hobbits to isengard

ho hum

2011-10-16T15:05:00.000+08:00

on hold!

lastweek

2011-09-02T02:52:00.002+08:00

Ok. Roughly one more week left before I enlist. Better train hard and sleep early. And learn how to focus! I think of all the things I will miss, I'll miss Marcel the most. So cute.

heyt

2011-08-30T01:21:00.003+08:00

meh. selamat hari raya aidilfitri to all out there :)

gurren

2011-08-24T17:56:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wish I could be alone for some time, with nobody but me. No Law, no Religion and no Rules really. If you're bound by so many little and big things how do you Live? And how do you choose to live?

But that's just silly thinking. I should probably get back to work.

on the

2011-08-12T02:44:00.004+08:00

tears fall from the shameless. shelter me, guide me to the edge of the water. selfless are the righteous. burden me, lead me like a lamb to the slaughter.

the questioning

2011-08-09T03:45:00.002+08:00

I guess the reason why I cannot sleep at night, is because I'm left questioning myself. I question and regret so many things. And I always wonder why things are the way they are. I think usually if you end up doing this, it means that some or most parts of your life is unsatisfying and unfulfilling.

What exactly am I doing with my life? I cannot seem to see the point in many things right now. I keep thinking about what I have. About what I don't have. The life I want, the life I am living and the life I've lived. And it's seemingly bringing me to a point where I keep having grisly demoralizing thoughts. I've lost passion. I have no more reason. I am nothing actually. What am I?

I feel dead. But maybe even being dead is less of a burden than this. And I cannot possibly be dead. Because I think, therefore I am. But if I think too much, and in the process suffer, then would thinking lead to my undoing? And so I think, and overthink, and therefore I am no more?

What is it that I want to achieve? What is it that I want? What SHOULD I want? And what is there for me? But what's the point in all that? Where does it all take you, this journey of living? And what is the point in that anyway. I see no point that is the trouble with me right now.

I feel miserable. In not achieving, not trying and even if I do and did, what's the point you tell me? Ironic isn't it, that only the day before, I thought waiting to die was rubbish. And now it's not. Sometimes you think, it's not fair right.

wheels

2011-07-31T04:38:00.001+08:00

Finally, it's complete! so do I still want a bicycle?

I think I still do!

flko

2011-07-28T13:00:00.002+08:00

I didn't get that bike. Instead, I bought trucks, wheels and bearings and poof! I have a completed skateboard! But little did I know that you can't cruise very well with a skateboard so..I need to get risers and longboard wheels. Hopefully it works and no wheelbite!

Right-brained. I am right-brained.

Cheers!

wants

2011-07-24T01:42:00.003+08:00

$1000!

whoops

2011-05-23T02:56:00.003+08:00

Today I took the wrong bus. I saw this group of four guys on fixies cycle pass the bus, well eventually, after they were overtaken by the bus at first lah. Cool nice bikes. Then later on as I was crossing the road I saw this lady on another bicycle, though it wasn't a fixie. I think it was just a single speed bike but it was cool enough - matteblack colours.

Then as I was walking under the sweltering heat of the sun I suddenly realised how nice it would be to have a longboard or even a skateboard. Faster travels, less time getting cooked.

fixie

2011-05-09T01:17:00.003+08:00

I need to fix my life. What do you do when things are out of your hand? Do you try to make up for it with other aspects of your life, only to fail again? Where do you get that determination, that determination we all require to go the distance?

chiongster

2011-04-21T02:07:00.003+08:00

Alas! Now is the time to chiong ah! Less than a week to finish up our FYPs with another week to produce a great graduation show. Let us not falter and press forward!

Wouldn't it be nice to own a lightsaber?

how do i say this

2011-04-09T01:53:00.002+08:00

Ok. The past few days haven't been entirely happy for me. I've been feeling like I deserve much more but do I really? I don't know. Maybe I have high expectations. Sometimes I do, but other times I don't really give a damn about anything. Maybe that's what's normal. Ups and downs man. Though one thing's for sure, I am rushing the hell to finish my FYP. I haven't actually thought about the display and shit and it all seems very last minute to me. But what the hell right, I am the King of Last-minute Work.

ring ring!

2011-03-31T02:41:00.004+08:00

custom flying pigeon

urban outfitters

It would be nice if I had a bicycle again.

Something like the ones above, but matte black please.

And short enough for me to ride.

Wouldn't that be great?

busy busy bumble bee

2011-03-15T17:57:00.002+08:00

Woah. It's been a long time since the last update.

The past few weeks I've been horribly busy with schoolwork. FYP is due end April and it's already halfway through March. Late nights in school = Absolutely difficult to wake up in the morning. But so far so good I guess. Stress hasn't kicked in and I won't let it get me :P

Bought a second hand book today for $5 bucks. Sooo cheap. And it's hard cover too. Gonna read it in the train on the way home these days. Been listening to too much music. Must read!

