats my little secret. i think of her all the time when im not supposed to. maybe i'll see her tomorrow. sadded *sob*

rock on.