2011-02-09T22:46:00.001+08:00

please don't die.

betta

2011-02-09T00:47:00.002+08:00

My betta fish are sick. One has a fungal infection and the other is possibly depressed (because depression is a sickness and yes it can affect fish as well). I am so sad :( I need to get aquarium salt and some fungal medicine. Hopefully they won't die. Please don't die! They don't cost a lot but they are worth a lot! I bought each for like 5bucks but I for sure know they're worth at least 30 each. One's a crowntail and the other a shimmering full moon.

Let me save the day for once.

look at all the duck fat!

2011-01-22T20:31:00.002+08:00

moneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoneymoney

So far so good. School's not a problem yet. Once I've defined my concept, narrow it down a little, i should be able to know what it's supposed to look like and how to present it. Just that now I worry about the money I have to spend, eventually, on making the actual artwork. Bother. I just hope it won't be too expensive AND. And. Here's the most important part.

What to do with it once assessment's over.

What do I with it once assessment is over?

If it's big where do I stash it? Can it be folded? Compartmentalised? OH dear.

reeeeeeeescue me

2011-01-08T15:40:00.002+08:00

Wow what a way to start the new year with a slight fever, coughs and a running nose. I must develop some kind of a new lifestyle to not fall sick this easily. I think lesser stayovers and more stay at home. Besides, once I enter the IR the second half of the year things will be more straightforward.

and so it is

2010-12-28T02:17:00.002+08:00

What can I say about the past year? Well, to begin with, I've ended up with more unanswered questions, multiple shifts in morality and whether I should really give a damn. I'm not a dragon cause dragons are the only creatures that don't give a damn. There is no Good or Bad. Good is the opposition that pwns everyone else and then says "Hey look, we're the Good guys." Besides, what is Good anyway?

And I've come to realise, I envy people from both ends of the spectrum, if it exists anyway. Sometimes, thinking a lot is really nice and not thinking enough is also nice. Until I find what 'meaningful' purpose is set out there for me, I am sticking to neutral. I mean come on. Luke had it easy. There were people everywhere telling him to blow up the Death Star. And Frodo, he had Gandalf and Aragorn and all the other bunch of awesome ass-kicking heroes to guide him. How difficult was that? Ok I digress.

No questions that I've achieved stuff that I set out to achieve but I feel like I'm going nowhere with this. I've been too much of a "wherever the wind blows" person. So next year, which is two weeks from now, things will change. There's a keyword here:

Stability.

sppoool

2010-12-18T03:33:00.002+08:00

Wah. Seriously what is to become of me. It's so late now and after many attempts to fall asleep EARLY, I can't. I have become an insomniac! aka as Ian's disease/sickness. And because of that, I always wake up around 3pm in the afternoon. MY WHOLE MORNING + NOON IS WASTED. Such a pity.

For this holiday I told myself that I wouldn't do anything art related. But that is so difficult to do. I'm going to KL again for Christmas. HOPE I can squeeze in some landscape sketching. Back to basics baby. Drawing drawing drawing.

if you let a starving person choose between a bowl of rice and a painting by picasso, which would he choose?

2010-12-01T02:22:00.003+08:00

It's been bugging me this past week. Is whatever I am studying irrelevant or is it actually 'worthwhile'? Which is more important; the freedom of the metaphysical mind or material sustenance in the physical world? And what is one without the other anyway. Such a hard decision to make.

What do I want actually?

A Harley Davidson.

the end.

If you let a starving person choose between a bowl of rice and a painting by Picasso, which would he choose?

exia!

2010-11-27T03:05:00.002+08:00

EXIA REPAIR II

Finished snapping this guy up a few days ago. Didn't take me too long. Well actually it did cause I was kept busy sanding all the nubs. No painting nor any coating yet. Just one of the small things to entertain me during my holidays. I can't wait for sem2 to start. Haha yes, I know all of you might think otherwise but for me, I cannot wait to graduate. I've been stuck too long at this phase.

remo

2010-11-23T12:29:00.003+08:00

I think I might have too many hobbies. And side projects. There are some hobbies that are not yet definite and there are some long forgotten. Too many for my own good and frankly just not enough upkeep.

happy happy

2010-11-13T02:18:00.001+08:00

Hey love, 2 years.

happenings

2010-10-28T14:40:00.001+08:00

I've been stuck at home since Monday trying to finish my essay on Nietzsche, Freud and Adorno and so far so good. Of course there are the occasional lapses/breaks in between which I attribute to the apparent dryness of the entire experience. I just want to get this over and done with. Then I can go back to work on my printmaking projects and my drawings. Oh shit! Forgot about them drawings! I don't really know whether I should go ahead and build that lightbox for the A0 drawing. I kind of have an idea that involves the thick frame you can easily get at Ikea but currently I am broke and I somehow 'promised' my brother that we'll both share money to get new second-hand cymbals.

But all's not so bad. Just celebrated my birthday last weekend at Seoul Garden (mum's treat). I was really cool that most of you guys could make it. A bit sad Sam couldn't make it. He's all the way down under shooting live rounds! No la he doesn't actually. But he's involved in Wallaby nonetheless.

beam saber?!

Just take a look at this lucky guy. He has a PERFECT GRADE ZAKU II CHAR AZNABLE'S CUSTOMIZE for his birthday! Never in his dreams could he see himself actually owning a Perfect Grade Gundam kit. Mobile suits! More mobile suits! And for those of you who are in the dark, here's what all that is.

APAD

2010-10-03T22:38:00.000+08:00

tough

2010-09-21T04:19:00.002+08:00

tough times don't last, tough people do - robert schuller

There's a lot of work that needs doing and I'd better get started but all work and no play makes me angry and frustrated. Not to say that I dislike my work. I love my work but it's the deadlines and the unnecessary other stuff that bothers me, lingering at the back of my head. The unfinished.

And so I have to stick it. Don't complain. If you think about it, it's not that difficult it just takes time and effort and a lot of patience. You're always going on about proving yourself. Now's the time. Don't get distracted. Make the effort, take the jump.

jules

2010-09-15T00:38:00.002+08:00

another reminder

2010-09-14T00:55:00.002+08:00

im trying to do "the relationship between man and his religion as a whole (main theme), with religion treated as another interpretation amongst the multiplicity of interpretations in the human mind (sub-theme) as philosophised by Nietzsche, who writes that the human mind contains a multiplicity of different 'interpretations' that fight with each other for dominancy"

don't forget son.

!

2010-09-11T00:54:00.001+08:00

duet

2010-09-09T03:24:00.003+08:00

I've been so busy doing prints everyday. Well technically not everyday but ALMOST everyday. And just like that the first week of tutorial is coming to an end. I know some of my batch are happily enjoying their two week break but for us printmakers, the workload never decreases - more images, more editions, larger editions. But I guess that's the way it is. Good thing is that it's not horrible mindless grey things we have to endure. It's lots of fun exploring new techniques and different ways of using the same medium. And it's always more enjoyable when you have friends around you, more or less in the same sinking boat lol.

I think it's about 5 days already. I'm starting to feel very sullen but I'll be ok.

Come back soon please.

hopefully when she's away

2010-09-05T01:52:00.004+08:00

on another unrelated note

2010-08-29T02:14:00.002+08:00

I don't know, what do you think?

jianwei is really obsessed with Gundams

2010-08-29T01:20:00.003+08:00

I've been taking the bus (502) to school lately and it sure is much more enjoyable than taking the train. It's cooler (air-con) and less crowded than the trains albeit a bit pricier. Plus after a short while of standing you get to sit (maybe that's because it's an express bus) but I don't mind standing either. And I enjoy looking at the cars on the road..like a little boy.

Finally my weekends have meaning as we roll into another season of the Barclay's Premier League! Kind of a good reason for me to get home early and NOT stay outside, unless of course I'm watching soccer outside but that's unlikely. It's nice to be in a family where both your mum and dad are soccer fans. And we're all at loggerheads sometimes, rooting different teams. But no bad blood lol.

Also, I've made Saturday afternoons my official comic book day! Because the best books are comic books. I don't really enjoy the superhero-ish ones like Spidey or Superman though sometimes I read Wolverine and Batman but that's about it. It's a lot easier to read one-off books rather than a series because the libraries here have quite a shitty collection. Comic books aren't just for kids, more than often they have a lot of social and political connotations. Of course mixed in with a lot of fancy imaginative storytelling. So there.

gentle reminder

2010-08-20T23:06:00.004+08:00

Fine art or the fine arts describes an art form developed primarily for aesthetics and/or concept, rather than practical application. -wikipedia

overdue happenings

2010-08-19T23:22:00.006+08:00

wakapow

2010-08-15T18:13:00.002+08:00

Can't seem to get my thoughts straight. I don't know what I want and I don't know what is profoundly meaningful to me. What does that make me? Hollow? Empty? Or perhaps undiscovered, shrouded in mist?

burhur

2010-08-03T23:23:00.003+08:00

A certain someone long long ago said that the body is a locus (focal point) for a multitude of different interpretations (or forces) that continually strive to outbest each other. Forces that are affected by other forces/interpretations from everywhere beyond the body. Certain interpretations offer a mutiplicity of other interpretations but only one interpretation allows only itself. And that interpretation is religion.

cihuahua

2010-07-23T01:29:00.003+08:00

Wah wah wee wah. It's 1am Friday morning and I'm still up looking for images for printmaking tomorrow. Wah what a killer, 15 monoprints straightaway just like that. I is so tired. Never have I replied "..nah I got some other stuff to do" first week of school.

Hah! Just as I was complaining about the first week of school, this segment on KBS world is about working mothers who have to work extra hard raising children in Korea. Nowsadays the cost of raising kids is high. So why should I complain right?

Sometimes life has it's ways to shut you up and keep you going.

I bought a lot of art stuffs and still buying. Still saving for that laptop though don't know which brand/model. I'm in a dilemma because though Mac is good and all but it's not game-friendly. I'm actually considering Alienware.

Ah well. Save first then talk later.

rock on

marcel

2010-07-18T12:30:00.004+08:00

Marcel, the Viking

Too young to pillage

yet

gorilla

2010-07-16T00:25:00.003+08:00

The greedy fish is OK already, no longer does it emo on the bottom of the tank. It's very active now even at night when it's supposed to be sleeping. Does it even sleep at all? Stupid greedy fish, even though it's full it's still asking for more food, making a mess of the tank. Hahaha. I sound like a certain someone. I have't found a name for it yet, so I just call it fish. Reminds me of the time I kept that lobster a few years ago. My friend's called it Lobby but to me it's just Lobster. Unfortunately, it died when the filter stopped working right after it moulted =\

So maybe this fish won't die so soon eh? But when it gets bigger I definitely need a bigger tank.

O.o

fish

2010-07-09T17:14:00.003+08:00

Astronotus ocellatus is a species of fish from the cichlid family known under a variety of common names including oscar, tiger oscar, velvet cichlid, or marble cichlid. In South America, where the species naturally resides, A. ocellatus are often found for sale as a food fish in the local markets. The fish can also be found in other areas including China, Australia, and the United States. Although its slow growth limits its potential for aquaculture, it is considered a popular aquarium fish.

My little oscar is so afraid right now of it's new tank. I read somewhere that oscars are known 'sulkers', meaning they get emo when in a new environment. I'll just have to wait a few days for it to adjust. I doesn't swim much now, just lying floating at the bottom most of the time.

rock on

hoho

2010-07-02T23:52:00.000+08:00

Whoever bought Netherlands must have won big ah.

forestry lv. 1

2010-07-02T18:43:00.004+08:00

I'm working. Haha yes hard to believe right. I'm doing game illustration and concept art for a friend of mine from school. Can't say I'm very good at it cause I'm not trained in doing concept art but it's quite fulfilling actually. The good thing about the office is that there are tons of graphic novels and cool reference books to browse through.

WAH. I went running two days ago (after having not run for two years - last official run was the Singapore Poly50). And it hurts like hell lah. I ran from Julie's place all the way to ECP. Well not all the way. I walked, about a quarter of the journey, if not half. I don't know exactly how far I ran but I know this - I am so weak. So so weak.

rock on

hi

2010-06-28T21:59:00.002+08:00

A change of scenery for the new academic year. Enough of the boring plain nonsense.

These few days have been spent working and watching the world cup. I'm working as an artist doing concept art at 'witching hour studios'. It's basically illustration/design work and technically I'm working for a friend of mine from school. Pretty cool eh. I get to have my own technical drawing desk with tons of reference/graphic novels to read and a pretty cute laptop (it's small but works).

The world cup this year is really unpredictable in the sense that you never know if the game's going to be entertaining or not.

rock on

malaysia part 1

2010-06-19T01:10:00.002+08:00

Moshi.

Oh yes I can has free wi-fi internet.

First day in Malaysia, KL and it's not so bad. Im staying at this budget hotel at Maluri. I'm surprised to how Malaysia is quite accessible these days. Fortunately for me I'm near the RapidKL mrt station and it makes travelling way easy (except for when i took the wrong line by accident). The food here is cheap (duh) and not so bad. Went to some japanese eating place for lunch before going to KLCC area to reccy for the homeward-bound bus. Had dinner/supper at a kopitiam near the hotel and you know what, like almost every makan place here has the world cup on. HAHA so cool lah. But I am so envious of the 3 little pigs in Manilla right now. They must be having the time of their lives WITH people they know and trust and stuff. Going to Bayu's opening tomorrow at HOM.

rock on

no woman no cry

2010-06-13T02:28:00.004+08:00

13 June 2010 marks the 19th month together.

But you can't be here and I can't be there.

Just so sad.

centurion hadouken

2010-05-31T03:41:00.002+08:00

disregard the person in the background

Sometimes I feel I'm lucky enough to be surrounded by people at home. Every single one of us is so different from the other, all having different influences and different main interests as well. I wonder, where we will be in the future. I used to be taller then every single one of them and look what happened. They're at least half a head taller now and still growing, especially the last one. But I'm still the eldest though, nothing's going to change that.

At least late nights are never lonely.

rock on

you think you are messy is it

2010-05-28T19:49:00.003+08:00

golek gostan

2010-05-17T21:45:00.003+08:00

kaboulih

2010-05-13T01:36:00.007+08:00

HADOUKEN!

Like finally, assessment is over! (friday isn't counted silly it's only submission) Now is the time for movies, games, gym and more soccer. Not to mention more hang-time with the counterpart. Half of my gang is overseas, still stuck with their NS shindig. To Sam and Hafiz, all the best as you await your return back. The we can watch the world cup or something.

Assessment went quite well to my surprise, though I didn't have a lot of drawings and sketches and side stuff. Setting up wasn't quite bad. Maybe that's cause we're used to it by now. I actually had fun setting up the stuff on the wall (coming from a dude who finished almost everything already early, like Jianwei) Isn't it awesome all the printmakers were gloriously put together all on the same wall? That's quite cool. It's like we're together or something. But big kudos goes to the sculpture people. Their setup really felt like an actual gallery space. Lucky them they had to do an installation.

Year 3 is approaching but there's like this thing I have to do before I get there. Some travelling thing. Still having mixed feelings towards it. It's kind of like something you CAN do but requires a lot of effort and how much do you really want it and, have you gone too far in to pull yourself out of this? I don't know. But with much of this assessment gone I can focus a lot better now.

Concept-wise, I am blank (as usual). I don't know if the comicky nonsense I've been doing is working. One thing's for sure though. I'll want to do anatomy (muscles muscles muscle drawings!), something religious-ish or intimate and stuff that'll fuck shit up. Seriously. I'm going to practise my drawing skeelz during this holidays - like shading and stuff, haven't been doing that and composition and proportion shit. Basically YEAR ONE stuff which I think is really important. Put it this way, a musician will practise the scales and stuff for 2hours each day before moving on to pieces. So as an artist, I feel like I need to do that (draw still life/figure stuff) everyday. [Freudian slip - i havent been sketching =O]

Haven't blogged like this in a long while.

rock on

pictures and stuff in the next one promise.

dzaki

2010-04-29T02:24:00.003+08:00

"How come your name in front got D one?"

Do you really wanna know?

Ok.

This is Jawi.

If you look at the first row,

3rd letter from the left (in between ra and dal),

there is a letter called dzal.

It's a dzz sound.

Hence,

Dzaki.

okthnxbai

rock on

._.|||

2010-04-25T18:50:00.001+08:00

Omg I have no concept.

zombie-pocalypse

2010-04-20T01:16:00.003+08:00

Hey Jules!

Well that depends on the zombies. Over the years, zombies have evolved from being slow-moving, pathetic, falling-apart, combustible and easy to kill, to being fast, agile, smart, able to wield weapons (resident evil ones) and posses superpowers (left4dead ones).

If you're defending against the slow variety it is absolutely no problem at all. Pick a ranged weapon (rifle, machine-gun) and a melee weapon (parang, longsword, spear). Note that the melee weapons I state as examples have a certain range to them. You never know what might happen if you choose to stick with a knife. Very dangerous, very risky.

If you're defending against the 21st century zombies, good luck to you. You need a ranged weapon (preferably semi-auto) with 4 times as much ammunition you'd probably get, a mid-ranged weapon (handgun), several knives and a dagger. Arm yourself to the teeth for this one.

Of course as with both varieties, stay in groups and look out for each other. Defend your territory well. Have a rotation of patrols and shit. Heck I don't know I haven't even gone through National Service.

But I know what works.

A lightsaber!

rock on.

2010-04-17T21:14:00.001+08:00

I feel like printmaking on a Sunday morning.

Here.

rock on

huh

2010-04-15T03:17:00.002+08:00

silver rathalos (finally)

You know you haven't done much work when all you're doing is watch soccer at 3am in the morning (giving you the possibility of missing History class later on in the day, again) and you're playing Monster Hunter on the PSP till 3am every other day of the week. Dear boy what have you been doing?

As it stands:

Alternative Drawing (final)

Animation

SAS Music Portfolio and Concert Report

Landscape Drawing - Little India, Low perspective, High perspective

Landscape Drawing (final)

Printmaking (final) x 3 (x4edition)

rock on

walao arsenal. don't let it be another major disappointment. ganbatte!

oh happy days

2010-04-08T00:56:00.001+08:00

ughappenings

2010-04-05T19:48:00.005+08:00

Cee Eem Wai Kay

rock on

michael hussar

2010-04-02T16:12:00.004+08:00

Jianwei, this one's for you.

Here's the link.

rock on

woah

2010-04-01T02:15:00.000+08:00

Thanks Alina for the video link!

rock on

white men came, across the sea

2010-03-27T13:38:00.002+08:00

hmm

2010-03-20T02:34:00.003+08:00

Sometimes a bit of super-realism is alright.

Painting by David Kassan. I added his link already.

Go see.

rock on

till 11pm

2010-03-18T00:21:00.003+08:00

And I saw your face

in a crowded place

and I really did not know

what to do.

rock on

the barren july!

2010-03-07T16:03:00.005+08:00

4 more landscapes to go!

it jumped by the force

2010-03-02T23:46:00.003+08:00

I got this poem (translated from Mandarin) in my Alternative Drawing class. We're supposed to translate this poem into an A2 sized drawing. Text and texture.

The Barren July

the tongue of July licks and sucks my eyelight

the active human body shrivels

i use the charm of ink to bring out the soul's skin texture

the drawing pins array the solemn stirring expressions on my face

and the undulating roars of metal clangour

the city on the easel lacks blood

the newly-built old city walls (??) languidly let

their clitoris turn towards the sun

i use brushwork to modulate the mood

a lemon turns away its face

that day the sun's remnant power crippled

diarrhoea has its glorious day

the old street sells best aphrodisiac pills

the cay of july leaps onto the roof

casting a baby's cries to and fro

rock on

dear george lucas

can i be in your starwar movie i

want to be a jedi i saw starwar

and empire strikeback and return

jedi alot of times and i now am a

jedi myself jesterday i looked at

my cat a long time and it then

jump it jumped by the force

i am from germany please call me

adler nuhr

release

2010-02-25T00:43:00.002+08:00

Sometimes in life you just have to let things go.

Let go of all that hatred. Let anger just float away. Let revenge seep out of your soul and heart. You'll find that it's easier that way. Let other people win sometimes, winning isn't all that important any more. I think, that if you learn to let go, things wouldn't be half as bad as you think they are. If you let it go, you won't be affected. you won't get inflicted.

It's hard to let go. But once you do, and continue, you'll find that everything's all smooth sailing. You don't have to care about what people think, or what they say. The good points you take, and the bad points, you ponder. Process it, think whether it really is valid. If it is, then reflect on what's done. If it's invalid, then ignore it. Let it go.

Release yourselves from fear. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate and hate, leads to suffering. Sorry I just had to do that.

rock on
ps. do you know anything about sup dog?

mygoodness

2010-02-21T22:32:00.002+08:00

Oh my goodness we are all WAY behind time.

Checklist:

ALL landscape drawing assignments (03) + landscape drawing final (01)
history reflective notes (04) + (01) 1000 word essay
portfolio (01)
ALL digital art assignments (04) + proposal (01)
SAS 3D stuffs (01)

(16) stuffs to do. By end tutorial.

poke

2010-02-18T02:16:00.001+08:00

I am a bike person.

poke!

roots!

2010-02-16T02:10:00.002+08:00

No not the metal song.

I think, on my path of becoming a fine artist, I've forgotten my roots. Stuff I was initially known for, was/is(?) good at. I think I've forgotten my illustrative roots. Those were easier times, just making sure things looked nice visually, whether it looked appealing and stuff like that. You don't have to worry about artist statements or concepts. You just have to worry about anatomy, if you're doing figures. Or some physics if you're doing anything that has movement. Like fight scenes. Or if you're drawing something from history then make sure you get the time line right. Easier stuff. Easy on the mind as well. I realise that it's quite hard taking what you have, improvising/using it to go somewhere else.

Illustrating is kind of a half taboo now.

A blast from the past.

rock on

happy lunar new year

kill

2010-02-03T00:30:00.002+08:00

I don't get angry often. Even if I do it itsn't by a lot. But there is just one thing that'll make me explode and that's shit from computers and other electronic devices.

I get extremely annoyed by -

laggy computers
fucked up internet connection that keeps disconnecting for no apparent reasons
windows OS
retarded web browsers that don't load
stupid error notices that say 'unknown error'
even dumber troubleshooting notices that say 'unable to find/diagnose error'
pop-ups
VIRUSES
shitty lifespan of laptops
even shittier battery lifespan
how many fucking times do you have the (Not Responding) piece of shit?
windows HANG
unable to locate wireless connection (or something like that)

and many, many, MANY more.

Sucks man. Life is too full of shit already.

rock on

i love you babe. i dont really know how to say this. just that recently, you havent been yourself. you're extremely volatile lately. i dont know what to do, i dont know what to feel. sometimes i worry for you and sometimes i get annoyed by your impatience. sometimes i admit, i am at fault. but there are other times when you explode at small little things. today we almost argued because i wouldnt share a fried wanton with you. what's wrong sweetheart? can you tell me? can someone at least tell me some small hint of a solution. im sure both of us are unhappy with the current ups and downs. i dont know what im doing wrong. am i too lenient? too forgiving? or am i too harsh and insensitive?

=(

-.-

2010-01-27T23:22:00.002+08:00

No reason why I need this blog anymore.

gollum

2010-01-20T23:57:00.002+08:00

I lost a lot of weight. I weigh about 52kg now. I used to be 56kg tops. 53-4ish is my average weight I guess. I could check if I am underweight but I forgot how to do the BMI thing. Oh wait, for all of life's answers, there is Google. Hold on.

http://www.nhlbisupport.com/bmi/bmi-m.htm

Oh. It's 19.3

Anything below 18.5 is underweight. Anything above 25.0 is overweight so I guess I'm fine.

I think I'm not the only one who's thinking this but Digital and Time-based Media II sucks big time. I don't think it's Terrence. I just think it's the long hours you have to spend sitting in front of the com to do work. But Dzaki, don't you waste all of eternity on Facebook? Why yes, of course I do. Facebook is boring yes but it's a lot more enjoyable and less strenuous than Flash. Maybe it's just me. I just prefer a more hands-on thing.

And I miss doing intaglio. The inking process can be so..meditative.

Have you guys seen Jian Yao's drawing at the Hak Tai gallery? I want to learn how to do that. It's just awesome AND it's not super big. A big fail on me when I attempted the A1 elephant man trevvy thing. Very big fail. It's the crawl-into-a-big-hole-fail. Man that sucks.

And the Art Leadership thing. I'm having mixed feelings for it. Maybe it's the uncertainty.

rock on

monday

2010-01-16T01:10:00.002+08:00

First, let's get some visuals into your head.

It is one in the morning. I got back from Julie's about an hour ago. I haven't showered, I haven't changed. I am in the living room using my laptop in front of the TV, at the living room table. TV's showing MTV Hits. The current mv is 30secs from Mars kings and queens or something. I dunno. I prefer metal. My brother is in his usual corner of the room playing his electric guitar. Practicing some off song that I might not like in the end, like Paramore or something. Don't get me wrong, he plays metal and all the other hardcore stuff. Visuals, there.

So here's the thing. Short one. Sometimes you think there are things that get in your way, generally school work, travel, weather, proposal and stuff like that. But the reality is, all the things that are in the way are there because you let them get in your way. And that shouldn't happen.

And nows-a-days I hit the sack the moment I get home. Which is different but it's no good I guess. While most people would say that sleeping early is good for you (I can agree to a certain extent) but most of the things you do after school (that's when you get home, like about 10-12) are also as important as sleep. That little bit of extra time could be well spent on researching what to write for your essay, proposal or artist statement. And who couldn't say no to checking mail and facebook?

It's just that these days are getting tired-er and tired-er. And I think I don't really like screen purintingu. At least not till CEE EM WAI KAY. Maybe I'll enjoy that.

rock on

3mc

2010-01-06T05:03:00.002+08:00

9 years approx.

for those who might need it

2010-01-02T07:14:00.000+08:00

rock on

awesomeawesome

2009-12-31T20:52:00.002+08:00

happy new year

rock on
i'll get my 4 points next year

sauron

2009-12-27T18:24:00.003+08:00

Sauron, I have but no place for you in my room.

You're just too big a model.

But I'm not throwing you away just yet.

rock on

air

2009-12-24T02:20:00.002+08:00

13 days now.

It took 13 days for me to succumb. To really feel it man.

I miss you, alot. I'm kinda wishing (hard) that you're here right now.

But then again, 15 days left.

Can.

i met you before, once in a dream

2009-12-19T20:47:00.004+08:00

inp 03

2009-12-17T17:15:00.003+08:00

$65,1450-$100,701 per year. About $5k-$10k a month. Man that's still lower than a footballer's pay!

is a person trained by a human spaceflight program to command, pilot, or serve as a crew member of a spacecraft. In the United States, professional, military and commercial .. who travel above an altitude of 80km are awarded ASTRONAUT WINGS.

I wonder if they taste any better than buffalo wings.

When am I going to pick myself up, go to Straits Co., buy that large piece of A1 and do my Europe trip drawing?

Timetable just came out. OK it came out a while ago but I just checked it. A few new modules like Alternative Drawing and something something else. Professional practise is it? Can't remember. So not looking forward to that. Oh and there's also Landscape Drawing. TA-DA! After like a month and a half finally LOL. Not that we haven't done any.

A few changes. Mr Lim will be teaching us (FA2C) alternative drawing, Zhang BC will take landscape drawing and Terence will take us for Digital and Time-based Media. Fuck right? Terence is much unliked. But looking forward to Mr Lim's class.

rock on

inspiration #01

2009-12-14T21:03:00.004+08:00

"Knowing others is intelligence;

knowing yourself is true wisdom.

Mastering others is strength;

mastering yourself is true power"

May the Force be with you, always

-Ben Kenobi

rock on

oh my god

2009-12-08T18:10:00.002+08:00

Omygawd I have C and D for my assessment results

rock on

silent night. holy night.

nervous gundark

2009-12-06T18:53:00.008+08:00

Well here I am. At home on a Sunday. Alone. But that's cause I was over at Sam's yesterday watching soccer. If I knew one thing that was for sure, the weekend is the time for soccer. And getting wasted staying up all night at whoever's house. I so did not expect coming home to an empty house but that's fine. Cause Sunday is slack day. Sunday itself is every single reason out there to take a break and relax. Sunday is awesome. Barney much?

So this year I am not spending Christmas with Jules. She's going to have this awesome frosty Christmas with her family over in Holland! She needs this I know. For like two weeks before assessment she was this nervous train wreck. Just like every other assessment. Hah. She'll be there for a month, so it's not only Christmas it's also New Year's and Ian's birthday. But the last one isn't that important. Hah I'm kidding Ian (if you happen to read this but I know you don't)

Also I haven't done any drawings. Cause I was thinking, break from art school right? So why'd you have to draw even in the holidays.

Cause I need to =\

Which reminds me. I haven't gotten round to starting, let alone finishing, the drawing for the Europe trip exhibition for next year. I am so screwed because I changed my initial idea. And if possible, I wanna do it A1 or A0. Haha awesome right. How the hell am I going to get that framed?

I didn't know why I blogged today. Usually it's about some drawing or stuff like that. Do I only live for school now. I don't know.

rock on

ninja!

2009-12-05T00:52:00.000+08:00

rock on

2009-12-04T02:08:00.001+08:00

If I live, I will kill you.

If I die, you are forgiven.

ninjas can't catch you if you're on fire

2009-12-04T01:07:00.001+08:00

._.

2009-11-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

Man these holidays. Apart from being a long well deserved break, it's actually kinda boring.

I've never worked a day in my life before. Maybe I should go and work.

But why work?

Isn't there anything else to do?

rock on

haha i need that repsol right about now

argh im sick :(

2009-11-20T14:22:00.004+08:00

wow

2009-11-14T11:17:00.000+08:00

Jules sent this entry.

wow.

rock on =]

.__.

2009-11-07T21:48:00.002+08:00

Dear Santa,

I want..

Honda Repsol CBR1000RR

rock on

thanks babe ;)

2009-11-07T01:14:00.000+08:00

2009-11-05T13:44:00.001+08:00

2009-11-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

fish

2009-10-26T17:51:00.002+08:00

Thank you for all the birthday wishes.

That morning I woke up and I looked at my phone, Leslie asked me out for breakfast. Says he wants to treat. But I couldn't get up so early so we had lunch instead. Thanks man. It's been finally 10 years knowing you, cause I've known you half my life, since primary school.

After that I pretty much did nothing at home.

We had dinner at the glass house fish n co. Yes I know what happens when you have birthdays there. But the cake. Hahaha walao. They got me a spiderman cake. Thanks guys.

So this year's celebration wasn't that bad after all.

rock on

now it's on to more pressing matters. like assessment! =O

tides of ashara

2009-10-18T02:41:00.001+08:00

Huge relief that there is no more SAS DnM for me on Fridays

rock on

unbelievable

2009-10-16T00:21:00.007+08:00

Shit day today.

Went to school early, but..

Lost my wallet, got it back (someone returned it, good) but no money inside.

Backtracked..wasted time

Lost $50 just like that.

And I need a Mac. Yes a Mac not a laptop because virus control is KEY.

Without a MAC, I will forever always be using the laggy computer to do my essay and digital artstuffs. But no lui how to buy?

Every time I save money it somehow manages to fly away~

Like today. Sian. Either I have to buy this or that for school. Or it just flies away.

Shouldn't have worn this pair of jeans today. Lost my money because of it.

i am not rocking man

ungrapsable

2009-10-11T15:54:00.004+08:00

Oh yeah we started on nude drawings like a week ago.

the left arm looks as though it's dislocated but i assure you it's the camera =]

and the legs too. i suck at photos

rock on

graps

2009-10-10T17:58:00.002+08:00

Yay I cleaned my printmaking drawer!

rock on

come to terms

2009-10-08T01:01:00.002+08:00

Finally I have come to understand.

However, to not succumb under the circumstances, is to yet follow another set of societies.

So to prevent the following discussions with other enthusiasts, being a hippy is a good thing to do.

Why bother, when we can wait and enjoy?

Then again, we need sustenance. Conformity is the way. But that doesn't mean we have to conform a 100%.

We were born into conformity, sadly. But don't be emo. Be Buddha.

rock on